Carson Ford

Help. Anyone. I feel like a fuck up and I want to die.

All I feel like doing is sitting around in silence and doing nothing with my life. I feellike nothing matters and all I really want to do is run away and disappear. I don't feel connected to family or friends, I feellike my heart is closed off and I'm unable to relate to anyone. I just want to disappear and BE. No desires, no relationships. Totally meaningless is existence. I want to experience death.

Hi all Alright so sometimes I totally "lose" myself in what I'll call low consciousness eating. I will stuff my face with chocolate treats or chips, but experience a sensation of being totally present (maybe not TOTALLY) through my binge. I do wish to stop this but at the same time, I allow myself to do this and I'm perfectly fine with it. I accept it as part of who I am. I do know that I will feel better with myself if I cease this though. I know that to stop, all that is needed is more presence, to be more conscious. Often though, I feel like I am observing my body as it's going through the motions of this "addictive" way of eating and I have no control. (I know I do have control with more presence but it feels sometimes I watch my body do this, and then I make a conscious decision to allow it.) It reminds me of Leo's video when he mentioned how there's nothing inherently wrong with eating a fat juicy burger, but just to be aware and observant of how it makes you feel afterwards. No question here, just discussion. Thanks! Much LOVE

How in the word do I possibly put this? Why do I feel like I have no personality of my own? It is something where I find myself start almost involuntarily acting like how I perceive others. I want to let go of my preconceptions and judgments of others and speak with others from a grounded point of view within myself and not worry about how they are perceiving me. In social settings, I feel lost and like everyone is looking toward me and like I'm going to be "found out." How in the universe do I just let go of myself and just be authentic!!!!!!!!!! Note, I am always able to make myself happy and present once I am alone again, in my own company. I love feeling unstoppable and confident in myself. Why can't I stop playing the victim and just maintain my self confidence when with others?

@Leo Gura I've been going to bars, out in public more with the intention of handling myself in a more confident manner. I'm feeling more and more like I can walk into a space and act any way that I want, no judgments from myself. Being able to flip myself into extroversion at a whim is what I want to be able to do. Confidence in my field of choice comes from practice and mastery of it.

@MuddyBoots Oh most definitely. I've been spending more quality time with my dogs lately and I can feel the positive effects it's had on my sense of well-being.

@ActualizedDavid I have recently heard of mirror-work and wanted to test it out and witness its benefits. Observing myself...cultivating more self love.

Hi all. So recently I have been intending to build my confidence, my overall self image when talking to people. I want to be able to hold a meaningful conversation with people and also have a great sense of humor and the ability to steer the conversation in a positive and productive direction. I want to reserve my judgments of the other people and hear them out fully, understand their point of view, and then have the confidence enough to respond with my own good intentions. Mainly I want to be able to use humor as a way to attract and meet new people who I can develop genuine friendships with. A gateway into deep conversation and a joining of creative minds for a higher purpose. To wrap up, I want to speak confidently, develop a strong and confident self image where I know at all times that I am capable of anything and can strike up conversation and open myself up with anybody. Thank you, Carson

Hi all. Anyone get stuck in there head with overthinking intention, body language when talking to people? Sometimes I feel like I can't stay in the moment and I almost get so centered in myself that I have no idea how to hold a conversation. I am not the only person who goes through this, as I have met someone who I can tell goes through the same. I know I need to meditate more like I was before when. I feel like sometimes Ive lost what I thought my purpose was. Why is hard for me to feel and just be without overthinking things and freaking out and being the creepy jerk in he crowd who just brushes everybody off because I dont know how to mold the energy. I need a reinvention.

Hi all. Anyone get stuck in there head with overthinking intention, body language when talking to people? Sometimes I feel like I can't stay in the moment and I almost get so centered in myself that I have no idea how to hold a conversation. I am not the only person who goes through this, as I have met someone who I can tell goes through the same. I know I need to meditate more like I was before when. I feel like sometimes Ive lost what I thought my purpose was. Why is hard for me to feel and just be without overthinking things and freaking out and being the creepy jerk in he crowd who just brushes everybody off because I dont know how to mold the energy. I need a reinvention.