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Yeah he has a whole set of them. I want to meet peter really badly.

I’m changing my major from psychology to software engineering/computer science. What can I expect ? Is programming really challenging? Is it boring ?

I don't really like what the pick up community teaches. Leos pick up video has created limiting beliefs in me. What I mean is I am ready to go out there and start interacting with more women as I am. Not learning techniques and manipulations. Going out there with my heart on my sleeve and willing to get wounded and go through the pain period. As authentic as possible. I am tired of my habitual dating life. Hoping every day that a woman will fall in my lap. NO MORE !! I WANT TO CREATE MY DATING LIFE AND TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR IT !! The girls who end up in my lap turn out to be easy/whores. I am sick and tired of it. I want quality over quantity but at the same time I would like to create more sexual options. Here are my excuses: 1. I do not want to get rejected. I take rejection super personal. I feel embarrassed and cry after getting rejected. Then I feel embarrassed for crying and feel not macho and like a bitch. 2. I don't wanna seem creepy or aggressive. I also feel like other people are judging me when I am talking to girls. It sucks then I judge other guys for talking to the hot girls that I want to talk to while staying in the shadows of them. I feel like women don't want me to talk to them and hate me and men in general. 3. I am WOUNDED !!: Very wounded by women. I have been cheated (and I have cheated), Left for other guys (I have left girls for other guys too). My relationship with my mom sucks(I am disrespectful to her though and I feel very unloved by her and every time I talk to her ). Every relationship I have had has crashed and burned and I really want to change this. 4. I hate how I look. I am ugly. probably a 5/10. I have a nice body though. 4.I love women more than anybody in this world. But I don't understand them. I feel like they hate me. I feel very unattractive to them and I feel like they all hate me. I have been called ugly and scared by a lot of them but I want to change my attitude and perspective to a more loving one. are they perfect ? HELL NO a lot of them are bitches and hoes, but I really do not want that to affect me having healthy relationships. I want to become a man and stop being a pussy. all opinions and feedback are invited thank you

1st: This is in the wrong thread it needs to be moved to the Self-Actualization thread or Relationships 2nd: I had the same problem with my mom. As hard as it may be, You need to let her know how you feel about her. Not for her but for you. Tell her how you really feel about her and don't apologize for it. Don't try to be the son she always wanted and try to soften the blow because that is lying and that in the long run will fuck up your life. Tell her how you feel, how much she hurt you, all the pain she has put you through. Even if she denies it, discounts it or tries to rationalize it away. Only YOU know how you feel about her. If she tries to guilt trip you and tell you that "I am your mother and it's wrong to feel this way and You're a terrible son". Remember that is a projection of her wounded ego and no way the Truth. She has to face what she has put you through and her devilish behavior. Your job is to express to her how you feel. Cutting her off is only running from the problem. Trust me I have tried multiple times with my own mother. The wounds are still there no matter how much you distance yourself. FACE THIS SHIT HEAD ON !! and in the end if it's best y'all go your separate ways and she is really that toxic then do so, but not without facing this demon. Lastly: Take responsibility. Remember your mom really gave you this gift called life. It is really a gift that we all take for granted but without her you wouldn't be here. That doesn't mean you can't hate her and that doesn't mean you should always respect your parents. NO ! Your feelings are completely valid. But you must also watch your projections and your perspective of your mom. Your mind has a tendency to inflate how terrible your relationship is with her and negate some of the amazing memories and moments you have shared together. Don't blame your lack of results on your mom. That is a trap to keep you stuck. You need to take 100% responsibility. Go get a girlfriend, go make more money. I am probably the biggest victim on this forum if you look at my post, but everyday I am working on taking more responsibility so I know where you are coming from. I been through this all my life and am still dealing with it, I am by no means perfect. Just wanted to give you my perspective

@Applegarden Very familiar. Its like a slippery slope of low consciousness behaviors. This emptiness has been there most of my life. I am doing strong determination sit to face it. At least 1 hour a day. It is triggered by my swept under the rug life issues and fears.

@Javfly33 The bad eating didnt come back until recently when I moved in with my mom. I am also impulsively spending and playing video games completely neglecting my good habits. Maybe that has something to do with.

If we are being honest though this channel does have some cult like features and it does have a lot of potential turn into a cult. I mean there are cults everywhere without people noticing they are cults. lol culture is one giant cult.

I already feel hollow playing it and I havent even had it for a day. I noticed that I get lazy and aggitated after playing I would rather use that money for books or the gym. So I will be returning it tomorrow and my new TV

I just bought a Nintendo switch. If anyone wants to get it cracking on smash bros and talk about self actualization stuff online PM me

Exactly I didn’t start feeling guilty till I started watching Leo’s videos. I feel like there is better things to do with my time but I don’t know what.

@Leo Gura is right. Im 22. Once you leave college and you have to start paying bills, you can't escape wage slavery because now you have to stay in your shitty job just to pay bills. Now what do I do ? am I doomed to wage slavery for the rest of my life ? What measures can I take ? I am currently learning code but I am not good enough yet to even be self sufficient. I would rather kill myself than to be a wage slave.

I do not understand the concept very well. Even after watching Leos videos on it. Can someone help me grasp the concept ?

When rupert walked in, my jaw completely dropped ! He just had it. I can't really describe what it is but his presence was so fucking powerful that I became super conscious just from being in his presence. He then mentioned "being aware of being aware" I had an even deeper consciousness of my true nature. Then my ego came back. Then I told him it feels like I am addicted to my suffering and he said "Are you excited to go to sleep at night" I said yeah. Then he said "Who is the one who goes to sleep" I realized that I am suffering because of my attachment to my thoughts and feelings. Really powerful shit.

Yeah went to one of events and asked him about the nature of suffering. He also helped me to become aware of awareness. One of my favorite teachers

My parents want me to help with rent so thats no good. But I have been thinking about moving to colombia. I am currently in the process of learning new skills. I FOUND MY LIFE PURPOSE !!! I am going to make a post about that later. but for now I am completely accepting wage slavery until I get my LP really clear.

@Austin Actualizing I have been on No fap since november of 2017 !! Its completely transformed my life. Thats why I am so thirsty all the time lol

I’ve been living with my Ex’s family for almost three months now and I am really suffering. I am starting to my ex more than I ever have. She is super childish, closed minded and immature. She is super sheltered and doesn’t understand the concept of life being hard because she has had EVERYTHING handed to her. Her dad makes her lunch for Christ sake !!! She is also seeing someone I know and it is all in my face with it. I feel like a cuckold I take full responsibility for putting myself in this predicament and I am fully responsible for getting out of it. I feel like I am in prison. I have a good paying job but I have some debt I have to pay off before getting an apartment. My mom wants me to move back to California with her but my relationship with her is worst. And she wants $800 a month for rent. I am going insane and don’t know what to do. If I move to California I have to find a new job and everything. I owe my school $15,000 so I can’t go back.

https://meetdelic.com/ I will be attending this psychedelic summit in May before I do my ayahuasca ceremony in May. Wanted to post it in case anyone else wanted to go. It’s located in Los Angeles, CA. May 2-3.

They even have spirtuality groups !! I cant contain my excitement @Anna1

Holy shit it has all my interests on here !! Lit lit lit thank you !!!

@Anna1 yeah small talk makes me cringe. I love getting to know people deeply. I know small talk is the entrance into that though

@Anna1I don't have social media so in person. I also am a student at ASU and there are soooo many women on campus but I feel guilty for approaching them and I feel anxious walkig around campus and seeing so many girls and doing nothing I feel weak.

Last point I know life is not about having sex/getting women. But my spiritual growth will be stunted until I get phase of my life completed.

Does anybody know where to go to get your brain chemical levels checked out like serotonin and dopamine. I would like to do this before taking psychedelics.