Ok guys so i will give you a short report and a situation i have which i find really confusing.
So i met this girl from a friend, we all went to do an activity together. We vibed a bit and talked and stuff but nothing crazy. We also touched hands a bit because of the nature of the activity but again, all relatively innocent stuff. Afterwards, i added her on instagram and we texted a bit back and forth, mostly replying to each other stories. After exams ended (we are university students), i told her to meet up and she happily agreed. We met up (just me and her) and we went on this bar in the center and sat on these chairs where u can touch the person but it is not really a couch. We spent there like 3 hours, talking about different things, making jokes, having fun etc. I paid the first round of drinks (a  0.33 litter beer (around 5% alcohol)) and she paid for the second round. Towards the last hour or so i started touching her hand and stuff and we got comfortable with touching each other hands. I would say i hit state during the last  45 minutes or so, i sexualized a bit and at one moment we were both holding hands and she did not remove it. At that moment i kissed her, a small make out. After that, she leaned on and she kissed me.  She told me my lips were a bit rough because it is quite cold these days and said "next time you go out with a girl apply some product to make your lips softer". Afterwards we left, she said "that was fun" when we were leaving. Then i walked her to the train station (she lives in a nearby city) and went home. Considering this girl was quite pretty and cool i am very happy with myself that i had the balls to make the first move because usually i chickened out and this costed me like 4 girls so far.
Now things get weird and bad.
I reply to her story like 3 days after we meet and we text a bit, then i suggest to meet later on the week (sunday and this texting is on tuesday). She says she is busy that weekend but suggests to meet me next wendsday (so 1 week exactly from the moment this texting is happening). I agree and we pick a time and place. I do not really text her after because i was busy with my stuff and partially because i did not want to mess up anything with bad texts (i am not that good in texting atm).
So today (wendsday) i go the place we arranged to meet but she is nowhere to be found. I text her "where are you" and 20 minutes later she tells me that she forgot and was sorry and shit.  I got super pissed but refraimed myself for saying anything nasty, i just told her not to do it again and lets find a time again to meet and stick to it. 
She suggests friday after class and says she is also meeting some other friends. I get bit confused and tell her if we can meet on the weekend because on friday i am busy. She tells me okay but i am not sure yet and then says something weird to me. She asks me "if this is a friendly meeting because things got a bit weird towards the end of our previous meeting". I am like WTF to myslef, you legit kissed me, said it was fun and we even made jokes after when i walked you to your destination and now "it was weird"?????????
I text her like "Is it really friendly tho" and "What was weird about last time"
She says something like "yes very friendly" and "haha nevermind, beer in empty stomach i guess".
I am really really confused with this shit. 
Most of my friends are not thatttt experienced with girls so i feel like asking here for advice because i really want some good advice.
We talked for like 4 hours almost before i kissed her and it was mutual, she accepted it and even kissed me back. We did not even drink much, she never said she was tipsy or drunk and seemed perfectly mine to me. I am really confused.
Any advice would help. Sorry for the super long thread but i wanted to give you guys a clear assesment of the situation.
 

I will explain it all at some point. I've discovered some powerful protocols which speed up meditation by like a factor of x100. Most people have never really meditated properly one hour in their life, until the machine shows you what true meditation feels like.

A little.
EEG meditation is so straining it's hard to do it for longer than 60 minutes. You will be totally burned out. It's like lifting weight at the gym. You can't do it all day long.

I can't get into that because it's way too complicated.
No, I will not do a video on it. It would require an entire course and I am not going to do that.
If you want to experience EEG, go to a professional braintraining center near you.
Cheers!
Take it easy, but take it

@Enlightenment You are the one making the distinction between permanent and not. That is irrelevant at the moment of realization.
Just because something isn't permanent does not make it any less important to one's growth.
And you never come back quite the same. It changes you. Just like a meditation retreat. It does not solve all problems at once. Nor is anyone claiming that.
You have to be careful with how you set your expectations. The psychedelic path is a unique path. It does not have to align with any other path, nor meet the milestones of any other path. It does not have to fit the 10 Ox Herding pics or anything else. You can leap straight to total enlightenment in 5 minutes. And then jump back down. And that's okay. It is what it is.

Sure. It is impossible to take every thing someone suggests to you without discrimination. There are literally 1000s of research chemicals which almost no human being has ever taken. And some of them can be very nasty. I am not gonna ever try them all.
But to refuse to try 5-MeO-DMT given its well-documented track record is quite foolish. I don't care how enlightened you are. This substance is pure magic. This is the actual Holy Grail in powdered form. And yet most people criticize and ridicule it. It's quite sad really. God presents itself to you in powdered form and you reject him. Why? For some silly reason?

I tried it once. Didn't like it. It was too much for doing work. And that was 10ug.
I suppose I should try it some more. I wanted it to be a powerful technique but for me it feels like I'm better off just doing a solid trip than microdosing. Other people may feel differently, like if you're depressed or something, maybe it would be good for you.
Modafinil feels a lot better for everyday activities and work than 10ug of LSD. Modafinil is so nice I often don't take it simply because I feel like it's cheating. Life is too good on Modafinil, LOL. You can't rely on drugs to hold up your life. Tripping is different. Tripping is a rare event which is more like a rite of passage or a retreat. So it's very different from daily dosing of drugs for life enhancement. I'm generally not a fan of near-daily dosing of anything because it becomes a crutch.
But hey, if you can't function without it because you have bad ADHD or whatever, then it might be good for you, for a while.
Eventually though your goal should be to be totally free of chemical crutches. Happiness must come from within.

Psychedelics + Nootropics + Kriya yoga
Kriya yoga is very effective at shutting down the monkey mind through brute physical force.
Also, if you have the money, EEG neurofeedback training. You can find a center near you that offers hourly sessions. It's great for ADD. Just 5 to 15 sessions can make a lasting impact.

There is always a benefit to exploring different psychedelics. Each one shows you something unique and valuable.
If all you learned was that 5-MeO-DMT is better for your aims than N,N-DMT, that would be a valuable lesson. But my guess is N,N-DMT will hold a lot more lessons for you than that.
You never know what lessons you'll learn until you try.

@TJ Reeves Cool idea. I've thought about doing an EEG like that as well. Here are my thoughts on your experiment:
The Muse is totally inadequate for what you're looking to do. You need a true EEG machine with wet electrodes and precise placement on the right parts of your skull. The secret of mystical experiences isn't so much in their amplitudes or frequencies, but in their synchronization, which is harder to see. What you want are Theta, Alpha, and Gamma waves perfectly syncing, while Beta waves are suppressed. Experiences of God should reflect the EEG of a dying brain. A physically dying brain actually synchronizes Theta, Alpha, and Gamma before it flatlines. Advanced yogis supposedly can have zero EEG readings. Like they are brain-dead. Those are my best guesses. Certainly needs to be tested.
To do a good test of 5-meo would require a device like this. The other problem is that these devices require that you keep the electrodes perfectly still. Which would be REALLY hard to do on a 5-meo breakthrough. Any movements -- even eyeblinks -- would ruin the signal. So you'd have to really have your shit together to pull that off. But it could be done.
My guess is that 5-meo creates tons of brainwave synchrony. Would love to confirm that.

The EEG machine itself is fairly cheap: $800. But the software, accessories, and training materials will cost another $1,500 at least.

@mmKay I would rather have heavy metal poisoning than use Facebook.

If you meditate properly using an EEG, you see benefits from meditation almost immediately, same day even.
Of course none of that is God-realization.
But achieving that optimal meditation state is damn near impossible without an EEG. So people meditate in all the wrong ways and see very little benefit even after months.
If you're going to do something it's best to be serious about it or not do it at all. The people who succeed in this work are the very serious ones.

@d0ornokey It's a very complex thing to learn. Stay tuned. I'm working getting the info out there. It took me months and thousands of dollars to learn it.
You can locate professional trainers in your city by googling. That is the easy way.

It's hard to find magic pills in life. Technology usually comes with trade-offs. The trade-off here is time and money.
It shows you what true meditation feels like. Without the machine the mind wanders around far too much and tends to stray from that narrow groove which is true meditation.
The machine experientially guides you into the groove and keeps you there. It is a state of total thoughtlessness. It's very tricky to stay in that state without the machine.
Really, in the future, all meditation will be done with a machine because it's too ineffective otherwise. This is why most meditators don't go far. They are unable to hit that groove even after years of practice. It takes talent to hit that groove. A talent most people lack and don't even know they lack. Most meditators don't even know what this groove is that I'm talking about. But a machine with the right training program and show it to you in 15 minutes.
It will probably take 50-100 years for cheap, powerful, yet user-friendly meditation machines to develop. Right now they don't exist.

It makes meditation about 100x more effective.

@Holygrail If you are serious you should be doing it twice a day.
Again, if you're going to do something, do it seriously or just don't do it. This half-assing of things produces horrible results.
Decide what you want. Be clear. And then do it full-bore.

No one is going to hand you that much money. The best way for you to achieve that is focus all your effort on building marketable skills and start your own business or freelancing work. You will have to work your way out of that hole you are in. You will have to both work hard and smart. Hard work alone will not be enough.

Try splitting up techniques. If you're doing a 30 minute session:
Minutes 0 - 10: Mantra or focus on breath sensations at the nostrils or breath counting
Minutes: 10 - 20: Open Awareness or do nothing or noting 
Minutes: 20 - 30: Metta or Gratitude or Forgiveness Meditation
Find a technique sequence you resonate with, and stick with it. 

If you're wanting to do an hour sit which I'd highly recommend, just repeat this cycle 1 more time to get to 60 minutes. 

This approach has uniquely powerful benefits for beginners. If you're interested to hear more feel free to DM me.

I'd caution you with taking on Leo's perspective of how ineffective meditation is. Long term practice with a powerful contemplation/epistemology practice leads to crazy results, especially if combined with psychedelics and meditation retreats. 

Give the technique a shot, you may surprise yourself. 

I have meditated  for over 20 years without much results.  And that includes doing Vipassana 10 day retreats.  There is a reason why in the East traditionally only monks would meditate.  Because taking it seriously is a full time occupation.  Shinzen Young teaches Vipassana but that is not how he became enlightened.  He was in a Japanese monastery where he had to meditate for 6 months straight during a Japanese winter.  Every morning he would have to pour ice cold water over his body to start the day.  Enlightenment by torture.  Westerners want it easy so don’t get results.

@Leo Gura What is your opinion on combining meditation with psychedelic work? By that I mean having a daily meditation practice (1-2 hours) + deep contemplation/investigation/meditation on psychedelics every now and then. 
Right now I'm thinking that this is the best way. But idk what will come out of it. I'm also adding shamanic breathing to the mix (every 2 weeks, so frickin' powerful)
Btw, did psychedelic "work" boost your meditation "results"?
Asking out of curiosity. I love basking in being every day so I'm staying with meditation for sure.

Meditation is mostly ineffective unless you do it at a hardcore scale. In other words, book a cabin in the woods and force yourself to meditation for 10 days straight. Then you will see some progress and results. Although of course as soon as you return back to the "real world" you will lose most of those results.
This is why people meditate for decades and never awaken. It's highly inefficient. For it be effective you must do it very strictly and for long periods of uninterrupted time. Some people who simply have higher baseline consciousness can benefit from mediation rapidly, but this is the exception not the norm.
You can meditate every day for 40 years and never realize you are God. In fact I would bet on this for most people. This is the reality which explains why most of the world is asleep. And this is what most meditation teachers won't tell you.
God-realization is beyond anything a normal human can meditate her way to. An enormous amount of time can be wasted doing meditation in this weak-sauce way.

That's bad advice to listen to.
Minding is what reality is up to.

I'm a born again Christian who has forsaken the world and all its lies and deceptions. 

@Preety_India Cope with it as best you can for now. Try to minimize drama and then focus on getting a job and moving out.
It's a terrible idea to live with parents once you're an adult and doing personal development and living your life on purpose. Parents must be kept at a safe distance because they will hold you back. You can visit them but never live with them.