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Survival's a dirty business. Since some was cut out, here's how the full quote goes: You ever been to the tail section? Do you have any idea what went on back there? When we boarded? It was chaos. Yeah, we didn't freeze to death, but we didn't have time to be thankful. Wilford's soldiers came and they took everything. A thousand people in an iron box. No food, no water... After a month, we ate the weak... You know what I hate about myself? I know what people taste like. I know that babies taste best... There was a woman. She was hiding with her baby. And some men with knives came. They killed her and they took her baby. And then an old man-no relation, just an old man-stepped forward and he said, "Give me the knife." And everyone thought he'd kill the baby himself. But he took the knife and he cut off his arm. And he said, "Eat this, if you're so hungry. Eat this, just leave the baby." I had never seen anything like that. And the men put down their knives... You've probably guessed who that old man was. That baby was Edgar. And I was the man with the knife. I killed Edgar's mother... And then one by one, other people in the tail section started cutting off arms and legs and offering them. It was like a miracle. And I wanted to. I tried, it's... A month later, Wilford's soldiers brought those protein blocks. We've been eatin' that shit ever since. 18 years I've hated Wilford. 18 years I've waited for this moment. And now I'm here... Open the gate. Please.

An interesting perspective on the nature of violence that came from one of my YT follows. As always, keep an open mind going into this.

Who wants truth? Every word that's been written here or that ever will in all of human history is nothing more than piss in the wind.

Nearly every interaction feels like I've had it before, been this way since I was a child. I tend to hyper-fixate on these aspects, it feels like something is keeping me trapped in? I'm low end on the autism spectrum fwiw, and I know that can lead to people feeling trapped on its own.

Every single interaction I have feels like it's building up to something. But you're also right in that it shows that I still hold onto a great deal, I can feel that I do. It's like an onion, I'm letting go layer by layer. Enjoying the process for what it is

Been happening to me my last few LSD and mushroom trips. I'll enter this state for an hour or more where I'm living an infinite number of lives, infinitely dying over and over - realizing this is how it goes on forever. I've also had several experiences where by going through the cycle of infinite death, I break through to the inverse and realize that means there's infinite life. I'm sure this has got to be somewhat of a common thing. Thoughts? Experiences?

I just love the experience of it all. Being shirtless with the sun bearing down on me, enjoying the natural landscapes as well as houses and buildings, feeling everything in my body come together to work in harmony, reaching that point where my focus is singular but includes everything. You reach that certain point of pure forward kinetic drive where 10 miles can fly by like it's nothing. I've been sidelined for 7 weeks with a meniscus tear that I picked up during a HM, but I'm so ready to get back to even little 1/4 mile jogs and slowly building back up.

Allow me to introduce y'all to the Kinsey Scale https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kinsey_scale

It's not, nobody's fully engaged for 100 hours a week, and anyone who says it is just status signaling. It's a great recipe for burnout and diminished returns. Sure, I can go a few weeks in a row at 60-80 (and probably 15-25 of these hours are break or more idle time) hours of solid work, but then I need a full week to recover. All about making your time more efficient. Working that long on something means they either: A) Aren't actually doing it, B) Are completely overwhelmed and on a road to self-destruction, or C) Just aren't working smart or using time efficiently.

All ratings are just right. And as public perception changes, then that will be right, as well.

My favorite Meshuggah lyrics: No more ifs, no bias, no ambiguity No wondering whether this is it Clarity to brightly shining the images so painfully absolute No edges blurred on this awareness No unknown weights to tip the knowledge scales eyes dilated to grasp it all as every illusion of what we are fails an unquestionable picture - determined, complete its crystalline lines untouched by doubt so vivid, so deprived of hesitation shining in its evil splendor the burning hatred of man a million degrees on display human voracity delineated the demons in us all by fumes portrayed stare, see, take in, grasp comprehend, assimilate, behold your reflection its framing - -gold plated lies the canvas - hurting souls caught and weaved the artist - the human dream incinerated, devoured, deceived

I have access to pubmed through uni, the conclusion words it a little bit better. 4 Discussion The main finding of this large, nationally-representative prospective cohort study was that the unadjusted model suggested a protective survival benefit among those engaging in yoga, but the results were no longer significant in an adjusted model. As a result, the findings of this brief report are in accordance with a recent review highlighting minimal effects of yoga on mortality, exercise capacity and health-related quality of life. 4 This should not, however, diminish the potential health-related effects (e.g., reduced oxidative stress) of yoga in some vulnerable populations (e.g., hypertensive older adults), which has been demonstrated elsewhere. 2 Notable strengths of this short report include the national prospective study and the relatively reasonable follow-up period. Given the relatively low engagement in yoga in this national sample ( N = 240), future studies targeting individuals who actively participate in yoga are needed. It is possible that the relatively small number of participants engaging in yoga may have rendered inadequate statistical power to detect an association. However, an unadjusted association between yoga and mortality was observed. Like most prospective studies, another limitation is the single baseline assessment of yoga within the past 30 days. It is possible that yoga patterns could have changed during the follow-up period. Future prospective representative samples employing a larger sample of yoga participants and evaluating changes in yoga patterns are needed before strong conclusions can be made regarding the potential yoga-mortality relationship.

My mother shared an article with me recently which offers a lengthy list of grocery products that have tested positive for containing glyphosate. I've copied and pasted most of it for convenience, but here's the link for those interested: https://www.healthy-holistic-living.com/cancer-linked-glyphosate-found-cheerios2/ • Granola – Back to Nature Classic Granola – Quaker Simply Granola Oats, Honey, Raisins & Almonds – Back to Nature Banana Walnut Granola Clusters – Nature Valley Granola Protein Oats ‘n Honey – KIND Vanilla, Blueberry Clusters with Flax Seeds • Instant Oats – Giant Instant Oatmeal, Original Flavor – Quaker Dinosaur Eggs, Brown Sugar, Instant Oatmeal – Umpqua Oats, Maple Pecan – Market Pantry Instant Oatmeal, Strawberries & Cream • Oat Breakfast Cereal – Cheerios Toasted Whole Grain Oat Cereal – Lucky Charms – Barbara’s Multigrain Spoonfuls, Original, Cereal – Kellogg’s Cracklin’ Oat Bran oat cereal • Snack Bars – KIND Oats & Honey with Toasted Coconut – Nature Valley Crunchy Granola Bars, Oats ‘n Honey – Quaker Chewy Chocolate Chip granola bar – Kellogg’s Nutrigrain Soft Baked Breakfast Bars, Strawberry • Whole Oats – Quaker Steel Cut Oats – Quaker Old Fashioned Oats – Bob’s Red Mill Steel Cut Oats – Nature’s Path Organic Old Fashioned Organic Oats – Whole Foods Bulk Bin conventional rolled oats – Bob’s Red Mill Organic Old Fashioned Rolled Oats – Catelli Healthy Harvest Multigrain Spaghetti – Cheerios cereal – Fontaine Santé Roasted Garlic Hummus – Kelloggs Froot Loops Cereal – Kraft Dinner Original macaroni and cheese – PC Blue Menu Tortillas 100% Whole Grain – Pogo Original (breading only) – Quaker Large Flake Oats – Ritz Original crackers – Sabra Classic Hummus – The Original Oreo cookie – Tim Hortons Chocolate Glazed Timbit – Tim Hortons Sesame Seed Bagel – Unico Chickpeas – Tropicana Orange Juice – Minute Maid Orange Juice – Stater Bros Orange Juice – Signature Farms Orange Juice – Kirkland Orange Juice – Original Cheerios – Honey Nut Cheerios – Wheaties – Trix – Annie’s Gluten Free Bunny Cookies Cocoa & Vanilla – Kellog’s Corn Flakes – Kellog’s Raisin Bran – Kashi Organic Promise – Kellog’s Special K – Kellog’s Frosted Flakes – Cheez-It Original – Cheez-It Whole Grain – Kashi Soft Bake Cookies, Oatmeal, Dark Chocolate – Ritz Crackers – Triscuit Crackers – Oreo Original – Oreo Double Stuf Chocolate Sandwich Cookies – Oreo Double Stuf Golden Sandwich Cookies – Stacy’s Simply Naked Pita Chips (Frito-Lay) – Lay’s: Kettle Cooked Original – Doritos: Cool Ranch – Fritos (Original) (100% Whole Grain) – Goldfish crackers original (Pepperidge Farm) – Goldfish crackers colors – Goldfish crackers Whole Grain – Little Debbie Oatmeal Cream Pies – Oatmeal Cookies Gluten Free – 365 Organic Golden Round Crackers – Back to Nature Crispy Cheddar Crackers My biggest sadness from this is that Quaker oats make the best oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. Oh, and the fact that it's in our ground and rainwater, too.