FunBun

As a beginner of actualisation, I'm struggling to find out what to prioritise. I'm trying to build a meditation practice and that has really been meaningful so far already, but introspection is something I am not familiar with (at least not consciously). So my questions are: What is introspection? Why introspection is helpful? When is introspection helpful? / Who could benefit from it? How do I do it the right way? (asking the right questions that focus on gaining awareness, not stress the problems further) How much time should I put into this? / How often should I do this? How is it different from meditation?

For the better part of my life I have drowned myself in computer games. Not only was I addicted, it also made me rage when things didn't go my way. I never thought more of it than just that was something I did when gaming. Recently, however, I found out that this is exactly what I am doing all the time: Not accepting what is, but demanding things to be the way I think they should be in my head. Then there are huge amounts of 'shoulds' I allowed in my life subconsciously. I realise now this has made me bitter, rigid and egotistical. Just by being aware of this, my fears got a lot bigger (because again, I approach my insights with rigidness, shoulds, etc). I feel so attached to them and at the same time detached from life. I can't remember what it is to feel happiness, love, joy in a natural way. I'm afraid of bonding with other people because all I ever do is creating egotistical bonds where I play the victim and am looking for validation and acceptance from others. In my love life I have also been egotistical, trying to please the better half in a very neurotic way, but also feeling bad about how I feel I underperform sexually. Because of this, I beat myself up and am extremely harsh on myself. I try the remind myself to love myself and do these exercises, but I can't allow myself to accept my feelings of sadness, depression and especially frustration, because I am just so afraid I will start to rage again so I'd rather push it away. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to lose control over myself anymore. I'm also tired and done with running from them though. So bascially, how do I allow all my emotions in a healthy way and to not let them define me? ('good' emotions such as happiness, love, joy and 'bad' emotions such as fear, sadness, frustration) Also, how do I let go of the egotistical me in bonding with other people so I can form positive and lasting relationships?

Hi there, Some time ago I found Leo's videos on youtube. Some of them are really cool and direct and others are more abstract and confusing. I know everyone has their story in life and their history of self created problems. I'm almost 34 years old right now and through Leo's videos I realised that I have never really had a life purpose. I got diagnosed with ADD at age 27 and then things started to fall into place, but it also became a good scapegoat for me to put the blame on. I couldn't help it, because my ADD caused it is what I believe. Now I'm done with it and want to seriously take control of my life and start to live to my potential. I just don't know what to begin with. Should I first overcome my fear of feeling not good enough and feeling like a failure in life, or should I take action towards a new profession? Not having finished a proper education that I feel I want to pursue has gotten me in a position where my money influx is rather low, therefore limiting expensive courses or studies. I have taken on studies in the past that I felt good towards (although not pinpointing any life's purpose before starting them) but in the end quit and dismissing it as 'something that wasn't for me' (because of ADD for instance), to only later realise I wasn't necessarily not qualified, but I was much too fearful in many ways to actually stand my own. Emotional mastery is something I feel is something I am in dire need of. Not feeling guilty for making mistakes and taking on efforts and to really open myself to learning is all I crave for. So my question is; How well would the LPC be for me in this situation? Does anyone have a similar experience or advice on this or in any other way? Thanks so much!