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What are you saying then?

There is never a completion of reality, (though definitely an experience of it) Remember the conversation of Buddha with Mara (the demonic dude). Infinite sentience in need of wisdom. Having discovered enlightenment, how will you go about spreading it?

I have created a koan then: Truth can't be spoken, Silence is repressing the truth How will you respond?

Yes, a new direction is indeed possible. I was also hit with many schizophrenic breaks with reality, as well, born with a brachial plexus injury of my right arm (so it looks slightly distorted and weaker than my left). Like you, I indulged exclusively in video games for a good portion of my life and only developed a single skill within editing fancy looking PvP videos. I definitely did not attempt to do anything else until I was about 27 years old. There I began to actually have a desire to engage in other projects. Since I was so apt in video games, I figured i would start making them. And so I created "Path of Vidya" where I basically logged some of my extreme existential crises to the world, while sneakily infiltrating some spiritual wisdom into the mix for anyone to enjoy in a video game format. I suppose why I am telling you all of this, is so you know that you can pick up a skill at any point in your life and start the journey of creating. Does not matter if you become good or not, it is more about exploring your self outside the virtual realm. All you have to do is find something that seems as though it would be interesting to learn, and then do it for whatever shred of time your energy will allow.

The two do not have to be separate. All you need to do, is whatever you believe you need to do to fulfill those desires. Anymore, can lead to imbalance in your life. So in this, you can still meditate when needed, and come to spiritual realizations, but you won't be angry or frustrated if you don't fulfill your desires right away. Then perhaps, in time, you will decide to focus only on matters of spirituality. But, this is a rather rare path that not every soul will need to pursue in this life. There indeed, is a lot of spirituality to gain in the material side of things. A lot of help we can provide to ourselves, and eventually to others.

Nothing is a waste of time, but it will likely not manifest in anyway you would desire it to. The mechanism of politics is inherently divisive. Third parties may seem hopeful, but quickly fall into the same grids that have corrupted their would be opponents. A more holistic solution, would be to either unite all the parties or dissolve all the parties. Either way, you would be ridiculed for taking the side of the enemy or of regression. That said, it is always the case, that some kind of progress will occur either way. So if you have no desire to create something new, and would just find yourself becoming idle. Then your involvement could accelerate either progress of policy or progress of consciousness.

Wish I knew. Perhaps mastery over knowing what I would like to master? Though, if physical limitations ever dissolve their boundary, I would enjoy mastery of all things.

I desire renown, money, good organic food, sexual dreams, connections from the astral, more love for humanity and whatever Enlightenment may self-realize. I would like to say I only desire Enlightenment, and love but it wouldn't be so accurate from my perspective. If I did, I would be sitting in meditation every waking moment and think of nothing else. Fear definitely exists, as well. Though, often the only time I feel fear is within some kind of void or elder god within my dream state. It is actually good when it happens, because it means I am integrating with a far larger aspect of myself. I would like to imagine that if faced with death in the waking world, I would not fear it, but my dreams indicate that this is mostly not the case for the personality I am, in this moment. Maybe someday or in some future life.

One can often help others by helping themselves.

Another entry, for this forum alone: The idea of fulfilling one's desires in life, I have found, to definitely be a pre-requisite before any focused enlightened endeavor. After listening to two audiobooks that happened to center around the masters of Himalayas, I was reminded how deep consciousness can expand into. I have always longed to retreat into some kind of monastery, and the better it would be, if I was taught by great masters. Masters who have realized beyond many physical limitations. But, this idea, I have finally realized is far too lofty for me to undergo at this time. Perhaps, even within this life (though I am not so sure of that conviction...). During the winter I decided to stop doing any creative works, after finishing my fledgling video game "World Tree". During these meditations I definitely found (and continue to find) a profound sense of bliss and perfection. And yet, most days my mind would wander into ideas of material advancement. "Will I ever afford a house?" "Maybe, I would enjoy the experience of a family?" "Will my creative works ever give me an income?" "What do I need to focus on in order to become someone who makes an impact within the world?" (or if not the world, at least the internet!! HA! Ha!) These questions would arise even when I attempted to convince myself I was done looking for anything other than Enlightenment. My meditation was just simply not becoming any deeper or more profound than it already was. Thus, the futility in the idea I would ever make a good monk, at the moment. Work has to be done, and I am glad I was able to realize that by posting about my struggles in a more inquisitive way on this very forum (instead of usually being the one with the answers). For of course, I see many questions of which I know the answer to. Absolutely know, and without doubt, because I have already gone through the experience the questioner is struggling with. But, for ways to make an income? I have no answer as of yet. Only many suggestions. So after talking with Consept (member of this forum), the pendulum of my life swung to the opposite extreme and I had completely forgotten all my mindfulness work up until that point. I was filled with so much energy I didn't know what to do with it, and my mind was in a haze from lack of focus on my energy body. Yet, I was able to create many things during this time, and garner ideas of what I could do to improve my work. I came up with several animations: I also decided to do some quick informative videos: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtifZ23cZn_gyMGMnHryHsQ As well as record several podcasts: https://anchor.fm/auramystica Along with a bit of writing: https://jaronfund.com/phoenix-tome/ You may give me your opinion, so I can improve my work. I am not so sure what will allow me the most success, so I still find myself exploring a variety of content. Though definitely, I feel as though I need to focus on my animations and podcast the most for whatever reason. It has also been challenging to realize that perhaps more research of trends will be needed, and ways to attract more people to my content. As well, difficult to see how poor my animation/video quality is compared to the more popular content out there. I trust I no longer have to delete anything from embarrassment. All that i have to do, is make the next piece of content better than before. All I can do is what I know to do in the moment. I am glad now, that i have begun my regular meditation practice again. Focusing on my energy body whenever I can, as well as sitting for several hours a day. Rhythm has certainly compensated the extremity of my recent experiences. I also had one of the greatest lucid/astral dreams I have ever had in awhile when I begun this journey. An ET like lady caressed me, and pulled me out of my body into an enchanted tree. I felt as though, this entirely new dimension I found myself in, was created for me and because of me. As though, there was some kind of future cult that found my work most useful (hard to imagine that as being real.) I will continue to find ways of improving my work, if at all possible. And then, perhaps I will be able to finally afford that house. Certainly if I succeed, I will stop posting these journals. I am 33 years old. 33 being the master builder number, gives me some sense of balance in the process. "One step thou has gained on the long pathway upward, infinite now is the mountain of Light. Each step thou taketh but heightens the mountain; all of thy progress but lengthens the goal. Approach ye ever the infinite Wisdom, ever before thee recedes the goal. " - Thoth the Atlantean

Reflection of the question.

Studies, data— all well and good. But, one can sense the body when consuming foods. And find out exactly what needs eliminating.

But, if I can know that I know nothing... Then I do know something! Ha! Ha!

Your individual expression with members of your society, can be an shining example of how humans can more preferably interact. This may appear too challenging, but luckily we can't physically do anymore than whatever we know to do in the moment.

I am not sure you need to accept or not accept, but one thing is certain, it is best to not allow circumstances to dictate one's preferred state of being. Especially since, one can only do what they believe is the best action in any given moment despite what external situation they are faced with.

The amount of "material bypassing" I have been doing was astounding until I had this conversation. This was a very meaningful conversation for me, thanks @Consept , but now the real work awaits. Already have setup a better plan.

Both accurate statements from my point of view. The idea, is that after experiencing the Earth plane for so many years, and still not doing one's own research on companies/institutions (many of which are consistently caught lying), is willfully choosing a soulless path. But, that said why is this a thing we have to put so much energy into? If we had a society of spiritually minded individuals, then we could trust them not to mislead us with anything and could better spend our energy in places that needed it more (such as our passion, meditation).

US Congress: Flint water supply fix - 9 Billion (can't afford it) Ukraine Weapons - 14 Billion (took 3 days to approved) Why do we always have support for war, but nothing for our own people? How anyone could support sending more Ukrainians (and Russians) to their death is a strange outcome of our Earthly existence. Highly propagandized. It would be wise to let our ostensible "representatives" know that we do not support a "No Fly Zone" with Russia. Because that is calling for WW3. (It is being pushed by Zelensky in congress right now and you would be surprised the amount of people from left and right that support this). Peace is the only solution.

All things are actually malleable in reality. Our physical reality is a slower vibration though, so all things here move like wading through thick mud. If someone becomes stuck in the mud, it will be very difficult to do anything else. There is no judgement in this. However, the way society is currently structured, makes it very challenging to allow these individuals the necessary opportunity to at least begin looking for a tree branch or something to hold onto. Since you are on this forum, I strongly suggest holding onto that tree branch. You will help others out of the mud once you accept yourself as you are and begin to very slowly transcend any circumstance.

I am about to write another entry, but this one you are about to read was for yesterday. Today, I had quite an uplifting shift in experience, thanks to a member who reached out to me on this very board! (As well as an astral experience). XXIII: What Does A Mirror See In Another Mirror? March 14th, 2022: In my life, I keep spirituality as the essential focus of all my endeavors. This has allowed me to stay in a positive state when going about the usually mundane activities that is currently expressed in our world. However, it is probably best to make no distinctions at all, between what is spiritual and what isn’t. I was listening to someone speak about their life on a youtube video. It was someone who expresses spiritual wisdom to thousands of people, mainly through channeling. While listening to him authentically speak about the challenges and frustrations he had to deal with in his life, my shadow self came to a strange sense of pleasure in believing that it had something “spiritual” over this individual by way of some sort of happiness metric that it concocted. Perhaps, you have read the second line in this article and created a thought of envy or disapproval. “This has allowed me to stay in a positive state.” This statement is only half-true. I could have wrote “mostly” positive state and it would be more accurate to what I experience on a daily basis (through the modalities of wisdom I have been able to absorb from the myriad of mystical explorers in this realm and elsewhere). Yet, it would be just as misleading to state it as “mostly” positive as well. Any individual’s experience can’t be so easily described or presumed. When I experience negativity, it is usually brief and my focus shifts to something I can grasp as good, since anything else feels as though I am wasting my time. However, in many dreams I experience, the depth of the negativity is extremely intense. No matter how brief it may be, it always leaves me stirred up, or perhaps more accurately (dare I say) very disturbed. To say I am disturbed seems like a misnomer in dialogue, because certainly that energy leaves me as soon as the day begins, but the idea that I can be disturbed to begin with, is an indicator of missing something very important. Some have termed this “missing quality” as a 4th density state of consciousness (seeing through one’s self completely). It is also more famously known as Enlightenment. After listening to this person speak about their life on youtube, I went to sleep and had a very intense dream of my own inner turmoil. It was that still humble reminder, that I have ways to go myself, to master my emotions and physical reality. Listening in on certain people, we can assume what we can come to know about their state of consciousness. But, we only get a reflection of ourselves. It may seem as though someone is complaining, or that they are enveloped in misery and suffering, but there is no way of knowing this. The only knowledge there is, is self-knowledge. Often, we may misinterpret single slices of another’s experience as the entire experience of their present life. But, just because something is being expressed in the moment as being a certain way, does not necessarily mean that it is that way all the time. It can crop up in many different moments as just a shallow sense of negativity. While for others, it may be a long-drawn out emotional sickness that is experienced only once over the course of many months. The point here is that I was unconsciously lording something over someone and was swiftly met with a mirror of my own inadequacies. It is interesting how eager I can become in finding the words to express how spiritually evolved I have become. For certain, I have been able to find an astonishing degree of positivity in my life. And for sure, there are people out there who have just gone numb towards anything that could shine a more blissful light on their situation. They would read words of enlightened mystics or rather joyful modern spiritual teachers of today, and completely gloss over at any sense of self-integration with their aspects. Just rolling their eyes with contempt, yawning with indifference to any growth towards a deeper love, and making statements along the lines of them being “fraudulent”, “inauthentic”, or containing “toxic positivity”. Of course the funny thing is, when spiritually minded individuals get called out as such, they always seem to fall for the unconscious bait. In turn, they become offended and frustrated with themselves and blame the trolls for their anger. What is being reflected to us, is always an opportunity to see whether we desire to take our words in the same way or not. In those dream states I described earlier, I always find myself meeting with a true inadequacy of potential. This always seems to manifest itself as a powerful negative belief of being worthless. This is actually, the central idea that all of humanity is attempting to alchemize. It becomes rather difficult when we are met with reflections of ourselves that use words in a way that appear to disempower us. Though, it is best not to blame anyone. Because it is definitely the case, that these individuals really truly desire to empower us, but they don’t yet have the tools of expressing it. For example, when some of us use words like “you’re stupid, you’re a cancer on society, you are useless” so on so forth. They are coming from a place of love to that which is believed to be intelligent, healing, and useful to society. So in the way they express themselves, they are attempting to do good, but they are not aware that the words they are using is having the opposite overall effect. (As it not only effects those that the words are directed too, but to everyone who may see the words and whom said them). Fortunately, nothing has to negatively effect anyone’s consciousness so long as they are aware of the infinite reflectivity that is reverberating throughout the mirror of our souls. In exploring my intense astral dream experiences, I gain more insight about this predicament. It can only be said that it has to remain central only to my own self-knowledge (there is no one else). So that, the demons and monstrosities that I see and have to face up to, are quite real in the sense of entities on other planes, but perhaps more real as the energy we have to transmute when we are met with a single complaint in our lives. This energy is sharp and can strike at any time. Which is why I suggest a perpetual meditation of the energy body, in order to better align with a more blissful experience. The greatest weakness lies in our sense of worthiness as an individual; it is where trolls of the astral or worldly kind can more easily strike at our temperaments. For me specifically, I know it has a lot to do with my inability to create wealth for myself. For you it could be any number of things. Appearance, Relationships, Speech, Skills, Health, Intelligence— all are intertwined with the core idea of self-worth. It may be assumed by this, that one has to force their will to achieve more in life as a result of these shortcomings, but that is a rather limited way of looking at this situation. Certainly, we can find ways of improving our situation in the external world, and there is no reason not to fulfill any desire that we may have; equally though, is going deeper into our self-realization and coming to the conclusion that our fundamental well-being is not based in any of these ideals. Freeing ourselves from these restraints can allow us to obtain our desire with less frustration. However, we will always be challenged and tested by the universe to see if we really have made the internal change we say we have. Time is also a very defining factor in the way we go about fulfilling desire. We may be able to internalize our situation for a very long time and then find ourselves many years later, longing for what we potentially missed out on— like a monk who returns to the world after a lifetime meditating in a monastery. What still remains more powerful than anything I have said, is what the subject believes and knows about what is true in their own life. Since the reader has the ability to feel good or bad about what has been said, then it be incumbent upon that individual to seek their own realization of what is preferable and what is not. What words need to be used and what does not. What actions need to be taken, and what actions are best left for others to deal with. Perhaps, it is what some mystics have known all along. Nothing needs to be said, and nothing needs to be done. Sitting quietly by the lake, I see myself reflected in the water. I can’t yet change the atoms of the water, But when I smile, The water helps to reflect back It all plays itself out anyways.

I can choose to make no distinctions. -- I am wondering if I need to do something differently, to do so. Haha. Exactly, what I would expect my ego to do as well. Which is why I mentioned it.

I am sure there are people here who could assist me with the idea of material matters. It is definitely my weakest pursuit in life. I have no income at all. Money seems to have always come to me by happen stance so that I have enough to buy whatever I desire, such as trips overseas, computers or good food. But for many years now, I have long desired to find a place to live by myself, alone, and have been working on many projects to see to it that it does happen some time in the future. In the waking world, I am totally at peace with the situation as is, because I always internalize every situation as being spiritually useful and it has indeed allowed me to find an astonishing degree of personal happiness, bliss, and fearlessness in all situations. Yet, within the subconscious plane, I basically just lied to you. There are the occasional times when I dream, I am met face to face with a true inadequacy— voices that say I am "lazy", or "stupid", a strange energy of underachievement mixed with doubt, that i am doing the "right" thing. When I wake up from such intense energy, I meditate and this energy of doubt goes away. Hm, how convenient for me? I strongly desire more spiritual realization and freedom to do as I please. This is the crux of my bind, that needs illuminated (and I will probably challenge you on anything you suggest so be careful!) Everyday, I happen to be able to do whatever I want with absolutely no obligations to anyone. I don't have to meet or talk with anyone unless I am absolutely certain they will raise my vibration (so to speak), which also means that I can end conversations short if I feel so inclined. So is the case, that when I work longer than an hour or two on my projects I feel my bliss starting to leave me. Thus, I never work more than my bliss allows. But, no further am I, in fulfilling that small (yet still persuasive) desire for a home of my own. With no real focus on any particular project, so far my plan is to continue at the pace I have been going, and simply trust that eventually my work will improve or (by the grace of the universe) my work will simply start catching on. In this way, I can focus on my enlightenment as primary and burn through the belief I need more instead of the karma of desiring more. Perhaps your perspective could grant me additional insight on the matter.

I am also here. Listening to the bird song. Isn't it captivating?

Awareness of anything is useful, which is why I point out: Health results in accord with one's attunement to their higher being. Eating a lighter diet can naturally follow that tide. I have found that forcing this issue can create entrenchment within lower resonance. Where are we to judge when food is not even needed by a consciousness of an even higher subtlety? Does such an entity even need to chop a tree? The solution has never left the sun.

You can overcome anything.