Moonturnsthetides

This is something I am having a hard time doing. I find that these memories come up out of no where and have so much control over me and my awareness. I know it no longer exists and no longer serves me in the present. I feel like I work through them, but they manage to come back out like an ugly pimple. It's always with me. I don't know what to do. Thank you, Karlie

@Jkris I believe so, but my anxiety got the best of me. I’m new to meditation.

Hello, In my one and only relationship that lasted 11 years I’ve now learned some things about myself. How insecure I was and still seem to be. The constant need of approval from my partner at the time. My perception was that I felt like my partner said she was attracted to me, but wasn’t. How do I know for sure in my next one and will the attraction fade? Then that’s where I question if it’s even real if it’s only based on looks, and then I question how can you trust them on their word? I was lied to a lot and I found out after the breakup. I always see the good in people, but now I don’t trust anymore.

Nothing just like before birth

The saying things happen for a reason, do you believe that? I feel like I could and have consciously made decisions that have led my life to be more difficult. I don’t believe the saying. You make your own life and the people that are in it are just in it. I used to have a romanticized vision of life, not anymore.

As I’ve experienced a lot of heartbreak and sadness in this life, despite my past “success” in a career, I find myself at a point where I don’t care anymore. I have 0 motivation to improve my life knowing more about reality now. How can I get past this?

A glitch in the matrix. ?

Hello world, Today is a bad day. I’ve let myself go “there”. I’ve had a few experiences where I grasp enlightenment and feel great, but then I come back to my old ways. I feel so depressed and lonely. I ask myself what is the point of functioning into a society I can’t stand? A society where the majority are self deluded? I have never felt so alone in my life. I honestly don’t want to be here anymore. I see no point in my life. I’m just some random girl that means nothing and will be forgotten in the physical world. I have no social status, title or fame in which it seems like people value. So why stay?

Hello, I got out of my first relationship with my ex gf almost 2 years ago. We were together 11 years. I just turned 30 and A lesbian. Problem is, I was so emotionally invested in that relationship that I can’t imagine myself with anyone else. I still feel so connected and I don’t know why? I don’t speak to her, I no longer have contact with her daughter and I try to stop dwelling on the past. I don’t feel like I have anything left to give, and why would I want to start over with someone when it can be thrown away so easily? Especially these days. People don’t like to work in relationships. Will this feeling pass or have I just woken up to the pain in life now that I’m not so naive?

Hello fellow meat suits, So I have been watching a lot of Leo’s videos and came across the do nothing meditation and decided to give it a try. My goal was to do it for 20 minutes, and to sit and let my mind be like he explained, only aware of my posture. As the time was passing, I started to experience this vibrating in my head and a dull ache in the middle of my head. It freaked me out and I stopped. Does anyone have an explanation? Anxiety possibly? Thanks!

Almost 2 years ago my life flipped upside down and I’m barely holding on from it. Broke up with my gf of 11 years (I was 17 when we got together she was 28), I helped raise her child (who was 4 when I met her), lost our house, my job, my dogs, my life so I thought. I’ve been running ever since then and she moved on and is now with a guy just 6 months after (I’m a female). I don’t know what to do with myself. My car just got repossessed and I can’t hold down a job anymore. I don’t see the point of existing into society anymore. It’s all one giant facade. I have had suicidal ideation for awhile and now on medication, but I still just don’t see what’s the point of doing anything. Does anyone else feel so stuck in their lives? In the grand scheme of things I would love to leave and travel, but you need some sort of income and plan to do that, but I’m like I don’t even care if I miss out anymore. Why am I like this? I don’t want to play the victim, but I’m just so lost and frustrated.

Define success? Speaking for myself, my belief is it’s different for everyone. So the answer to your question, if it’s possible for everyone to have wealth and great relationships, yes, but not everyone is looking for that either.

Thank you for your insight.

Hey guys! I am new to the forum. I have recently started becoming conscious and experiencing ego death. I was pondering one day about mental illness. I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression my entire life. Learning and practicing self-development I’m starting to question if I even have an issue, that it could be just be me reacting to my ego? Question is, I’ve seen in a video of Leo’s where he basically debunks depression for the majority, but what about other mental illness? Aren’t those just attached to the ego as well? I’m really curious about this.