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What do you mean by this? Do the tattoos bother you?

I agree, another note is I care deeply about every person I come into contact with but I also genuinely don't like talking to them. It has nothing to do with lack of empathy or lack of interest in them, its not about not liking them, its about not liking these socially conditioned game that everyone is playing. Id rather they say "HEY STRANGER! lets race to the end of the street! Then will take our shirts off and wrestle in the mud for 3 hours", i would drop my life for that moment and run like the wind into the sunset with them. The basic social game is extremely boring, lifeless, devoid of meaningful connection. Like i go to the park to walk the dog then i practice slackline, backflips and handstand, then people want to come talk to me and complain about there life in the middle of my activity? There is a stiff lack of diversity in human interaction. I want them to join me, follow my lead! don't talk to me.

I used to care then realized I'm not going to live my life by the opinions of others and when I new people are assessing someone I'm with I just see how lost in conditioning they are. The other day i introduced by gf to my larger family and can see there "standards" are based on not understanding the struggle of finding someone with REAL compatibility with you. It doesnt matter what her job is, or her looks or her social skills, its really hard to find someone compatible with me, so of course she will not meet some stupid standard.

I would literally think the opposite growing up, when I was walking around with a gf I thought "everyone must think shes lucky to be with me as im so good looking, smart and desirable". ?

Exactly people that say "they can do wtv they want" have a conflicting relationship with the world constantly trying to suppress there behavior. Probably starting from childhood with parents, then school then work, they never got over that phase of there development. If it was illegal they would not say "they can do wtv they want", they say it because they experience a direct personal attack with your behavior from there trauma. They hate when people try to control them, there entire life struggle is that. So the response "they can do wtv they want in there house" is them expressing how much they hate when people try to control them or others. But of course its a double-standard as when something infringes on there wants/needs/rights they go fucking crazy but lack the balance and empathy to understand others.

Games that require alot of concentration and focus like ones where you have to react quickly cause a habit of holding breath and adrenaline response. Its very difficult to relax and not be worried about results. Any tips for this to retrain this habit?

@Princess Arabia I think the soap killed him.

Well first you start out with a bunch of assumption made by observing things with your "senses", from there you connect does assuptions togetter to make more complex assuptions, everytime an assuption is created (or thought about) a feeling called understanding is experienced. So understanding is a feeling. The process of understanding is the act of clarifing or removing the fog of or interconnecting assuptions until it suits a paradigm known as reason. Reason is a algorithm that builds models of reality that is easily co-opted by egoic survival. Where does it come from? It could be in response to a need to change a feeling into the feeling of understanding. ? Understanding is the egos first coping mechanism.

lolol I know right? They enjoy the rando talks so they want others to do so to. On the walk in the park everyone is talking to everyone its like a community of talkers out there loving life, but im not outside to talk thats the least enjoyable part of my life.

Covert narcissist

That gave me anxiety watching it, flash backed to an experienced I had taking a micro of 5-meo-malt and that I still have to keep taking this stuff to make progress. Its a pain lmao Not sure how that guy was able to stay lying down.

@undeather It makes sense, lets see his results. I went into a phase where I was obsessed with testing my blood sugar after eating or when feeling bad after eating and it was always normal, nothing crazy. Then I gave up on that and focused on other things to try to figure things out.

I dont feel comfortable. I feel like im forced to be entertaining because its social expected of me and the act is fake and very tiring. When i want to talk to someone its not a problem, when Im walking my dog and someone randomly needs to talk to me because everyone does for some reason i really feel uncomfortable and dont want to talk to them, its also feels fake to bring up any subject im not interested in (small talk) and the subjects I am interested in would blow there minds so its better not to try lolol The first thing that pops into my head during a conversation is the last thing I should ever say outload lmao

I think there is a away to improve digestion if the oatmeal is mixed maybe with apples? Not sure what the best mix is, but it makes it easier to digest preventing the stress response. Maybe something in the oatmeal is being broken down by the apple enzymes i have no idea lol

I think what's happening is the insoluble fibre and how shows up in oat meal apposed to other foods creates a substance/texture that makes it hard to digest. Maybe it has nothing to do with fibre just the oat meal is difficult of the body to breakdown spiking stress levels. It also strange to think that his glucose is a problem when other foods dont trigger the same problem for him only oatmeal. Im speaking from experience with oatmeal my entire life, it creates stress when digesting and I absolutely never had glucose problems. Unless oatmeal has a unique effect on blood glucose that most high sugar foods dont.

I think its the insoluble fibre causing issues, same thing happens to me even when i was very young and healthy.

Isnt there a black whole in the middle of a galaxy and as it gets older it gets smaller?

Redpill over generalization, everyone is really immature, I see it everywhere, most of my friends when they get gf, the gf is at the same level of development as them and that's the only way it can be. Women that fit some red pill stereotype date men who are equally as immature as her.

"The experience you're describing could potentially be related to a few psychological concepts. One possibility is "Depersonalization" or "Derealization," which are dissociative experiences where a person feels detached from themselves or their surroundings, sometimes leading to a sense that people or things around them seem unreal or robotic." ChatGPT Again is goes back to have a issues with disconnected feelings. @Holykael This guys has major Derealization

The origin of the feeling does not make a belief anymore true. But direct experience is a good starting point.

Conscious Politics to change the fucking world.

Have you validated any of this? No its just speculation, we can speculate all day about anything doesnt make any of it true. But what most people do is the strongly conflict how they feel about it with truth. It feels true, intuition feels right, gut tells me something, So. Its. True ... oooook then. Sure

@lostingenosmaze Well I cant tell its an AI, but thats expected as his character not saying anything deep, its mostly predictable kids sound byte kind of talking. Still impressive!

Free will is taking absolute concept and thinking it applies to the relative ego. It does not. Predeterminism does not apply to you. Its an assumption that you know what is going to happen next, i read before you said "i had 26 years of happiness now im experiencing 2 years of hell i guess i have another 24 years of this suffering to go". That's OBVIOUS negative emotional thinking, its a PURE assumption with no ground behind it.