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@Osaid Before or after enlightenment there is pain just like there is social anxiety, everything is still arising. All attributes of the experience are the same except its not identified with so its not negative or positive, but it is still happening. You can cry over your mothers death and be enlightened at the same time, because the ego does not disappear. A disappearing ego is a spiritual ego that is Recontextualizing all its experiences. The end result is you get robots like non-dual zombies lol Are you going to cry when your mother dies or are you to enlightened now?

??Welcome back to the ego

Ah Thank you for that explanation, it seems like I just need more practice.

+1 I think its possible to still have thoughts connected to this experience and have it weight you down while not identifying with it conceptually but your identifying with it experientially. With sickness of the body, negative attributes come with it that are not within ones control to experience. So what your referencing to as enlightenment is a state your experiencing that is non-identifying with what is arising, but enlightenment is not a specific state of being because states of being are constantly changing. Doe the non-resistance state your experiencing is ideal. What does the ego want? a fixed ideal state of being... lol Realization vs having a integrated experience of does realizations might be different. 100% of the time when someone says "I became enlightened" they are talking about a new state they are experiencing. But arent all states enlightenment, just some states are more enlightened then others? lmao Also i think its possible to have realizations with out experiencing the integrated state of it. --- So your saying is Leo sober state is not enlightened, but hes is enlightened conceptually. Not everyone has a healthy body that allows for a ideal sober state that walks on air. But maybe thats the key to curing Leos health issues, sober non-resistance.

Not a single one lol

I just sent you a video of a guy in a wheel chair that cant move his arms and legs dating a attractive woman. Its not necessary to be that good, even people with natural tallent will fail alot doing cold approuchs. Its not a garantee. Also all the people you mentioned worked incredibly hard 10x beyond what normal people can dream of. Woman are emotional and respond strongly to how YOU feel about your self. When you feel good it radiates out to everyting you do.

I agree with your music preference.

I dont exist in the reality your talking about, this is a red pill reality that struggling men make up to justify there unhappyness and stay stuck in there unhappyness, depression can be an addiction for some. If i switched places in your body I could get a girl by next week. Go do it and stop trying get other poeple to agree with you, to make you feel better. The only thing that will make you feel better is RESULTS. Summon your masculine energy and conquer this world.

I guess i grew up in the 90s.

God Yes

Completly wrong, forget you understand anything, wtv your saying we have all heard 100x times by every incel that comes here and they all get there shit together in the end when they apply themselves.

This is a self-development forum among other things, your mindset is not in the spirit of this place. Get to work.

YEs same, I took a THC extract of purplehush and was brutally kicked around for hours at some point I had a childhood memory of the first time I discovered the world, Memory: I was looking at a door as a 2-3 year old child and thought "a door is something that separates 2 rooms" and I remember being mind blown by that insight as a infant! lmao The hallucinations are random and noisy and forced, so there is no control of anything, its like a incoherant dream changing constantly to something else rapidly.

Thats the way. Rapport builds itself naturally but you do need to be relaxed and flowing as your authentic self thats where the mindset shift of connection is important because your not putting so much pressure on yourself to get a magic result, your not thinking about the result your instead present connecting with someone. @Hardkill "No, Neo. I'm trying to tell you that when you're ready, you won't have to" -Morpheus When your ready you will connect with everyone you come into contact with. Thats the skill your building, you attract everyone towards you because you energy is positive + mature and people love being around you, people love talking to you, you give people a platform to be heard, they feel like they can express there true themselves around you. When connection is the focus you become a magnet that hurls people towards you.

Seriously?! Thats amazing!

Its a fantastic Idea, if we can get a good simulation going where ChatGPT can also produce negative responses, then it can be used as a practice simulation for social skills. Was thinking of making a app that listens to your live conversations and gives small talk suggestions vai headphones. A introverts dream.

Its like your looking for a guy who has trauma and is potentially a narcissist. I feel like your thinking with your sexual fantasies (dick)... and not with your best interests at heart, like a life partner.

Its also that they need alot of practice as they are highly socially unaware. So for them its a numbers game. For people that already developed good intuition for connection they dont need numbers, they can connect with people pretty easily.

@Adrian colby I have a very similar life experience where at the age of 21 I smoked weed for the first time and experience debilitating headaches that lasted 10 years right after. People told me I was crazy, "weed is safe it cant do that". I then spent that time learning engineering in school and got a good job all with major daily headaches (I had no choice but to push through it). The best guess is it can cause a micro stroke for some people on there first time smoking it, got unlucky. It took a long while before I was able to re-learn how to relax the mind/body and the headaches went away, im guessing the brain had to rewire itself to a new way of working and it took a very long time to do that as I was stuck in one way of thinking/(using the brain). I cant fully relate to this but i do have a sexuality that Im very balanced in both feminine and masculine energy, and can invent what i am attracted to when i want to be attracted to it. So if i wanted to be turned on i just turn my self on with my mind. So there is no fixed preference, i can perceive anything to be attractive with enough imagination. How this might relate to you or to anyone is attraction is a fluid concept that can be focused its energy on anything you set your mind to. The limiting factors are judgment, if your free from judgment then you can open up your attraction to it. So yes im making the claim that a hetero sexual males are programmed young to have inner judgments that are tied to there identity preventing attraction to men. They also dont have any idea how to focus there attraction.

I had a gf that was the same way, would cry and even have panic attacks if the sex became to intense. Its going to be related to unresolved trauma surfacing. Its possible to try having sex with psychedelics to heal sexual trauma. Ive had alot of success with my current gf.

Found it LMFAO

Its not your fault pumpkin, you didn't know any better.

I dont have anything I regret, I already forgave myself and understand the choices I have made.

LOL we had a big discussion about the ethics of doing that a few years ago. Pets probably want to have sex with us. lol

Yes me to its causes a similar thinking pattern that does not work well for my body. The experience I get is like opening 10 YouTube videos and listening to all of them at the same time, everything gets noise and its hard to exist.