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200 μg 1p-LSD, Fasted 1 Day I don't recommend this as B12 shots can cause anxiety, I only tried this because I felt confident. This is the highest LSD dose I have tried so far and during the come up I was feeling cold and slight shivering. I recognized this as something that will pass as I understand this feeling is my bodies inability to relax at the current moment and it will heat up again when I calm down. Then I realized that this B12 Spray that I've been experimenting with makes my whole body very hot minutes after taking it. So instead of allowing my body to naturally calm down and warm up I decided to try that. Immediately the body become very hot and generated heat and I was hit with a intense dizzy room is melting kind of feeling. I decided to go to the bed room and sit with it in the dark and the experience was that of i become aware and in control of the ability to enter in and out of waking state. I'm sure this is common I'm a newb. Basically Ill fall into a sleeping trance then focus awareness back "externally" and ill be awake again then focus or let go and go back asleep. It was fun playing around with this line. At some point I noticed something vibrating and focused on that, I was trying to figure out where this sound and vibration was coming from and it realized it was coming from inside the body and it was my central nerves system. So I focused on my central nervous system and put my awareness on my entire body, the vibration 100x increased to the point it felt like my arms where shaking violently, So I looked at my hand and it was not moving at all but there was a very strong vibration coming from it and my entire body. So I had the idea this was the energy body. At this point I felt basically sober and present in the environment and it was as if i took all my mental energy and put it "externally" to the body. Playing around in that vibration state was fun, I remembered a video of prana energy healing and tried to see if i could feel my gf energy with this new vibration hand lol. I felt nothing at all coming from her but ill need to try again and experiment more. Basicly my body and hand that was touching her was vibrating and making a sound like a jet plan but she felt nothing and I could not feel anything coming from her. Ill need to imagine more intensely next time. I had many thoughts and insights during the trip but I'm more interested in this vibration and audio vibration that came with it. Does anyone know what this vibration is? In a sober state I can focus on my central nervous system to the point it hurts and could never understand why focusing on it hurt so much? I'm guessing part of the reason I'm disconnected with my body is because my body hurts, any part of it if I focus in is unpleasant and painful. Every cell in this body hurts. Now sober if I focus on the central nervous system its of course is very unpleasant but also I can feel the vibration, every nerve in the body is vibrating like this all the time. This trip was alot harder then the last ones, I didnt eat that day and the B12 shoot stimulant was added. Overall I think it would of been better for my body if i was not fasted and ate a vegan meal 4 hours before the trip. It feels better and is a easier experience. This trip was overall good but somehow more painful and i think the b12 played a role. Im hoping a higher dose does not = more pain. --- Bonus: In the bed room I had sweated out a lot of water as the body was on fire the entire time. Turns out my dog was also in that hot sweaty sealed room for that 3 hours and she got soooo high lmao. Took her for a walk and it was a whole new world for her.

No I space out each trip by 2-4 weeks so everything in integrated and biologically reset to baseline.

Thanks guys for the feedback, going to report back when I have more experience.

No on at the moment besides Leos new video releases. At some point we need to stop theory and practice it. So im working on trips and experiencing new states.

I'm not getting what is the big deal, for everything to be me and created by me, hand crafter every detail would not surprise me in the slightest. If this is all awakening is its child play. What you guys are doing here is learning how to walk for the first time and being shocked by it. This is the beginning but also the end of the old framing. Its because its happening against your will, so its with out the egos consent. Maybe this is the the differentiating factor for why some people cant handle the truth and others can. Some people ground themselves in reality being a specific way, in away thats comfortable for them. If your mind is comfortable with the ungrounded then tripping is for you, if not don't trip. Some people have no business taking psychedelics and we have no protocol to identify good candidates and no education to help be assess if tripping is right for them.

Get a Girl Friend. Thats how you deal with it.

Teal Swan and Sadhguru are all doing well with 60 second clips on YouTube. Personally I don't like waisting time with clips, I like 3 to 9 hour videos.

Unconditional Love is a function of ones capacity to understand something impartially. It is not a like or disliking button.

Im starting to think all these men hyper focusing on getting these hot girls are a result of not having a sister growing up and missing healthy social interactions with females. So when there older they literally cannot talk to a woman like there people, instead they view them as a mystical "Hot" creatures they need to "game".

Did you ask her out yet?

lmao well you can shit on the grass and pick it up with a doggy bag, or shit directly in the doggy bag and throw it out in a local garbage bin. Can also get a gym membership and use there facilities for washing ++.

How long have you been taking Ashwangandha for sleep? Where you also taking it while pregnant and breast feeding?

Anyone have experience with it? The above stimulates the never in the chest, there are others that use the ear or neck.

Its good framing. If it allows you to maintain the frame then its useful. Its very easy to default to ego land when using "I" language.

I know within 5 minutes if I like them or not and if she likes me back. Feel the tension of attraction.

Im starting to see this alot in marriages where the husband start to get a bit of Erectile disfunction or generally underperforms. As woman age they can become hornier and want to fully explore there sexuality before there candle burns out so to speak and becomes frustrated with a husband that ignores her advancements and basically does not satisfy her properly, she ends up cheating in secret while the husband continues to pay the bills. Its a common pattern is there any advice one can give to the men in these situation to get there head out of there ass before there woman starts cheating or for woman to learn to properly communicate the seriousness of the situation? I feel like if the wife made it very clear to him she will resort to cheating if he does not get his shit together he will wake up and get the job done. But she fears he will leave them (and stop paying the bills) so they instead cheat in secret. Men, women will leave you if they are not sexual satisfied. Don't fool yourself into a false sense of comfort. Understand what her needs are. If they are not met they will not stick around.

Stage green and higher are less likely to get married. Traditions die.

She is a normal woman (with baggage)... who likes you... what is so complicated, are you going to go for it or not?

@undeather Thanks for the help! Will take another blood test in 1-3 months. ?

Does this cover everything, what tests do you recommend?

Well he is taking: HGH .6mg, 5x wk Testosterone 2mg patch 6x weekly Not sure how much this is but doesn't testosterone injection cause muscle growth? Its not exactly "progress" to gain muscle when taking testosterone. Sure we can view it as an improvement but im thinking about this as if hes either taking more testosterone then his body can naturally produce or his body is struggling to produces testosterone so there is a underling problem that is not resolved that he masked with this patch. If we look at people who abuse HGH and testosterone like body builders they die early from enlarged hearts and other complications. Short term acute feed back tells you to stop taking it. B12 supplementation causes over stimulation, that you can feel immediately, it raises the stress burden on the body. Taking it every day for years just adds stress to the system for years that leads to burn in out in the worse case, when complications happen no one links it back to the supplement or medication. Long term effects of treatment is the least understood thing there is. People that can tollerate taking it everyday are healthy, there body can handle the burden so they missed or did not take the time to understand how the substance is effecting them. I understand this perspective and i view it as a over estimating the development of this field. The brightest minds, the innovators, visionaries and creative types arent attracted to the health industry. It attracts a specific type of person who is systemic in there thinking not synergistic. We need engineers not technicians. A doctor is a glorified technician. Everything ingested has a specific effect on the body and mind. Its all psychoactive in a sense indirectly. If I where to ingest something blind I would know what it was based on how it made me feel. Every supplement, medication and food has a specific feeling when ingested. They also have secondary feelings that happen when its absorbed a second type deeper in the digestion system sometimes that happens at night causing disturbances. Im sure you fully understand all this im just explaining how when i eat chocolate for example there is a secondary absorption that i noticed that happends later on that causes a unhealth stimulation at the wrong time of the day like at night. I have no outside source for this knowledge, im not repeating what i saw in a youtube video, i learned this from tracking what I eat and observing my body. If I eat a tomato I get "tomato" high or enter a tomato state, its like mixing colors together in a cup and observing the new color combination. The effects of most supplements are major not minor, B12, vitamin C, omega 3 hit like a tone of bricks and all have a completely different effect, maybe im more sensitive but im guessing its more likely that im paying close attention. Are you saying taking a supplement and feeling bad does not mean its bad for you? That you should keep taking it because its good for you even if you feel bad?

The Call (2020 South Korean film), Fantastic Time Travel Movie

Share some of movies you loved, had great direction, acting, story, creative, was memorable, had good pacing and attention + thought was put into every scene. No big budget copy past 0 originality Movies. Original and Genius only. Just saw these, really loved them.

Interesting is there any applications for this vibration? Does it "do" anything? When changing frequency is it permanent? Is it similar to prana/energy healing, does it all related together? ? This last trip changed my base consciousness, I don't believe its related to the vibration but It made me more body and peripheral vision aware, more in a defuse state at all times. @ValiantSalvatore haha thanks for the feed back, cool synchronicity. Very interesting, how has the clearance changed you, there was a release of pain and you no longer feel it? I feel like ive had a similar releases with this trip but i cant pin point it to a specific chakra, its more a general body relaxation and mind stillness. All the nerves in the body. When body scanning the part of the body awareness is put on becomes more intense and you feel more. If i focus and concentrate harder on that spot it begins to hurt and feels painful. On the trip the vibration state i could sense that my nerves where vibrating slightly similar and when i focused in on that feeling it become 100x stronger then spread to the entire body. I became a massive vibrator lol. Moving my hand around swinging in the air back and forward felt like i was caring a heavy weight, like the density of the "air" was thicker then water, like swimming in lava. The perfect analogy would be a massage gun, the hand vibrates when using it, now imagine moving that massage gun around in the air there would be a vibrating resistance and heaviness. Now make the entire body vibrate like that. No need to respond, keep up the practice. ?

Sobar now if i medidate on the central nervous system, feeling the vibration, if i try to "force" it by concentrating harder it just gets more and more painful and the full body vibration state does not come back. Maybe there is a way to access that state if i really force it with intense concentration?