Dust2Life

Nutrition made clear by Roberta Anding.. it's huge.. get the audio book and listen on the treadmill.. it's not about fads or gimmicks. it's just the straight dirt on what our bodies need and good ways to get that stuff.

That's advice that works for them... the truth is that none of us know who we are yet... we are all on the journey to figure it out.. Some people find spiritual ways to come to terms with that reality.. some people help others... some people drive themselves to the peak of some pursuit (athletics, music, chess, business, etc.). All you really have to do to serve your future self is to stay alive so he can exist... In comparison to your other option, that serves him 100% better... This site is called actualized... that's after Maslow's hierarchy. Maslow's hierarchy is really interesting and can explain a lot about why you, presumably a person that is able to meet your physiological and security needs, are turning on yourself....when people that can't meet those higher priority needs are fighting to live...They don't care what it all means.. they want to eat something.. they want to drink water.. they want warmth...they want a safe place to close their eyes... but they want all that life of fear more than you currently want your life of uncertainty.... Think about that.. think about the fact that you had to come through the stages that they are in...even if it was brief... we all had to overcome those fears. .. here we are... with the freedom to figure out what we want to become....without fearing that we will starve to death.. that's a beautiful thing.... Life is a puzzle.... enjoy it... share it.. and keep making moves.. then one day, you'll find your personal truth and then you will have reached the pinnacle of Maslow's hierarchy by becoming self-actualized.

Paul, you need connection... Have you ever done an open mic? I play as well, and I can tell you that nothing will make you feel more alive than doing that for the first time. That feeling fades once you get comfortable up there, but you can find the same feeling in every other step into the unknown and uncomfortable. I am not one to tell you anything about anything spiritual. I am 100% focused on getting the most out of this life.. I don't know that I believe in anything else... However, no matter what you believe, I think getting the most out of this life is a good goal. You are stuck in some very dark headspace right now... but there will be good things if you keep trucking. Consider your future self.. what can you do so that he can exist and be happy? Serving that person is a purpose. Through service to him, you will be empowering him to serve others and find many meaningful ways to impact the world. Also, talk with somebody. What's the worst that can come of you having a conversation with somebody that can help you get through this challenging time in your life? Literally anything you can try is less drastic than what you are suggesting the solution is.

I think there are certainly conditions, such as hypothyroidism, that can make losing weight more difficult. However, if you follow the golden rule, it is scientifically impossible not to lose weight. Don't worry about low carb or other diets that exclude options. Simply worry about calories. I have lost 50 lbs since December by eating < 1600 calories per day and working out in a sustainable way. That means I literally started out walking on the treadmill for an hour. Now I box, do crossfit, yoga (badly:)), lift weights, and I run like Forrest Gump. But, I never work so hard that I feel like crap the next day. If calories out are > calories in.. you will lose weight.. that might be 1 lb per week.. that might be 3 lbs per week. The hard part is accepting that it's a long road..that it's not a quick fix. If you can accept that, then a small number like 1 lb per week becomes a huge number like 52 lbs per year..(AKA a pretty good sized dog). Good luck friend

Hello Paul. I am currently struggling to survive as well. The one thing that keeps me from doing it is that there is a great likelihood that this is all there is, and if that is the truth, then this is my only opportunity to exist at all. I don't want to waste that opportunity. You seem focused on finding meaning, and I get that. So go find it. Death is not the path to anything. It's the path to nothing. Do everything that you are too scared to do, and realize that it is less scary than the idea of not being. Talk to the stranger, go to school, share your creations... do everything that you are scared to do.. then you'll find that you aren't thinking about finding a way out as much.. you are thinking about that adrenaline rush that you get when you continue to overcome the fears that have been limiting your life. Take care of yourself Paul. I'll try to do the same.