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@Nahm Most of what you said just does not compute. Such a weird thing. Waiting for an "a-ha!" moment, trying to figure it out. Such weird feelings come up. Almost crying. There is just this unspeakable, unthinkable crazy what-the-fuckness going on. Feels kinda good, actually.

@WaveInTheOcean

There is awareness of the thought "me". There is also awareness of a thought "it is me who is aware of the thought" and it seems very real. Can't imagine it being any other way. There is an unpleasant feeling in the body. Feeling like staring at a brick wall. Feeling bad because I think it's a failure if I can't understand what you are pointing to. No. I can't point to any thought really. Actually I'm not really sure what "pointing" means. No. They seem very real if believed and focused on but this focus can be shifted and they become "just thoughts", like "a unicorn".

@mandyjw Yeah, I see However I think the most important thing here is that the second perspective feels a lot better, it gives my mind more freedom to shift between different perspectives and seems to make me overall more connected. I sense a truth there that is not present in the previous perspective. Hence I feel that at least for now, it is the right way for me.

Awakening aint got nothing to do with chasing, not chasing, or you. There is witnessing the thinking & writing posts about chasing, not chasing, and enlightenment.

What a joy to hear you doing this, brother. Phil from Actuality of Being. I'd love to see you two having a conversation.

I don't know if this has been discussed here before. I'd like to hear what you guys think about the current opioid crisis in the US and other addiction problems our modern societies face. Millions of people literally cannot stop using alcohol or other drugs on a daily basis. How can we prevent people from using the hard drugs? How can we help those already addicted? What changes need to be made? Give me a shot of that good systems thinking

I once had this super-lucid dream. Walked around and looked at my hands, the buildings, the trees. They were right "here". All the sensations and little details. It was literally as real as me writing this right now. A second later I woke up, did a dream check and yep, I was back in the real world. Then I realized that the only difference between the dream I just had and the world after waking up, was the thoughts "this is a dream" and "this is not a dream". Shapes, sounds, colours, sensations, all were the same 'stuff'. Only the thought changed. I simply saw a dream about waking up.

I'm a crazy dreamer too. I often meet aliens or other beings in my lucid dreams. Sometimes I wake up only to realize I'm still dreaming. No worries. You get used to it and even find beauty and cool insights from this craziness. And I got a feeling these dreams won't be a part of your life for too long.

Conversations like in this thread makes me reconsider everything I think I know and what I should be doing and how to think about my life. A weird anxiety and a little peace somewhere in it. Thanks, I hate and I love it.

The virus is as real/unreal as the brain. Leo has a video on brains "not being real" because there is a widespread materialistic paradigm at play in our culture today. He is trying to change the paradigm, not to make people take the brains, or viruses, as something not serious.

this suffering, this separation, this pain, being bound to time, fate and a truth... wanting to cry for help but being afraid

I often feel kind of the same way. It's quite hard to really open up to someone because the stuff inside is very hard to be put into words and to be expressed. I have this deep longing for meeting someone who truly understands. Someone you don't need to explain the suffering to. Someone who is truly present and unconditional. Pure love and compassion. I would like to just cry in the arms of a person like that.

I have felt bad for a long time. This started when I was about 15. Now I'm almost 23. Depression, anxiety, loneliness, drugs and alcohol, even some psychotic symptoms... It's been really hard. I might get an ADD diagnosis soon too. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel okay. Sometimes even "good". But mostly I'm tired, sad and anxious. Can't focus. Can't enjoy the moment. Been trying to "figure it out". Been trying lots of things. It's propably going to get better at some point. Right now I'm just feeling like shit so I'm writing this because I hope it would be helpful. Putting things into perspective. I know the usual stuff, that I should clean the diet, exercise, and fix the sleep routine. And meditate, of course. But I just can't do it. It's too hard. "I don't have what it takes", at least right now. Hoping that maybe the ADD meds could help but at the same time I would not like to take pills. Fuck I would like to have a good cry too but it just doesn't happen. I just can't cry. Been focusing on feeling a lot lately. It has been helpful. This post is propably due to this "cleaning up". I feel the bullshit in me. The dishonesty and the deception. I'd like to just vomit it all out. I also often feel this longing. My mind feels so limited. There are moments when I see and remember this great freedom in me. Can't really touch it, but only look at it from afar. I'd like to feel free. I'd like to feel lightness and joy, depth and boundlessness. Give a thought if you like.

@Preety_India Thank you very much

I have done psychedelics. Went a bit too deep and almost got psychosis and killed myself. lol Still in recovery. I want to be emotionally stable if I'm going to use them again. Maybe after a few years.

Thank you I sense good energy from your writing. Makes me feel better.

I'm interested in Wilber's integral theory and the AQAL thing. I'd like to know which book would be the best one to read if one wanted to learn the theory. Integral Psychology, Integral Spirituality, The Religion of Tomorrow...? I'm interested in all the stages, states, lines, quadrants etc. Would be cool to read about the highest levels too. Which book is the most comprehensive on the matter?

lol, maybe Kinda funny to see myself & others trying to think ourselves to a conclusion on UFOs when at the same time, most of us if any, have no fucking idea what "truth", "logic", "thinking" or even "reality" is.

Love Love that Love Love Love. Love Love!

Just wondering... What exactly is this "consciousness" that "rises" from the "current state" to the "super human level"? What exactly happens when you take a psychedelic or meditate daily? What is "more", "higher", "a level", or "change"? There must be something in my current situation that is shared with this "super human level". What is the thing that changes, and the change itself? How can a thing (in this case, consciousness) become more itself, as "more" is made of consciousness already. Get what I'm asking? There must be some kind of a direct connection to this "change" and to the thing that "becomes super human" right here, now. Nothing is hidden. So how come I feel and seem so unconscious? This one is for @Nahm too, and all the mods.

What exactly does science say about reality? What does it say about consciousness? Matter? Time? Being and nothingness? It seems to me that you are actually bying the materialist paradigm, not "science". You are veiling your metaphysical assumptions as science and objectivity. There is philosophy beyond scientific method. For example, what is direct experience? This cannot be answered by scientific method, as science appears within direct experience. I believe the problem here is what you think spirituality is. Spirituality is not really just thinking and philosophizing. It's not about knowing and being right. At least for me, it would make a lot more sense to think of spirituality as a feeling-thing. What makes you connected to life & reality? What gives you that childlike wonder? What makes your body fill with joy and true depth? If it is science, so be it. The real center of spirituality is feeling, the connection to the depths of reality. Science is just the tool.

I thought it would be cool to have a thread for histories of different societies. It is very mind-opening to see the history of a society unfold in a single video: Makes me wonder... What's the point? Where is the mankind going? Share your thoughts & favourite history videos here!