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This is my first post. Hey guys! I consider myself a simple man. I don't have the drive to do all the things that Leo does or advises us to do, but still want to be on the spiritual path. To stop suffering, and to find happiness that is unconditioned. EVEN THOUGH, to be optimistic, my "blind spots" in life could be easily pinpointed and solved through therapy or trustworthy counsel, what's the point? GET THIS: I feel bad for not having a girlfriend. I get a girlfriend. She cheats on me. I am financially stable but tomorrow I'm not anymore. My point is, life has got a myriad of ways through which she can f**k us hard. Should I wait for my grandfather to die (whom I love so much), and feel that grief and existential questioning to turn to spirituality again? It feels like wasting time. So I start now! I feel like the Real Real Stuff that's going on shouldn't be too hard and time consuming. Is it enough to just acknowledge objects (feelings, thoughts, the best and worst of them) and stay as the awareness of them? It looks like to be some sort of common ground through all the teachings I've seen. Isn't this already self-inquiry? Isn't this already Sadhana? Is more practice needed? Do I need to sit zazen every morning? I'm partly drawing from Mooji's stance to stick with the simple stuff. And what does he teach? Advaita. He descended from Papaji and Ramana Maharshi himself. This s**t has to be real. Let me know your thoughts on this, and if you need help too, be sure to ask and I'll provide what I can. Thank you, thank you.

I got so many great replies on this thread and wasn't expecting much. This makes me feel a little more secure in my endeavors. No one talks about this stuff in the coffee shop, you know. @Nahm I'll actually hang the damn quote on my wall! Let's see if I get a good laugh. I am alone, then I think that happiness is just out there in a relationship. The problem is that both states have their pros and cons. So the answer to it mustn't be here. So I turn to spirituality. @AlwaysBeNice I'll definitely try the meditation thing before bed. Yeah, I have the time, I try and integrate the practices during my day. @Breathe Thank you. @WelcometoReality The ride is not pleasant all the time... I wanna find a way to cope with existential suffering.

@WelcometoReality That's exactly how I feel about it. I'm interested in learning japanese, studying law, playing the guitar, playing games etc. Spirituality is a theme I'm only into -- of course, it is a marvelous subject -- because of "enlightenment". The possibility of an end goal to this. I don't wanna be like Leo, dedicate my whole life to these different approaches and methods and searches and inquiries about this stuff. I wanna be a lawyer, god damnit Let me just come along, do the work, and come out enlightened to get on with my life (not "my life", but you get what I mean). There's no way we're all after enlightenment becoming homeless awakened beings, right?

@NoSelfSelf I have financial stability. I have some interests that I work super hard on. Not having a girlfriend is one of the problems in my life. Solving this will give rise to yet another problem. There is no superior status between being alone or in a relationship. Right now, the pain of being alone outweighs the pain of the relationship's adventure: you need to adapt to the other person, you'll fight eventually, you have to show up everyday, and things will likely end up bad (you break up; you hurt each other). This propels me towards a deeper seeing in life. However, Leo's stuff is too theoretical. I'm more of a practical guy.

@cetus56 I don't actually understand this atm, but will get to it eventually I guess. @Shin Nice, will do. @AstralProjection I wouldn't want anything to do with psychedelics atm, but will look into astral projection

@Shin What does it mean to be conscious? Is being aware of my own breath enough? @AstralProjection Awh damn dude don't say that

@Dumb Enlightened I love this video. Thank you so much! @Shin I am hellbent on doing this stuff. I just don't feel like I have the energy to tackle ALL that Leo does. I mean, I've been looking at the Turquoise thread and damn, there's every teacher I've heard from and beyond listed there. I just want to find one thing and stick to it.