Kore

Meditation update: I'm gradually returning back to my old self from several years back when I first started practising do nothing meditation and other meditation techniques for hours at a time. It's a purification. I feel calmer. I have sweet, blissful experiences that come and go. I include sleepiness as apart of my meditation because it works (Abraham Hicks recommends it). The sleepiness helps me to process and heal.

Me vs Reality

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The point of meditation and do nothing meditation is not to need so much stimulation all the time, to be content with nothing. Ambient rooms is low level stimulation. Meditation gets you comfortable with being happy with emptiness alone. This helps you get off needing stimulation all the time. It's an integration of the feminine: emptiness, being, receiving.

Exactly. I think more messages and education and overall communication are warranted. Some people don't understand for example where one rule begins and where it ends. For example, I was outside of that discord and gave an external source (can't say who or that would be recruiting). I didn't know that was recruiting. I thought you had to be inside the discord and specifically giving invites.

That's what I try to do in my journal. Self-reflection. If I veer too off course into another person's language then I lose my own inner language and lose sight of insight and learning. I suppose it's subjective. Sometimes I get caught up in the forum drama and toxicity and I try to convert it and digest it in my journal in some form, alchemize it. Apologies for being too harsh toward you recently.

I speak of the negatives but the Erudite has a lot of good to offer the 'small', if they can learn to empathize with the 'small' and place awareness they can learn to transcend the negatives of their ego structure. The 'small' has to be careful not to slip into their shadow form accidentally (very difficult).

It attracts "schizos" because in my experience "schizos" are often very open-minded and out there. Leo can be similarly so. They like to stretch their mind. Stretch the boundaries and barriers of their mind and it gets them into trouble. They'll be attracted to sources that will be kinda "Alice in Wonderland" like. They are talented because they are on psychedelics without being on psychedelics. There are pros and cons to everything.

Okay, to clarify, in this thread, this Tate guy is terrible, just like my ex who would did despicable things to me. I only really see the good in him because I brought the good out in that relationship. I think as well that Leo has an acute lack of empathy in practice that can wear on someone's mental health combined with if they have "schizo" tendencies can be terrible for someone's mental health. He talks down to his audience as fools and fundamentally 'bad'. Imagine what that looks like for someone who has a propensity for schizophrenia (who follows his work and it triggers schizophrenia), who are sensitive to energies. "Mental illness" can happen to anyone, it isn't just about the mentally fragile or 'weak'.

I agree. Well said.

Dude has a point. Tate reminds me of my ex. Not a pleasant fellow to be sure but he did fundamentally improve me as a human being. Leo was a strong reason I went to the mental hospital.

Kore and the Erudite She traverses into her darkness time and time again with the God of the Underworld, the Erudite (God of Darkness) who magnifies the darkness within her. Then she rises from the darkness with the light of her awareness. Journalling etc.

Kore (Goddess of Spring) vs Proserpina (Goddess of the Underworld) Kore symbolizes rebirth and new life as a Spring Goddess. I like to think of Kore in this context as a mature version of Proserpina. Someone who has lit up the darkness and underworld with her awareness and no longer dwells in darkness.

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It's very easy to rise up and slip into this 'shadow version' accidentally, even subtly as a small one as an effect of a sick society, surrounded by Erudite and shadow figures. The Erudite will then point out and magnify this slip up a million times making the small one want to even more 'rise to the occasion' and slip into their 'shadow form' (if masculine). Or to shrink away into some form of self-harm or self-demonization (if feminine). It's important to understand where all this originates from to place awareness on it. Awareness is curative.

Firstly, I want to publicly apologize and take accountability for the duplicate accounts and for recruiting people twice. I don't want to undermine your community, I love your community and its setup, especially the journaling section. The second recruiting was a foolish act driven out of silly sentimentality. I wasn't thinking. I didn't realize the gravity of my actions at the time. But I feel the judgment was too harsh for what was a singular misdemeanor and when I was outside of the discord itself. My first recruit was someone on the path, loyal to her beloved partner. I didn't realize at the time since I was so new to the forum just how much the community would mean to me. I made a decision to be outside of that discord and I stuck to it. I did not want to be part of that discord community. I wanted to be a part of your community. I made one foolish, off-the-cuff decision that wiped clean my whole path. I cannot tell you how much I regret that decision. Community is important to me. I keep quiet and I work hard in my journal. I try to keep my schizoaffective tendencies under control. I feel I have come a long way compared to the past two years because of the community. My psychiatrist says I have issues with suggestibility. That may be a factor. I'm not trying to make wrong decisions. I need to weigh the pros and cons more often. It's my feminine nature to be way too overly agreeable. I created my third account during an episode of psychosis. I have schizoaffective. I was deep in psychosis for several posts into that account and then was recovering slowly. With this account, I made it when I was also in psychosis a few years ago and was seeing things that weren't there. I don't go out of my way to undermine your community in that way. I felt it fair to use this account so my voice could be heard because I feel I have something to say and that I was banned unfairly. Yet again I apologize. And I hope that you will allow me to stay in your community as it helps me to recover from some massive emotional injuries that I've sustained last year through journaling. My first account was banned due to psychosis. I asked to be banned because my psychosis was out of control.

Ego vs Soul Of course, I'm only describing the egoic structure of such people (Erudite and 'demonic version', etc.). They can step out of or dissolve this egoic structure at any time. I've seen it happen, where the egoic structure takes a backseat and the soul steps forward, vacillating between the soul and egoic structure. The Soul has a softness to it that the Ego lacks.

@Preety_India Well, I'm glad you're back. (If you are back, I'm so confused)

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