TRzed

I was watching the “ego backlash” video when I started wondering about what part of us that wants to achieve the higher levels of consciousness. Personally, I’ve wanted to do personal growth work since I was in my early teens, and much of my desire came from whatching actualized. I’ve also had some rough backlashes lately, which made me stop completely with wanting to dig deeper into my conscious level. As I just started to come into the topic again, I began also to wonder how come we choose this pattern, why is it important? It seems obvious, but somehow I cannot think of an answer without it being for a better understanding of myself and others, which also makes me think if this is an illusion. As Leo have talked about how the mind tricks us, how do one knows that self actualization and conscious work isn’t just tricks of our minds as well?

@cetus56 I’ve stopped believing in truth and seeking for it. I’m only very fascinated with the mind and thoughts. But I’ll definitely try to practice more

@cetus56 never I believe. Do you mean through meditation?

@cetus56 what do you mean? I’ve looked outside my mind throughout the perspectives of others, but it’s still all in my mind, making reason out of the knowledge of others

So if it’s involuntary, why is it not natural for us to have it? Why do we backlash so much and why is it that only a few have the goal to become self actualized?