Same deal. About a year ago I picked up an amazing job. Best company I've ever worked for. I'm further in life than I've ever been.. but I'm also the most depressed. The first few months I felt amazing and I was driven. I lost sight of self and only saw my job. There was no me. Only what was in front of me and the most efficient way to make things happen. Efficiency rate was high, I was learning quickly, I was happy with who I was. Took a turn when I allowed someone elses(someone that I appreciated and let in) rage during one day hit me deep rather than go through me. Now I'm just skating by. No complaints from others(mainly because I'm now fairly timid in speech rather than steeled) but I seem to have forgotten how to talk to people. I lost everything. Foresight, big picture thinking, influence. I don't want money anymore. I'm not interested in love or sex or success anymore. I'm not really interested in my games anymore. I just force myself to focus until I finally get my head into a book. I don't want half of what I own and plan on chucking or selling it. I want nothing but my meaning back.. which is tied to action. Catch 22. So I'm pondering leaving my job for a while until I reorient myself. I have a decent amount saved.. but I had planned on owning a "base of operations" so I could relax. Even then, I'm not sure if it'll do anything if I did take a while off.
