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@Nahm I saw Rupert Spira in person in London. Completely blew me away. his presence made me more conscious just by him sitting there ---- This was my face when he walked into the room.

I definitely have grown from all this personal development stuff no doubt. I am just broke and have fears around money and feel guilty for spending my money on this field and going so deep into it. Like I have bought probably 30+ books on Leos list. And feel guilty every time for buying one. Even though they are hella interesting and I know that they will have a synergistic effect on my development.

@mandyjw it's crazy that you say that because I am currently reading it's not about the money and it talks about the idealist. I have some of that archetype and a shadow to losing money because I have been scammed/stolen from before so I am probably projecting that onto Eckhart and Ralston. I emailed Ralston about his $15,000 apprenticeship. He basically told me to get a job Lmao

@fridjonk how do you feel about teachers making millions of dollars off of their teachings? I sometimes feel like I am being scammed. I feel cautious about certain teachings and ideas.

I'm considering purchasing it. Maybe I am wrong and that is just his style. It's a lot different from Leo or Ralston

@mandyjw have you read his book "A New Earth" ?

Hello all: i have been meditating for 3 years on and off but more on than off. I have had some amazing experiences so far but my concentration is still shit. I got diagnosed with ADHD at a very young age and I currently have medication like Vyvanse and aderall to help me with my concentration but I don’t take It because of the side effects and i have a negative attitude towards being on pills. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. This effects my school work, meditation and a lot of other things to the point nothing gets finished in my life. I tried Leo’s exercises on concentration but they didn’t work very well. any tips to help me would be greatly appreciated:)

@supremeyingyang thank you ! I’m starting from below ground zero. No math skills really and no knowledge of computers so I am going to have to be ultra patient. i love psychology but I don’t think it’s practical for a career/ providing value

I remember playing basketball in High school and trying to recreate his moves but epically failing lol. one of the greatest to play the game no doubt. It’s hard for me to stomach that he is actually gone.

The more I become full of shit. Dogmas, ideologies, limiting beliefs, monkey mind etc.

@Natasha I have been deeply curious on how to do that. Also I hear a lot of people, teachers, books etc talk about dying before you die. How do you do that ?

@Meetjoeblack damn you inspired me to be better and this isn’t even about me

Im doing Kriya it’s powerful. I also meditate. @purerogue what type of awareness work are you talking about

@Buba you’re not gay bro. It ocd. I promie you. I went through everything you’re describing for many months. If you don’t want to be gay YOU AREN’T gay. Just because you feel pleasure from the thoughts of getting dick does not mean you are gay. You have liked girls you’re whole life. Also a psychologist or whatever you are seeing doesn’t know your sexuality only you do. Here’s an exercise for you: Go on google images or instagram and scroll through pictures of homosexual men. Do this for 30 minutes a day for at least 2 weeks and you will learn your true sexuality.

@Buba Maybe you’re getting more in touch with your feminine side. Look for a more masculine female and see if you like it.

@Buba I have had this happen to me before. It’s HOCD. If you fear being gay, you aren’t gay. If you liked women your whole life you are straight. You don’t just wake up one day homosexual it don’t work that way. You need exposure therapy and Self-Love like Leo said. It will pass with time. https://www.psychforums.com/obsessive-compulsive/topic192118.html

@Solvinden She sounds like a bitch to me. A girl who’s really down for you won’t judge you for your short comings. Yeah she took away your pain temporarily, but it’s still there under the surface and it will come back up. I broke up with my girlfriend right before my Vipassana retreat. It gave me time to really think about the relationship objectively. if you’re becoming more vulnerable to her and she’s getting more repulsed by you instead of attracted. Drop her and move on. 7 BILLION people in the world. Mostly women who would kill for a guy like you. Keep your head up. Heal your deep depression first. Women aren’t going anywhere

I just finished the Aaron Hernandez documentary. If you do not know, Aaron Hernandez is a former football player for the New England patriots who was convicted for two murders of three people. During the documentary I radically turned inward and it made me realize that I am and all human beings are capable of murdering another person if their survival was on the line. Football players can suffer trauma to the head and develop a disease called CTE. at the end of documentary they showed a picture of his brain scan after he killed himself He literally has a hole in the frontal cortex of his brain. So I can understand to a certain degree why those murders were committed. He had no control whatsoever. The most important parts for rational decision making and judgement were severely damaged. But the legal system won’t consider “oh he didn’t have free will of his actions” because the entire system is based on the premise of people having control and shall be punished for the actions that people commit. The whole legal system would have to thrown out and reconstructed if they realized free will didn’t exist. Anyway I am acting self-righteous and all knowing and trying to sound smart and impressive but I just wanted to show my little finding that I became conscious of

What about diet during the dopamine fast ? Any specific foods to say away from ?

This is a good book on dating and female attraction. Although I did find it often repetitive and kind of saying all the same things all these other dating coaches are saying. I suggest that you read it if you need a foundation on how to be attractive as a man and how to go about doing that. It also has techniques on how to gradually get better with women slowly. Overall solid book though

@Meetjoeblack thanks man. It’s crazy you bring up the way of the superior man because I just bought that book last week and I am going to start it tomorrow. i just got back from Spain last month. Had a blast. I realized I really value free time so I am trying to find a career where I can have that as well as pursue my passions.

Okay so I am almost done with the life purpose course and I am still not clear on what it is I want to do. What I’ve learned is so far that I have pressures from all different directions to do different things. Parents: Want me to become a psychiatrist and while I would kill it in that field I feel like I only want to do it to please my parents also I don’t want to face 4 years of medical school and fail Society: Get a 9-5 desk job, a wife and kids and work until you retire Me: So many different options within different fields. I know I want to escape wage slavery. My current degree in school is psychology and Leo said a person with a psychology degree can’t provide value I died inside a little bit because that’s a huge part of my life purpose and passion. So I don’t know what to do. I recently got a job at an online accredited university where I can get a 75% off tuition discount. I can get a bachelors in either computer science or business management.

The psychology of mans possible evolution by Ouspensky says. “Man cannot move, think or speak of his own accord. He is a marionette pulled here and there by invisible strings”

WHAT THE HELL ITS LITERALLY LIKE I AM TALKING TO MYSELF ON THIS FORUM! I JUST WROTE THIS IN MY JOURNAL TODAY What I do is experiment and find the ones that are most effective for me. Each person is going to have a different response to each practice. For me Strong Determination sitting is the most effective. Then do nothing/vipassana followed by kriya yoga so I mainly just stick to those 3. I haven't really taken self-inquiry seriously because it just doesn't make any fucking sense to me. There are 1000s of spiritual practices only a fool would think he can do all of them in one lifetime so just narrow it down. good luck my friend

What’s the essential difference between these two. Which one is better for the last day of a solo retreat? I've taken LSD 3 times and don't remember the experience much. I've had 2 opportunities to take shrooms but pussied out each time