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lol wait what do you mean? Do you want a good topic of discussion?

Alright guys calm down its getting out of hand. No personal attacks.

That makes alot of sense, so with low self-esteem people are more inclined to believe the ego must die and thats spiritual bypassing that avoids self-developing and living with the ego.

Its possible yes you are sensitive but her 4-5g could of been weak. This is the issue with growing psychedelics is you dont know the potency and if you get it wrong and you take 5g of a very strong batch you going to have a insane experience.

Thats a good point, yes so they basically dont care about the complaint and think its not a big deal and think your complaining is unjustified and annoying.

I think then what your trying to say is in a relationship its beneficial for woman to play a feminine role and for men to play a masculine role. But your using the word "prize" to describe a relationship dynamic and it makes no sense.

The man seeing the woman as the prize in a relationship causes insecurity that she will leave him as well as he will go the extra mile to please her and make her life comfortable in every way he can, this always backfires. In the long term she will loss sexual attraction to him. Also people take everything for granted, so to her your good deeds go with out reward long term. Woman and men want a healthy partner who is there co-creator in life where both there masculine and feminine qualities come together in synergy. Its only good at showing the primary drive (youth, finances, status) and is blind to secondary drive (compatibility, interests, maturity...). Making it toxic as a incomplete ideology.

Well your definitely going into Redpill territory. Its not making much sense anymore.

lol ye there is definitely a miscommunication between the sexs. But @Princess Arabia is pretty openminded and learns fast, Its just really hard to communicate across sexs so we need a different approach that is not focused on triggering the other side with our worldviews lol.

+1 its ridiculous and true, when nothing has really changed, she just feels differently. ?‍♀️

I am absolutely certain im the prize and that mindset is what gets girls. What your saying is the opposite of what couches teach men. Believing that I have no value is a really bad mindset. I could be homeless and be 100% sure im the prize. ? There is a conflation happening that if you think your the prize then your a asshole basicly that doesnt threat women right. Thats not what the mindset it about, being mature and loving is a separate line of development that co-exists with having the mindset that "I am the prize". Both men and women should think they are valuable that's healthy way to go about it. When i was younger i didn't think my gf was not valuable, I just felt really good about myself(and always will) and i thought she was beautiful to and loved her. It wasnt a arrogance kind of out of balance value dynamic.

What do you mean by this? Do the tattoos bother you?

I agree, another note is I care deeply about every person I come into contact with but I also genuinely don't like talking to them. It has nothing to do with lack of empathy or lack of interest in them, its not about not liking them, its about not liking these socially conditioned game that everyone is playing. Id rather they say "HEY STRANGER! lets race to the end of the street! Then will take our shirts off and wrestle in the mud for 3 hours", i would drop my life for that moment and run like the wind into the sunset with them. The basic social game is extremely boring, lifeless, devoid of meaningful connection. Like i go to the park to walk the dog then i practice slackline, backflips and handstand, then people want to come talk to me and complain about there life in the middle of my activity? There is a stiff lack of diversity in human interaction. I want them to join me, follow my lead! don't talk to me.

I used to care then realized I'm not going to live my life by the opinions of others and when I new people are assessing someone I'm with I just see how lost in conditioning they are. The other day i introduced by gf to my larger family and can see there "standards" are based on not understanding the struggle of finding someone with REAL compatibility with you. It doesnt matter what her job is, or her looks or her social skills, its really hard to find someone compatible with me, so of course she will not meet some stupid standard.

I would literally think the opposite growing up, when I was walking around with a gf I thought "everyone must think shes lucky to be with me as im so good looking, smart and desirable". ?

Exactly people that say "they can do wtv they want" have a conflicting relationship with the world constantly trying to suppress there behavior. Probably starting from childhood with parents, then school then work, they never got over that phase of there development. If it was illegal they would not say "they can do wtv they want", they say it because they experience a direct personal attack with your behavior from there trauma. They hate when people try to control them, there entire life struggle is that. So the response "they can do wtv they want in there house" is them expressing how much they hate when people try to control them or others. But of course its a double-standard as when something infringes on there wants/needs/rights they go fucking crazy but lack the balance and empathy to understand others.

Games that require alot of concentration and focus like ones where you have to react quickly cause a habit of holding breath and adrenaline response. Its very difficult to relax and not be worried about results. Any tips for this to retrain this habit?

@Princess Arabia I think the soap killed him.

Well first you start out with a bunch of assumption made by observing things with your "senses", from there you connect does assuptions togetter to make more complex assuptions, everytime an assuption is created (or thought about) a feeling called understanding is experienced. So understanding is a feeling. The process of understanding is the act of clarifing or removing the fog of or interconnecting assuptions until it suits a paradigm known as reason. Reason is a algorithm that builds models of reality that is easily co-opted by egoic survival. Where does it come from? It could be in response to a need to change a feeling into the feeling of understanding. ? Understanding is the egos first coping mechanism.

lolol I know right? They enjoy the rando talks so they want others to do so to. On the walk in the park everyone is talking to everyone its like a community of talkers out there loving life, but im not outside to talk thats the least enjoyable part of my life.

Covert narcissist

That gave me anxiety watching it, flash backed to an experienced I had taking a micro of 5-meo-malt and that I still have to keep taking this stuff to make progress. Its a pain lmao Not sure how that guy was able to stay lying down.

@undeather It makes sense, lets see his results. I went into a phase where I was obsessed with testing my blood sugar after eating or when feeling bad after eating and it was always normal, nothing crazy. Then I gave up on that and focused on other things to try to figure things out.

I dont feel comfortable. I feel like im forced to be entertaining because its social expected of me and the act is fake and very tiring. When i want to talk to someone its not a problem, when Im walking my dog and someone randomly needs to talk to me because everyone does for some reason i really feel uncomfortable and dont want to talk to them, its also feels fake to bring up any subject im not interested in (small talk) and the subjects I am interested in would blow there minds so its better not to try lolol The first thing that pops into my head during a conversation is the last thing I should ever say outload lmao