I was 110% committed to fixing this area of my life. So failure and quitting was not even an option.
It only took a few months. Nothing in the grand scheme of things. And it was an exciting journey. Some of my fondest memories today are my early days of game.

@Hardkill Lost my virginity at 18. Have slept with between 30-50 women. I feel comfortable around women when I'm dating them, and I have no problem seducing them. It's keeping them attracted that's the issue for me. Again, within 1-8 weeks I've lost them. 
 
I've had one girlfriend. We dated for 2 years: 18-20. It was highly dysfunctional and co-dependent. We were both painfully insecure.
 
I've come a long way since then, let me tell you!

There is no conspiracy here. The world's top business leaders and politicians will of course collaborate on issues they see facing the future. And of course they will do so from a self-biased perspective to increase the survival of themselves, their friends, their company, and their nation.
This is not anything new. This is how human civilization has been developing for the last 10,000 years.
To be worried or outraged by things like this is silly.

Why do you need someone to get you? As long as you get yourself, bask joyfully in that.
It's not like anybody gets me. Let others be blissfully ignorant. Focus on raising your own consciousness and bliss. Cultivate inner bliss so you feel good without anyone.
Developing a life purpose will also resolve the depression and suicidal thoughts. Besides awakening you need something productive to do with your life. You need to find a creative outlet.
Design the kind of life you would enjoy living. Don't sit around twiddling your thumbs. At your age you've got enormous potential, you can basically become anyone you want.

Doing mushrooms is pointless if one isn't willing to contemplate and question everything. Like a Christian he will just interpret the mushroom experience along his existing paradigmatic biases.
Like I said, he's paradigm locked. It's that simple. Can he eacape it? Yes. Will he? I doubt it. He is not interested in that.

All you gotta do is ask Sam, "What is God?" or "What is Truth?" or "What is love?" and watch him flail like a drowning child.

It's not per se that extroversion is more attractive. Extroverts simply get more logistical opportunities for sex.
The #1 key for sex to happen is logistical opportunity and bumping into new people. Introverts bump into far fewer new people than extroverts. So o course they will have less sexual opportunities. It's just basic logistics. You can't get laid sitting at home reading books. To get laid a lot you need to go to parties and social events. Which introverts don't enjoy going to.
You act as though I said introverts can't get laid. That's not what I said. I simply said they get laid less.
The reality is that you don't need to get laid a lot with many people to have children and reproduce.
Also, introverts can be very good at getting laid through other means. For example, many introverts become successful businessmen who then just buy as much sex as they want.
For example, I could leverage my introversion to buy a lot of sex if I wanted to. Remember, for most of human history sex was traded and acquired through wealth and power, not pickup at nightclubs or Tinder.
The ultimate way to get laid is through power. Consider Genghis Khan.
I am not conflating those two.
Doesn't matter. That kind of polarization only increases your results with girls. A highly polarizing obnoxious ass like Trump will be hated by 33% of girls, but about 33% will love him. Girls who hate him will really hate him. Girls who love him will really love him. At least at first, before they learn how much of toxic devil he is. Eventually 100% of girls will hate him
That's nice in theory but doesn't work in practice. You need to be social to get laid a lot.
Of course you can still get laid being quiet. You'll get just laid less relative to someone who's more active.

Osho taught to embrace materialism.

What crack are you smoking?
Osho was a playboy. He probably banged 3 new groupies every night. He certainly didn't transcend or master sexual desire. He indulged it like a rockstar.
If I did that, you guys would call me a devil cult leader charlatan.
Of course hormones play a role. But that's not really fair either. Yeah, it's easy to "transcend" sexual desire by cutting your balls off. But that's not really a transcendence of desire, that's just tuning your body to stop producing the desire. That's like saying I have transcend my desire for dick -- simply by virtue of the fact that I wasn't born gay. By that logic I am a master of transcending the desire for dick. It never even arises for me. But do I really deserve credit for that?
And furthermore, to say that one has transcended sexual desire simply because one has no sexual opportunities, is also a kind of cheat. The real test is when a hot girl rubs her ass in your lap and you are still able to say no.

Highly extroverted guys with massive natural effortless charisma.
Unfortunately that ain't me.
Extroversion is directly correlated to how much sex you will have.

This is not the case.
Most of my advice pertains to the relative domain. In your case of dealing with these healers, I'm telling you to be careful precisely for relative reasons. They can give you bad/wrong advice and you just trust them and ruin your life.
In dealing with some of these spiritual healer type people I have found many of them to be full of shit and it would be very foolish to entrust important life decisions to them. I'm not saying it's all bad, but you gotta be skeptical of things they say because they say some bullshit that will directly contradict other spiritual healers.
For example, I went to a top rated spiritual healer last year and asked her specifically about my health problems. She told me there is absolutely nothing wrong with my body. At first I believed her. Then I did medical testing and found out otherwise, and conclusively proved to myself that she was full of shit as I started taking medicine and feeling much better.
Now, will she ever admit her mistake? Never. She's too high on her own spiritual bullshit.
So from now on any time someone tells me they are a spiritual healer, I will look at them like they are an idiot. And in questioning these healers deeply I can see they are not awake, they are playing sophisticated games of self-deception and imagination.

It's tricky to say. I don't know exactly. Some people get stuck chasing the same desire endlessly forever.
I think it probably involves experiencing enough of it that you get sick of it and are ready to move on to higher things. It also requires exploration of higher joys.
I feel like I have almost extinguished my desire for junk food. It used to be so hard to say no, now it is almost effortless. And I had a lot of junk food in the past, but it caused me so much suffering I don't want it any more.
Lower desires tend to bring a lot of suffering which you can use against them. But it requires going through that suffering. Play so much video games that you are disgusted with yourself.
It certainly helps a lot when you discover higher spiritual dimensions to life. You can use spiritual joy to replace the seeking of base cravings and raw pleasure.
Sex is still a desire I have not figured out. It's so powerful and intoxicating. I see few spiritual masters have conquered it even in their 60s.

Shares don't need to give executive control.
Then you are a privileged elite. Because this is very exceptional.
Nice try, but things would still have value even if we killed at the daytraders tomorrow.
Markets can exist without daytraders and speculators.
In some ideal case yes, but nature weeds out middlemen for good reason. Middlemen don't last long in this game.
Thanks, but I'll take my chances

Have you heard of Amazon? Their stock prices are soaring yet they still treat their employees like shit.
Look, I'm not saying a serious investor shouldn't get some return on his investment. But a billion times return like today's CEO's? Hell no.
You could cut returns by 95% and things would still be fine. Take Jeffo Bezo's returns down from $200 billion to $50 million. Give the rest to the laborers who do the actual labor. Likewise for all major corporations. There will still be rich CEOs and investors, just not insanely rich. Cap income at $50 mil and the world will be a better place. There is no reason why anyone should hold over $50 mil no matter how many companies they start. If they don't want to work after $50 mil, fuck them. Let them retire. But such people will choose to work anyway because they can't stand retirement, so nothing will be lost.

It's just what guys do. Don't take it personal. But of course you will.
Of course, because it goes against your survival agenda.
God himself it not able to stop thirsty guys from thinking of women as sex objects. That's how guys think. Of course women don't like it, but that's your agenda, not the guy's agenda.
You're not going to succeed in shaming or guilting guys into not thinking about fuckability. That would be like guys trying to shame or guilt women into having 3-somes. It's not gonna work.
Just so you know what it's like to be a guy, your mind is always automatically scanning for fuckability. This is not something you just decide not to do. And what you so crudely call "fuckability" is just survival value. You, as a woman, are also always scanning for survival value. You just need a different value. So don't for one second think that you're above this sort of this. Your entire life is you scanning for survival value.

@ColeMC01 To some degree yes. But in-person game is much more favorable to effort.
If you put in lots of effort hitting the streets and clubs you will attract some stunning girls. The same cannot be said with online.

I'll grant you height. That's part of looks.
The rest is BS.
How about this. We guys will ask you ladies to post your bra dimensions in your profile, and we will consider that to be not looks but a personality trait
That basically falls under LOOKS. You are looking at that in the pics. But it only matters if the guy is already attractive looking to begin with, otherwise jay jay goes dry.

The problem goes way deeper than that. The problem is in how your mind defines "evidence" and "proof". These are not simple notions, these notions are relative to one's metaphysical and epistemic paradigm.
The problem is that a materialistic paradigm does not have a robust and subtle enough notion of "evidence" and "proof" to accomodate paranormal phenomena, therefore it is blind to them and says they can't exist.
Color can't exist for one who super-glued his eyelids shut.

@Hugo Oliveira You should look into doing pickup more authentically rather than selling yourself. Reframe it more as socialization rather than trying to sell yourself. And enjoy the process.
The bottom line is that you cannot get laid unless you socialize somehow. How you do it is up to you.

Of course your defintion of maturity is subjective and relative.
The problem that academics and scientists have is that they do not admit the subjectivity and relativity of their own work. So they use that label "subjective" in a demeaning sense and apply it to everyone but themselves. Which is the chief delusion.
Do not expect scientists or academics to understand or acknowledge such things because they have thoroughly brainwashed themselves as a prerequisite of success in their profression.
You can't get a man to understamd a thing when his job depends on him not understanding it.
Relative is the concept you're looking for here, not subjective. Human standards of beautiful people are still totally relative to culture and human biology. A dog does not find a super model beautiful.
If we changed your genetics and culture what you find beautiful would radically change.
And then there is the absolute perspective which is that everything in the Universe is infinitely beautiful. Which is Absolute Truth. But most people are too self-biased to see it.
You see, the human or animal mind is simply selecting a narrow, self-biased slice of Infinite Beauty that serves its survival. Ta-da!

Yes, it's a self-reinforcing reality bubble that the mind constructs and maintains. Structurally no different than religion or a conspiracy theory. They're all constructed reality bubbles.

To be honest... creativity just doesn’t pay. I mean for the very select few that are able to be rewarded for their creativity sure it pays but for every one of them there are a hundred that aren’t. It’s basically a requirement if you have any hope of amassing any sort of wealth in modern society that you invest in the stock market. If you are well educated and on a salary between 10k - 100k you basically have to invest in the stock market if you want to have a decent amount of savings.

So, I was in a long-distance relationship with a woman who treated me like shit. I let her treat me like that, cause I was too blind in love with her. Call it fantasy, love whatever. When i told her about how I felt bad because of her. She was in denial and told me to stay away from her.  I deleted her number and unfollowed her on Insta. I've never been taken seriously by women. It always ends up in a mess when I tell them how I feel. 
I started liking this another girl, i was simply texting, and she calls me rude. She pulled away. I was like- Tf just happened? It's been three days, I haven't texted her, nor seen her stories or liked her post. After this many years, I have learnt, that if a woman pulls away, let her go. It will always be worse when i try to convince her or tell her I am sorry. It has never worked. I know from experience. 
So, the fairy tale idea of the one girl who will truly love me, is kinda dead. I hate to play these mind games. I am growing more detached, which is far better than super needy like i was. I'll never look at women like angels anymore. I won't make generalizations cause I don't want to demean anyone here. The games we play while being in survival mode. I feel like romantic attraction is kinda shallow. I can see through my own attraction as well- I don't see beyond looks: The visuals. 
Help me understand, how can there be a true relationship, when both sexes will always be attracted to attractive people of the opposite gender, and sometimes, even cheat?  
 
 

@d0ornokey Check how you are finding these girls. If you are attracting unloving girls, there's something weird in your way of attracting them. Diversify your source and be mindful of how you're rejecting loving girls. You can also develop screening questions to screen out unloving girls.
SCREEN your girls before you sleep with them! Say NO to girls who don't fit your standards. Have high standards. Cure your neediness. Set boundaries.

Yes, and that is what creates wage slavery.
When you earn money from doing nothing you steal that money from the people who do the work.
You call it "just investing" when really it is exploitation. You just are not honest with yourself about what you're doing because it does not benefit you to be honest about it otherwise you'd have to stop doing. So the key for you is exploit others while thinking you are a good guy.