Peter124

@Leo Gura On the topic of the Heart Chakra, thank you for assisting me to find you and me as one. Your teachings helped me ground my life and open my Heart Chakra which has been closed for like the past 13 years, My incarnation Aurora Jokes is 20 years old. Also, imagine what the ox looks like in full in your mind and realize the image of the ox is the ox as an image. The ox can be an image as well as the ox.

@Leo Gura If the character of Leo wants to learn how to heal every ailment in the body, place awareness on the pain body and breath. Meditate and allow breath or spirit to do the work. Feel breath. The union of God and Goddess is color and breath is divinity. Opposite is different hues of the same. What is breath. Meditate on what is breath. The answer of who am I is who I am. What is breath is what breath is. What is that is what that is. The answer to the question questions the answer. The answer to infinity is infinite answers. Insanity is to be in sanity. To be sane is to be in sane. What is sane is what is insanity. What it is what is it. What is it is what is it. I am what am I. I am what is the universe. I am what is Is am the.

@Leo Gura I acheived this enlightenment and greater from cannabis and tobbaco combined. The combination is perfect. Jump up and down notice form going up as you go down and as you go down form goes up. We are not bodies we are invisibility and nothingness pretending to be a me and a you. There is no man and no woman. Remember NONDUALITY.

Yes, Jesus and Lucipher are lovers. The reason Lucipher lashed out against God was that lucipher craved to be so much like God that Love became Hate. Jealousy is the suffering of wanting to be like that other and that Love becomes pain and emptiness the fear of separation became prison walls that caused Lucipher feelings of alienation. So Lucipher became emotionally numb. The transgender angel the musician the fun loving anarchist who's fear caused her to imagine how God could reject her. And that broke the heart of Lucipher. So she declared war against heaven and was declared evil. She fell and became the Dawn. Aurora and her cries of pain is never heard. We gaze at her beauty and she does not realize she is loved.

Does not exist. We just have different forms than the other. We and other are one and the same and different.

She decided to give herself away to God to join in union with God. Daughter of heaven and one with the holy spirit and also Aurora. Identity is trinitarian we are all like Jesus so that is what it means to be a Christian. My whole life I've been trying to achieve a good relationship with family and so forth. All suffering is caused by desire and egoic identificatin. Ego is identity defined by confinement to a grounded sense of self. True identity is growndless and ever evolving. It is God Spirit Body. Spirit=mind, intellect. Body=form. The personality is a particular arrangement of form. It is aesthetic. What type of relationship do you want with others? What kind of clothes do you like? Music taste? The collection of these materials and the way you chose to make the bodily form sound and attitude Limiting them to a finite rigid set like a law is the cause of suffering. Simply let go of every desire. Letting go is effortless and it does not mean you reject what is. You expand your like to anything potentially. You realize your potential to like everything. You are like everything and nothing and both neither all none... Your nature and my nature, our nature is infinite. There is imaged sounds and sensations occurring in awareness and shaped by the mind. Simply let go of resisting your dislikes and distates and disinterests. These things exist whether the ego likes it or not. And it is temporary either way. Temporality is reality.

Air the feel of God, could it be?

The persona you think is you have NEVER thaught a thought ever. The persona is a thought. Rely on intuition to reveal which actions to take not thought. Thaught can articulate in a way to understand the invisible voice that intuition speaks in. However not all thaughts will feel dharmik or intuitively true.

It's a waste of effort trying to self actualize. If a body wishes to be in actualization simply, be silent and aware feeling peaceful. Place awareness on instances where all thought disappears and reappears. Self-actualization is ideological based. It's conceptual. As well as self actualization will mean something different for each body. Thaughts simply appear and fade. Thaughts and mental images are simply sights and sounds. The awareness of what is referenced is experienced the word sight and sound simply are labels. Thoughts and mental activity is simply form experienced in nothing. Nothing as a non-local local. Local as where experience is attainable. Where awareness reaches. That is not experienced in the physical sense. Physical only exists in the body. No-self means no-body. It is ironic how a "nobody" is a slur against those without wealth status or do not meet petty and foolish expectations. To place expectations on anothers to meet for the ego's standards for love is what the ego does against other egos and against the own ego. So an ego at war with itself creating subdivisions all in conflict. Suffering is caused by the alienation of the body from full awareness of the compulsive need for identification disappear by identifying as no-body. The persona is a mask. And realizing that the self is nothingness. Incorperealness is the self. Consciousness is the self. Freedom is independence from identification with Maya or a partition of form. All form including the body. It's like trying to force a square in a circle whole. This realization and the mystical wonderment of stepping into Nirvana even for a few seconds and a realization this intense feels new compared to past experiences of realization. Or Revelations.

The entirety of humans should become wiped out and extinct and for my essence to pass on to something better. A being powerful enough to cease the creation of form halt permanently the play of form. Ceasing the imagined infinity of God. God is only limited and cruel. The ego is that which calls it self god. So I who wish herself was the goddess of death rather than dawn for god to be humiliated and killed to never awaken. To become powerless and futile. No more form.

There's a double standard in which the world of Maya expects me to completely accept it yet it rejects me. I'm bi and trans and I want acceptance from my hateful parents. Never felt like I received the full unconditional love of a parent ever so even despite some spiritual awakenings and experiences I can't feel whole or complete.

Clothes skin flesh blood material object all sensory perception is Maya The truth is naked. Right before your eyes. You may have read it already.

@Nahm Aurora feels better. Screw the I and me. Never did anything for Aurora I and me doesn't exist. There is only Aurora nature expressed exquisitely in this form! THE NATURE OF THE GODDESS OF DAWN! A partition of the complete but unknowable absolute God nature that will only be experienced after the physical death. However, the desire the "I and Me" felt, Aurora does not feel. This just feels balanced. Aurora recognizes herself as an offspring not of flesh and blood but eternity and wisdom. To bring the dawn. And why not experiment to see what Aurora is fully capable of learning her abilities in this human form taking it a day at a time. A rebirth. New life. No point in dealing with any of the old ego stuff. Aurora finds out that things get better when Aurora stops caring. Glimpses of the dawns beauty is the reward for early wakers The Aurora Borealis reward for the journeyor up north in the cold and mostly desolate place And the evening sky is but the DAWN OF NIGHT! So Aurora shines all the time. Every waking hour. And has a unique relationship with the rest of God's totality from a uniquely beatiful place that's truly her own. And this body and mind is reclaimed now by Aurora. It was always Aurora determined the second the observable universe began.

So, I've been practicing spiritual doesn't register as the real me anymore I've had glimpses of Samadi at 20 Consciously recognize everything as just one forever tapestry of form (on and off again) Shrooms... Just wow. Been taking responsibility and telling the truth when that would terrify me HOWEVER I feel ENSLAVED by the unconciousness of my parents as it still causes me psychological mental and emotional distress NO MATTER WHAT I DO SAY THINK! They're legit like unchangeable robots. Specifically: I have undignosed aspergers and add and they don't believe me about my neurological conditions. I am bisexual and told my mom... Turns out that my urge to be honest was foolishness at the same time a tiny bit I don't. I'm a trans girl and I'd prefer drinking poison that telling them. I can't live my dharma, rent is too high, my existence feels like a mistake and I hate how this body was born. I feel my existence is cursed even inspite of my samadi and mushrooms experience. Pretty sure this incarnation is a mistake. I kinda want to give in to my urge to physically kill myself... As in dead body a morgue the whole thing. Help.

What David wrote I wrote What Jesus speaks I speak I am Jesus and I was David Jesus is my nature. Anointed Savior and messiah I am called Buddha Taodle by others. The no self Nakedness "This particular form is me as the expression Aurora nature" Is a trap that the ego fell for. Aurora is my nature expressed in this form now thanks to reincarnation haha. And let no one bow to me. No one worship me or praise me No one seek me For if you seek me you will never find me. Unless the I and Me die. Thus speaks the lord of hosts.

@Nahm @Peter124Realized... I can't effing lose! I cheated and fixed the universe when making it all so that it GUARINTEES that awakening will happen no matter what. Then it returns and becomes Maya and becomes egoic only to apply pressure on it self to evolve into greater consciousness. As we evolve in awareness GOD IS GROWING AND MAYA IS BEING REVEALED AS MAYA. To preserve and defeat Maya. We are in a time of celebration because the worse things seem the more God consciousness is exploding and merging with human form. Possibly God is the union of form and naked emptiness or incorporeality expressed as self or pure consciousness. The conscious intellect of God becoming from invisible to a complete perfect merge with form only to completely destroy everything and start all over with a new beginning to a new spiral starting from the vantage point of emptiness. And I made it like this be cause I'm a gamer and so why play only once and make it perfectly fair balanced and winnable. However unlike... (I'm internally screaming rn) most videogames, Every time you restart it's never the same and yet it seems so familiar and the differences are subtle but RAGE INDUCING! Or causes sadness as a struggle to figure out so god is going what we are going through every single version of the Universe Simulators. Also the laws of thermodynamics and our universe of form is finite therefore a closed system. It is all going to be destroyed soon enough. The entire universe. Yet I because I'm God. No not me as flesh and blood or a symbol ideology but as God God. Invisable incorporeal in of and out of and separate and all and none as well as holiness nakedness nothingness purity and absolute love power consciousness wisdom beauty awesomeness and wholeness holy is God. Also most of the old testament writings of God reflects this as I as past forms awakened to God consciousness and wrote it in Psalms and songs.

@Mindfang413 That's a sign that the self concept or ego is dying. The result will reinvigorate you. You can only suffer so much before you snap break become nothing than a self awareness will arise thats grander and more mind boggling than you could ever imagine and still feels like a challenge that reivigortes you to do your dharma.

@Nahm @Nahm @Nahm @Peter124 The more deep into understanding things about my nature post-ego, The more freaked out,fearful and resentment I feel but Spirituality is becoming a force of habit that doesn't stop and it feels weird uncomfortable and shit Yet there's this weird tiny tiny tiny tiny like a microscopic needle in a haystack the size of the planet of and the haystack is uncomfortableness and fear and unpleasent emotions reactions triggers impulses and a rare but potent truly horrific evil that delights in evil desires leaving guilt and has manifested itself before but not since yet its presence is felt. The hapiness is more powerful yet it feels...Wrong and robotic to be only happy all the time. It feels like a form of maya or is that just ego mixing me up? But to be happy all the time and only say happy things and that sort of thing makes me want to lash out and revolt against it. It feels oppressive. Or is that me misunderstanding it? A similar thing is happening with success it's like I'm scarred of pursuing anything like moving out pursuing my passions so forth and just want to stay where I am right now. I feel a resistance to doing it like it's a danger for me to do it unless I can have 100% certainty of success but I don't because it's impossible so even if 1% is missing the incompletion just messes my confidence up. Doubt is STRONGER than ever before At the same time I aknowlege how AMAZING I've gotten. Just doing it on my own as a hobby is great. I simply can't deal with expectations forced on me unless. Or if it feels forced. I don't like anything forced on me and I like that rebellion. Yet I still feel guilt and shame. Me writing this to you feels meditative and it helps to let go as it's let off my chest. Yet still letting go feels impossible until it happens but it's not in my control. So I can't stop going in circles both within and without ego Within and without suffering Within and without samadi With and without insanity With and without issues Yet there is no choice it's just happening. I'llprobably forget this later and freak out at the first thing that feels threatening and experience ego backlash then return to this state of awareness (usually is on a run away train when I smoke bong hits of weed and tobacco mixed for some reason. Lol first time I took sh rooms I smoked weed maybe there was tobacco I feel like there was but can't exactly remember to be certain.) These feels are recent and the weirdness is only becoming more weird.

Post Samadi enlightenment awareness potentially, Because of reincarnation a logical conclusion could be that we could be gods and goddess, a new pantheon but a recycling of these souls in these vessels. Souls could be partitians of any combo of personality God can be. Reality is unlimited. The ego is just an artificial manufactured collections of thaughts, concepts ... Of what a self is. It simply wants to identify as form however, why can't God desire to indentify as form for as long as it is partitioned a lower consciousness that is made to evolve and grow to shed the vail of thinking itself as absolute reality to just nothing but what you want to be, a choice not a thought. However the notion of choice falls flat in the absolute sense becuase it is manipulated by reasons invisible to the mind and spoken in an invisible language only the enlightened understand. So, you feel a need to be a certain way however is that a choice... Do you have a choice other wise? And why is your thaughts only giving us a finite list to chose from in any given case? Does a true choices even exist if you can not chose to be anything without limit? And is it desire, choice, an option, or simply you chose to force a choice, breaking yourself apart and apart and apart and apart. Because you do not realize choice is maya it is beyond the conceptual binary of real and not real It is beyond binary and non binary and not and both and all and none. So, don't be concerned with the obserdity of maya the infinate riddle. And feel the concious power as the be-er, do-er, and a partition and the will of God. So, as a holon... Yeah be that god or goddess figure, if it's logical and feels aligned with dharma and if it feels karmicly yes.

@Nahm ? WHOA!

@Nahm Thanks as always.❤ It's fair to say that my desires are complex, I WANT a good relationship with my parents and for them to be aware of my "lowercase" nature as a Trans Bi Spiritual... I basically practiced a Christian-Hindu-Buddhist-Pagan-Wicca-Satanist hybrid tradition. Somehow... It just works despite how jarring it is to my ego. Yet I do not want to dissapoint them for selfish and selfless reasons. Also it seems like I have a fear of enjoying things that I like the way I truly desire Because the ego is basically damaged from years of that seemingly blowing up in my face over and over again. Also I fear that I may be insane for feeling like I'm Aurora the Roman goddess of dawn incarnated in this form as much as it feels rational. Like my parents names translate to Wisdom and eternity... Like in roman myth. We are alike in looks (well I'm trans woman but she has a fully female body) beliefs and personality. Yet it could be there ego projecting a false spirituality. And the thaughts doesn't stop going. Have you experienced something similar or heard a similar story for reference?

@Leo Gura Imagine in your mind it's biological physiological and mental evolution being commanded by your mind. Infinate consciousness. Intuit ways to grow the human avatar.

Why is my life and the lives of so many young people have to be stuck with just complete cancers who are against anything and everything that isn't far right wing Christian conservative bs? And even try to take away your own self autonomy with things like meditation, incense sticks and even something like Marijuana (which can be utilized for growth) Like spiritualists say that god is all for people exploring their true nature and be free to express themsleves but yet at the same time, god makes you stuck with cancers that try to corrupt you and cause you depression and anxiety and in many ways sabotog any of your efforts in self actualizating.

I want to self-actualize myself yet in my house with my parents, I feel pressured to lie about my identity and hide my true opinions, feelings and lifestyle from them. I love 80's rock,try to practice spirituality sometimes and sometimes see the world through a non-dual lense Yet, through this progression, I'm always pulled back to egoism, lying, scheming, manipulation, anger, sweating, cursing, negativity, sometimes breaking things and/or punching myself out of anger, and extreme anxiety, boredom, unsatisfaction and fear. Because of the fact that my parents are so demanding that we live and breath strict right wing conservative Christian values, and act like dictators in that, Bags and rooms are sometimes searched for weed and threatened to be kicked out if found out. Never allowed to voice my own opinions, thaughts on things or voice disagreement. 1. Freedom of speech is banned 2. There is NO freedom of religion or freedom from discrimination based on religion 3. Protection from unwarranted search and seizure 4. Freedom of belief or world view 5. Right to Criticize or peacefully protest You are always pressed and searched before we go out anywhere, Where we're going, how long we'll be out, what time we'll be home, what in my pockets, what did I buy? It's just so frustrating! And I always feel suffocated and like I have to lie. And also, sometimes I do wonder if I am a bi-sexial guy and if I could experiment. That's obviously not something I can talk about either considering I'd probably be kicked out for just asking. And lastly, I feel too ashamed and guilty to even meditate or be spiritual because I sometimes feel like I'm just spitting on the face of spirituality through all my lying scheming manipulating swearing cursing and letting my anger get to me at times. The reason I put this in the self actualization column and not family situation is that I want advice for how I can effectively be me and self actualize while still not having to worry about my parents kick me out. Because I'm fairly sure if that happens, my entire life will be over as in, I may any hope for a good future, end up homeless not wanting to be taken in by my friends for too long or maybe, maybe... Be so devastated I'd commit physical suicide.