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I like to think that I'm emotionally, socially and spiritually quite intuitive/gifted.

I'm a little gifted in many areas, but I don't have any particular "thing" I'm especially good at, or drawn to. Except introspection, spirituality and general philosophical thinking. Working with others. I would be happy with a laid-back job with autonomy.

This is literally what my life is like too. Yet, I don't think there is anything wrong with me. I'm fucking awesome. And I know you are too.

Okay. You're right. Them girls evil, only fucking douchebags. So, if you want to have sex, go and be the asshole. Problem solved. And if you don't want to be an asshole, then you'll remain a virgin forever. Your decision. Yeah, life sucks sometimes. No can do. No conversation on this forum will change that. You just gotta be a man and accept your fate.

A couple months ago I had a glimpse beyond the veil, into what I like to call the non-physical. Leo was there, along with a few others. These energies greeted me in the most loving manner, speaking a language of pure love and consciousness. They said something like "Gongrats! We were waiting for you!" There is a freaking super-orgy-party going on there. There is no gurus nor students. Just pure love tangled up on itself in one unified explosion of beauty and joy and relationship. I'm guessing that's what Leo means. That was one of the most beautiful moments in my life. And I know it was just the beginning.

I have lived a couple of years on welfare. (I live in Finland.) About 1000 in USD per month. That has been well enough for a quality home, food, hygiene, clothes, and even some extra stuff like books. I have minor mental health problems. It's true that in short term, it makes you uninterested. Even if my mental health was good, I would still probably keep living on welfare for a little bit. This is because having a job at McDonalds or stuff like that is simply so exhausting and meaningless. It would make me feel like shit, so I'm not going to do it. One might call that bad and selfish. But with this time I've had for myself, I have been growing as a person more than anyone else around me. It's not bad to be lazy and a bit selfish for a couple of years. This period in my life has completely changed me. I have discovered life and it's hidden depths. I've had time to really think through what I want from life and who I want to be. This would not have been possible without a quality welfare system. And what I've become, and what I will do in years to come, will pay this money back. I have no doubt about that. I've come to understand that at least in Finland, it is quite rare for someone to leech off the system for long periods of time simply because of the free money. This is because doing nothing is not good for general well-being. People actually want to do stuff and meet other people etc.

Open yourself to the possibility that everything you have learned this far has just been mountains of bullshit. Not Leo's content, but what you got from it. Maybe read Jed McKenna's Enlightenment Trilogy. And even that will just be bullshit. 1. Try not believing any thought that doesn't feel good. Let's be honest, you probably have no idea what's true or false in your mind. Yet, in feeling, joy, passion and love shouts truth. Here's a radical idea: if you don't have a clue what's true, why not just choose what feels good? What you most desire is simply to feel good - not truth, not mystical prestige. 2. Try psychedelics. AND GO EASY! Low doses. 3. Try Kriya Yoga, if you haven't already:

Well, sometimes I wake up early, sometimes in the evening. Usually I eat pretty healthy. Sometimes I might eat some candy or some chips. I meditate if I feel like it. I take long walks and listen to any music that gives that sweet inspiration. I observe my mind and emotions. I choose the perspectives that feel better. I often spend my time in social media and watching movies. Sometimes I read some spiritual or philosophical texts. I masturbate often and use nicotine products all the time because I'm addicted. Most of all, I'm not trying to be a mystic. I just recognize the divinity as well as I can in every moment. That's good enough.

lol Fun fact: you automatically know what licking a thing feels like just by looking at it. Try it! Look at any object in your room and imagine what it would feel like to lick it. Then, do it. You'll see what I mean.

People might experience this very differently, but if you are a bit like me, one-night stands are really fucking boring. It's really not satisfying at all. The best sex is when you build up an intimate relationship and have sex with the same person frequently. That's where the real fun is. Simply, go somewhere where you can meet girls. When you have more interaction with women, you will start to find what works for you. - Be intuitive - Don't be creepy - Don't talk down other men or make stupid remarks about women - Be funny. If you are naturally really unfunny (as I am), just show them some good memes or videos of stupid animals or babies or something. You don't have to be a standup comedian. - Go with the social flow. You don't have to be extraverted or talkative, just be you and have fun. Maybe gossip a little or something, but in a good way. That will show that you understand social situations. - Open up about stuff you are comfortable with sharing. You can start building a close relationship in just a few hours if she's open to it. - When you're ready to get flirty, say stuff like "you smell good" etc. Make a good eye-contact. Here you can also stand or sit physically closer to her. This has worked pretty okay for me. I've always relied mostly on social and emotional intuition. You sense it quite quickly if she's into you.

@Vivaldo There is nothing in death that cannot be in life. I don't say that as if I knew what death is, but because I know what life is. A boundless dream. You are as free to live in joy as you are to commit suicide.

Deconstruct the concept of "stupidity"

@Epikur @Scholar Welp, it seems that I was pretty fucking wrong

? What Nahm said. You may right now reach for any perspective that feels better. In doing so, you see the untruth and "heaviness" of that thought you previously held true. Choosing another thought is completely effortless.

Okay, that's true. I gave a bad argument. But I don't really see any other reason why masculinity would be mentioned in that manner there. There is no problem with "feminine weak men" in China. Do you see any feminist LGBTQ+ rights movement there? Many "kill all men" posters flying around? It has to be mentioned precisely because they want to be seen as more powerful. They are pushing the buttons of the fear regarding cultural progression in western world, in other words, right-wing. I think they are trying to create more political polarization in the west.

By "stupid fearful americans" I meant the right-wing. Who do you think China would like to see leading the US? Trump or Biden?

Modern war isn't a bunch of cavemen figuring out who is the biggest testosterone blob. I bet the reason that doucment points out masculinity is that it makes the stupid fearful americans poop their pants. There is a bigger problem here than the gays and theys in the army.

I'd like to hear this from someone who has personally gone through that leap. What were the main "insights" or realizations that lead to this? What were the pitfalls of stage Yellow in your experience? How did your beliefs or perspectives on certain concepts such as the ego, spirituality, philosophy, society, enlightenment, mind and emotion change in this process?

Whaaat. I think there might even be several people on the forum quite solid on Turquoise. I feel like many people see Turquoise as full transpersonal stage. Like Ramana Maharshi, Buddha, Rupert Spira etc. But it isn't. This is Tier 3, not Turquoise. Or am I misunderstanding something here?

I wouldn't call that enlightenment.

There needs to be direct and clear communication between the workers and the manager. What if you just go and talk with the manager? Literally just explain what you see happening, that there is two different value systems having a battle. Don't mention the hierarchical nature of it. Mention the main differences between Green and Orange. Do you resonate with Yellow? There is a chance you can create a powerful relationship with the manager. If you explain your perspective in a clear, rational way, he might see the potential in you to help create a bridge between the manager and the workers, creating a more functional workplace. Be like a diplomat.

@Seed How often do you drink and how many glasses exactly? Only wine? Can you easily stop after one glass or do you feel a need to 'get to' a certain level of being drunk?

"Ego" and "egoic desire" are projections of the ego-mind. How about that? My dear friend don't expect me to sustain for you in grief Don't expect anything from be but happiness intoxication and good times since God created us only for this I wreck logic and fight a sober mind - Rumi

At least a bit on that stage. Had a psychotic episode about a year ago that pretty much forced me to really take a look on how the mind constructs lived reality.