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LOEE??? I made a game engine from scratch in C++ 15 years ago, i wrote ray tracing shaders and did all the quaternion math 💪 The Reason I said slay the spire can be built is because: it won't have a physics engine. Basically the whole game is one big UI 1 gameplay page (combat). That consists of a couple of characters and 2d animation that have easy to map fixed movements. It's offline and solo single player. It can be built entirely with browser tech outside of game engine complexity. Platform to launch: web + mobile + steam, within a simple browser game architecture.
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integral started following Devlog - Legend of the Abyss
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Im building a game fully with AI right now, but the scope is realistic inside the limitations of AI. A game like slay the spire can be done with AI right now if you know what your doing. Im also from montreal
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LMAO one might or might not of merged my profile pic with the most important wizard beard ever grown.
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integral started following I broke up
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It was a good decision, There are certain standards that you should hold yourself to when picking up partner and you should think of them as partners and not someone that's going to give you love. These are very different things A partnership is when two people support each other to build a life together, that involves much more than just receiving love and feeling loved. If you seek the emotion of love blindly you're not going to get the love you truly want
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Okay so that's a definitely a different dynamic. It sounds like they were trying to control you and warp you into what they want to do to be. Were you in the provider role?
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Ah that makes perfect sense, I couldn't understand why no reason works, even when it's like 2 + 2 = 4 the answer is just wrong. The emotion makes it so they have to be right or they rather die. And anything that keeps them right is true. Oh I 100% believe it, I've had knives thrown at me and slapped with absolutely no warning at all lmao Getting slapped out of nowhere without any communication or you not realizing her emotions changed because nothing happened and there's nothing happening. FLMAO so true. As a inappropriate side topic, BPDs tend to be really good in bed. Because they 100% lose themselves in the experience
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wow i had no idea haha, what is the mindset when you know you're lying but the emotion is strong like you're about to die? lmfao
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I think that there's something deeper here that might not be related to the relationships that you had later in life. I grew up in a very healthy family with integrity and receiving kindness was clear when it's done in good faith or not. It's easy to tell. It's possible you had a blind spot here. When someone gives me love I think "i am already full, i dont need more", and I have a sense of obligation to thank them and to give reciprocation and it's always a bit of a drag even though I understand where they're coming from. I'd rather give to them and not have them give to me. I'm here to give. "I don't need what you have nor do you understand what I need." is what they dont understand. Love has to be tailored to the persons needs and very few people understand me to do that, ___ With my first BPD relationship, I was blindsided by not realizing that they were lying with emotional tantrums, and I took all of these tantrums very seriously, and in the end they lied and cheated and did everything imaginable while requiring my 100% commitment and involvement in every single emotion, where every time they had an emotion, it was my full responsibility and problem. I did everything imaginable to help this person and immediately dropped everything to help them whenever they needed me. I still remember all of the lies that were uncovered at the end of the relationship and it blew my mind because I was completely convinced. And I'm not a naïve person. I'm naturally very sceptical of everything people say yet I believed everything that she said. She was so good at lying, people CANNOT imagine, and it was all masked with extremely strong emotions, her emotions were all part of a lie she was telling, but they were genuine emotions and so I couldn't differentiate and I couldn't see the lie. Then I dated a second BPD a while later while fully integrating the first experience, i handled it more like a caregiver would, like a parent with a child. I provided the self-development and healing that I did with the first one but without being sucked in to the corruption of the child. ___ sorry for the long reply, I wanted to show the differences between how we might have experienced our BPDs LOL Is this experience similar to yours? Or were you in a different role play scenario?
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I thought about it more what you could do is ASMR to practice that voice, but also push it to social media and then you could start a business that way. So you could turn practice into a business
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@Michal__ nice apps man! now all you got to do is get an audiance. I think the first one has potential for businesses. I also wanted to make a business focussed product but because I'm so disconnected from that business world I can't really come up with good ideas or I know I won't be able to polish it properly
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I was so corrupt, but now i see the love I put what you wrote into a map ahah, maybe ill make a actualized.org AI that will map out our conversations and extract the insights. This was always one of my dreams to reinvent conversation from back and forward text to a map building system, were we collaborate to build a map instead of taking past each other. Then there could be a library of ideas we all gather and build that can carry over to other conversations automatically.
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integral replied to Consilience's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Razard86 cults don't take epistemology seriously, they don't talk about it, it's not part of their vocabulary -
You guys are right I changed my mind. If you look at Trump and how he uses emotional manipulation and empathy and all these emotional tactics to Rally up voters and sway the direction of the conversations through chaos, it is exactly what I've observed in most women I interact with. It's the same bullshit to build machine.
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@Xonas Pitfall @Natasha Tori Maru it's true both men and women do this and it's definitely related to maturity or how conscious you are and self-aware. These are not equal at all, committing violence is not the same as creating an empathy social network to benefit yourself and women are more likely to do this than men. If a woman or a man commit some violence, they're ostracized, this is not at all what I'm talking about, it benefits no one Men are not creating empathy social network networks to the same degree women are, you guys gotta stop flattening this. The way men build social networks is by doing favours for other men, positioning themselves in a position of status and to be a trust worthy person for many things. They're climbing the ladder in a completely different way. Not the same thing because no one is coming to rush over to help a man. A man cannot cry for empathy, he gets punched in the face. Nothing I said, has anything to do with ideology and people ganging up on other people and cultures forming inside subcultures.
