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Norbu I've discovered a productivity app goldmine called "Norbu". It uses calming and alerting exercises similar to sensory modulation to help you with shifting into a state conducive to productivity and uses a scale to measure before the exercise to gauge your level of stress or willingness to take action. It also has a gratitude journal where you can write about any action you take as a result of the exercises. It's really effective for emotional regulation, state shifting, and then journalling results.

From Leo's Blog (relevant to me since I have Schizoaffective): "What ordinary humans consider to be "hallucinations" not really hallucinations (since everything is a hallucination), they are just God's imagination — Infinite Imagination — at work in non-ordinary states of consciousness. You can't really understand things like Schizophrenia without God-Realization. Schizophrenia is like an extreme form of openmindedness. Your mind/consciousness is so abnormally open that reality itself becomes less material and more fluid — similar to being on mushrooms. This kind of openness correlates with high creativity because a lot more novel ideas are floating into your field of consciousness. But your mind is so open that these ideas literally start to morph your material world. A coffee table could start talking to you and giving you novel ideas. The trade-off is that your mind is less buttoned-up, so it literally starts to feel like you're going insane. How would you react if all the sudden your coffee table started to talk to you? Would you be open to listening, or would you freak out and run to the doctor to put yourself on meds to suppress it? Most people would freak out because they don't have a proper context for it. Under the materialist paradigm the only context is that you're going insane. But if you understand how consciousness works then there's really nothing wrong about it, you just have an extra-open mind. The notion that talking to your coffee table is "irrational", "crazy", or unscientific is just wrong. There's nothing unscientific about it. In fact, it is unscientific to call it unscientific because under the right states of consciousness people can talk to their coffee tables and this is not a bug, it's a feature. You have to be very careful about privileging one state of consciousness over another. This is an unscientific bias. No state of consciousness is superior to any other. No state of consciousness is truer than any other. They are just different, with various pros and cons. But humans are very judgmental and demonizing of states of consciousness which are unlike their own. This is just another form of bigotry. When a scientist says that some non-ordinary state of consciousness, like schizophrenia, is irrational or crazy, he is being a bigot. Rationality does not have a monopoly on reality, as it is commonly assumed. With that said, of course not all states of consciousness are equally functional. Some forms of schizophrenia may be highly maladaptive to living in modern society. Evolution and natural selection have carefully shaped mankind's default state of consciousness over millions of years to be hyper functional for survival in the kinds of environments that humans usually find themselves in. This is what creates the illusion of material reality. Reality is not at all material, but it seems that way because all the immaterial, dream-like aspects have been pruned off in order to make it possible for humans to excel in activities such as business, engineering, socialization, and war. You know what happened when the US military gave LSD to soldiers to make them better killers? The soldiers refused to fight each other because they experienced too much love. You literally have to be very closed-minded to kill people! In other words, the reason humans are so materialistic, rational, and business-like by default is because all the humans with dreamy default states of consciousness were killed off by the business-minded ones. Consider the possibility that 2000 years ago all humans were much more dreamy by default than they are today. But war killed them off and selected for the most materialistic, rational, and business-minded ones. Which is to say, all the most spiritual humans were killed off long ago. Which is why humans today struggle so much with being spiritual whereas in the ancient past people were much more mystically inclined. This wasn't merely a cultural shift, it was a shift at the genetic level. Nobody understands this! Ta-Daaaaa! It's even possible that Neanderthals were more spiritual than humans but were killed off by the more business-like and war-like humans. Science & history has yet to appreciate such matters because they take state of consciousness for granted. The downside of being spiritual is that you're weaker at business. Which is why businessmen and scientists have no souls ;)"

The small have the qualities of divergent and half-blood as they are not 'genetically pure'. They have the strengths of Gryffindor: bravery, and courage against adversity. They may not be blessed with brains or work ethic but they are brave. They have lion hearts and are driven by purpose (uplifting the consciousness of the collective). They also have the quality of being factionless if they are rejected for being 'genetically impure'. The big have the qualities of pure-blood and non-divergent as they are 'genetically pure'. They have the strengths of Slytherin: Ambition, determination, and leadership. They are the all-seeing eye, big brother: Erudite, intelligence, knowledge. They tend to be judgemental towards those who are 'half-bloods'. Yes I can be a Harry Potter nerd

The big: Slytherin, Pure-blood, Non-divergent, Erudite The small: Gryffindor, Divergent, half-bloods, factionless

repost Analysis Discrediting of the small. The encouragement of that kind of thinking. But then I remember. The raising of the collective's consciousness is built into the design. Everything is laid out fine. The guardian is the best of the collective (the big- the driven, the ambitious, the responsible, the guardian and protector) and simultaneously the root or worst of the collective (who we're trying to reach, the Erudite). The small comes forth to ease the energies of that kind of thinking. Balancing the equation.

Guardian It's not about being perfect or 'without sin'. It's about keeping the community running and stable and making sure avatars (whether banned or unbanned) have a platform for raising the collective's consciousness. A turquoise or yellow site. God uses the foolish and wise. The small and the big. There are protectors and guardians. We're all here to serve a greater purpose. God says "ye without sin, cast the first stone". God does not condemn, God embraces.

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Pain of 'Psychosis' I've been through two 'psychoses' in the last few years. The pain still lingers on. It feels never-ending like it will never heal. I try not to act out the pain. I make sure to stay within my integrity to the best of my ability, with some hiccups. The 'psychosis' involved an entity tormenting me for many months. How can I ease this pain that is never ending? Will it ever end? I sit and sit and wait it out. That's all I can do. To be kind. To be love and to act in my integrity to the best of my ability is what it means to transmute this for me. This may have taken a huge hit at me but it's my job to alchemize this as any other time. This may be the most difficult thing I've had to ever alchemize but that doesn't mean I can't do it. Even if I were a demon, I could and would alchemize it. Even if I fell from grace and couldn't get back up. Even if it were the end. I would continue to alchemize it until I was dead. Because. Thats. What. I. Do.

Meditated 20 minutes Read 30 minutes Watched "What Heavy Metal Toxicity Does To Your Mind" Watched "Revealing What Psychedelics Really Do To Your Mind" Watched "How To Build Your State & Be More Attractive To Women"

That came from my heart.

An Ode to Leo Leo is a great voice to send out messages to the collective at his best. And this community is used by the universe to send out messages to the collective. This community will use avatars or vessels to send out messages to the collective. This community Leo is a guardian and protector of plays a vital place and role in the universe. Leo may be harsh sometimes but he keeps the place running. You have to appreciate that.

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The Help I've been blessed in life to see the lighter side of those with mental illness and disability. I grew up surrounded by those with intellectual disabilities and mental illness as my parents were both support workers. I remember them being sweet to me as a child and teenager. I also had family members, an aunty with Schizophrenia who would bless me with her hospitality and her kindness, and uplifting spirit. The words 'mental hospital' or 'mental illness' does not phase me or make me think less of the person or make a character assessment about the person. But for many others, these words hold great weight for them in assessing a person's character. I feel this stigma coming from others. I feel I have a good heart. I completely understand why non-profit organizations appear that help those with mental illness. Once you see into the heart of some of these people, like my Aunty, you feel inspired to help. People are called to help those who are wounded. And then the love overflows to an unconditionality.

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Meditation update: I'm gradually returning back to my old self from several years back when I first started practising do nothing meditation and other meditation techniques for hours at a time. It's a purification. I feel calmer. I have sweet, blissful experiences that come and go. I include sleepiness as apart of my meditation because it works (Abraham Hicks recommends it). The sleepiness helps me to process and heal.

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The point of meditation and do nothing meditation is not to need so much stimulation all the time, to be content with nothing. Ambient rooms is low level stimulation. Meditation gets you comfortable with being happy with emptiness alone. This helps you get off needing stimulation all the time. It's an integration of the feminine: emptiness, being, receiving.

Exactly. I think more messages and education and overall communication are warranted. Some people don't understand for example where one rule begins and where it ends. For example, I was outside of that discord and gave an external source (can't say who or that would be recruiting). I didn't know that was recruiting. I thought you had to be inside the discord and specifically giving invites.