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My childhood (from what I imagine), comes from extreme dysfunction, poverty, drug addiction, abuse/domestic violence. I'm not a victim, but this was what I was born into. Fear, insecurity, in and out of fight or flight mode was the norm as a kid. My late teens- early twenties were a drug addled escape. Late twenties- early thirties were a miserable ebb and flow of recovery and relapse. I've come a hell of a long way in the past 6 years. I am at peace with all of it these days. This was the crucible that made me (as cliche as it is). I disconnected or keep a healthy distance from the toxic personalities despite our family relations. I have nothing but love for them, but their behavior isn't going to change. I have no intention of trying to change their trajectory, but I would like to be loving. They are so low consciousness and lacking in love that it is a major challenge just to know how to love them, but these are the ones that need love the most. Its the cost of expressing love that I question. They exploit, abuse, manipulate, blame others, victimize themselves at every turn. Their behavior can be so toxic that just short interactions drains tf out of me, to put it lightly. I remember using Leo's videos on "how to forgive'' and "how to let go of the past" to help me heal. Now I want to learn how to love extreme dysfunction. But I do have self bias. I've been protecting myself by loving from a distance. There is a cautiousness on my end, of their destructive culture. That cautiousness comes from fear. I value my well being, and their behavior often threatens it. I don't judge them, but it is what it is.. Is there a more inclusive approach other than, well, exclusion, that I am missing??

The come up on mushrooms can be a little uncomfortable for me. Say the first two hours. I always get some physical tension. If it happens, just ride it out. Never resist. After this initial discomfort it becomes a thing of beauty. Idk if its this way for other people, but it happens every shroom trip I have. I've had some DEEP awakening experiences on shrooms at 7-8g+ range.

?. HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

alight alright!!

I am definitely NOT awake. I think this is a good question. As usual @Serotoninluv does a beautiful job articulating a mature perspective. From my perspective it is less about what you do, and more about how you interpret whatever it is you're doing. You can never tell if the outcome of your actions will align with your expectations. Best to approach everything with as much openness and consciousness as possible to extract the highest yield possible from every experience. Sometimes we do what we want to, the rest of the time we do what we have to, doesn't really matter. Be fully present and trust you're doing exactly what you're supposed to

Leo says over and over and over again in his videos to not take any of this on as dogma, and to get off our asses and find out for ourselves. He talks about how we have to do our part and not make this into a religion or cult. How do we do that? Do the work. Become more conscious. He speaks with certainty because he has passion and charisma, but don't make this about him. Put in the work.

Your suffering is medicine concocted by you, given to you by you, and either accepted by you with the benefits, or resisted by you in stubbornness, only to receive more of your own medicine down the road

Ibogaine micro dosing combined with "do nothing"

We've come so far... I've been under Leo's tutelage ever since..

I love dance! Both as exercise and art form. It's full body, cardio, burns hella calories, great for mobility, fantastic form of creative expression.

I have experienced deja-vu that has a distinctly palpable feel for a few seconds on many occasions . I've also become aware of how the past is not actual at all, even tho it feels very real. I don't have any good speculation as to the source of this sensation, but I am curious to hear the input of advanced conscious individuals

I've experimented with this years ago. It was called "foxy" and kind of marketed in the underground scene as a potent aphrodisiac. I found no spiritual value in it. It has quite a body load, and it did increase tactile sensitivity and sex drive.

yes, there are Infinite layers to awakening. There's always more

Lexington, Kentucky- 45% blue, 50% orange, 5% green. That's the city. The state of Kentucky is rural blue.

It is humorous how often "awakened" individuals use their "awakening" as the subject of their ego, and the forum as the platform

YES, please! Leo has recently made statements that I interpreted as his intention to stop psychedelics because of him having outgrown the need. Tho I could be mistaken in my interpretation.

hmmmm....

"Love everything, cling to nothing"

The Buddha has his four noble truths; I'd love to see Leo do a deep dive into the nature of suffering and attachment. The different types and their root cause(s), techniques to accept/ embrace, the positive/rewards of suffering/discomfort, enlightenment and suffering (actual vs pop culture understanding), etc

I'd ask; "Are you stage yellow?"

Wim Hof method is good for beginners. It takes quite a bit of work and fortitude to carry the 30 mins- 3hours per shamanic/ holotropic. Wim Hof is a good to build into a routine several times a day. Shamanic you'll need to clear your schedule a bit, so once a week or whatever. There are other breathwork techniques that are good too. 6 sec inhale/ 6 second exhale for 6+ minutes when you lay down to go to sleep, for example. Air can be powerful shit

Distractions. The realest conspiracy is how much we bullshit ourselves.

Do you give a fuck about truth? idgaf if you do or nah... ask yourself. Sit with these questions