SunnyNewDay

Met one person at a holotropic breathe work workshop who found out about it the same way I did, through Leo

It's part of the beauty and process of it. Part of awakening is feeling like you're going insane I think because I can relate to that lol.

I still don't understand. So what is proper healing then? What do we even mean when we say healing? Like physical healing?

agreed

I have this experience when I meditate and I start to dissolve and I start to feel things becoming mystical, all this dark stuff will pop up as sort of feeling or some other sense, not rally any of the typical 5 senses, and it's like a silent voice or "ideas" almost like insights but it's hard for me to tell because I don't have a ton of reference points. I'm not entirely familiar with this phenomena. I will have these waves of stuff like "my worst fears will come true. Or if i continue doing this meditation it's to prepare me for the worst" or other stuff and it feels "real" but it feels bad and scares me and sort of pulls me back down. Is this part of purifying? Goal should be not to be distracted by this stuff and continue to be the observer of the sensation in a calm and un reactive way? I have a feeling I just answered my own question.

is it possible to have a fulfilling and healthy relationship not based in at least a little fantasy or delusion? Can you still awaken while fulfilling your sexual/intimacy needs with stage green type relationships?

Being aware in the present moment and following your intimate imagination I'd say. That or actual intimate sex with someone you respect. No clue if fantasy is really part of this stage. I think it's more about reality that that point so actual conscious sex, not fantasy products.

I'll watch this one. Been taking a break from his content recently because it hasn't been as much a part of my puzzle.

Is it possible to do mdma assisted shadow/inner work on your own?

I thought this was already known that dmt is in human brains or is produced at times?

In hindu traditions they talk about karma and going up or down as well as past lives. If I have past lives and we are all one doesn't that mean they aren't my past lives but everyone's? Is there continuous experience from the same perspective through death and rebirth?

Hope it comes soon

I'm not doubting anything you've written and I know Dubai has a ton of unconscious darkness to it. I'm just saying I like the idea behind it. It could be propoganda but the general idea of light behind this one thing still shines through.

interesting perspective... I wonder what lessons and aspects are for me in this opposite domain.

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why let it bother you? you are free to take a different perspective and he is free not to engage with yours if he wishes. Leo is a human being just like all of us and that right there means for some of us a boundary of friction between our interactions. If it bothers you, change the channel, his posts aren't keeping you from having your own awakening or discoveries through your own direct experience.

It's not all just black and white. This is actually a very good idea and stuff like this... even with hardened criminals where they just get an opportunity to talk to someone about how they feel and are told they are loved and we worry for their safety I think would bring a ton of positive change to society.

Time to be the first to create one

yes, you most def can remove it. you said it yourself it's linked to stuff you experienced. you also are posting here so it means on some level you have a will to change this and some level of awareness that this is causing suffering for you which is motivating you to want to create change from this.

I have a sort of fear that comes over me and it's like a cow that's lived in a tiny cage it's whole life being placed in an infinite beautiful field.... I'm working gently melting into it and I know these feelings of fear will come up.

Past and future are just logistical concepts we use as human beings because we have this complex world we live in and we need to coordinate things. Do dogs think about time or past/future? No, they live in the present moment and have their feelings which guide them. It's just a concept we use for logistics stuffs that are a part of how creation functions. All that exists and ever existed was the present moment.

We need to work our way slowly out of the commercial system. Do we even need money or to be as reliant on it in a more advanced system? Nope not nearly as much. We can and will do this over time but I hope the future generations don't suffer as much as imagined said due to climate change but I also don't want to put my head in the sand. I think climate issues will be very humbling and make us more caring and less money driven.

Man, I've felt stuff this past month of absolute nightmare/insanity/hell/confusion and then acceptance which has made me start to wonder and realize I'm creating my anger/fear/pain and that blindly being angry and creating this stuff and that deny or following these thoughts doesn't put me in the direction I want to go which is a compassionate and loving, peaceful person. What I can say had worked for me is to not overthink it. You've made it four days without answers, control and peace from this. Just be as gentle with yourself as possible and try to experience it as much you can. Can be music in your environment, can be body sensations, can be gently following your breath. You can gently surrender and stay with your breathe and it will change. Experiences always change.

Man, I've felt stuff this past month of absolute nightmare/insanity/hell/confusion and then acceptance which has made me start to wonder and realize I'm creating my anger/fear/pain and that blindly being angry and creating this stuff and that deny or following these thoughts doesn't put me in the direction I want to go which is a compassionate and loving, peaceful person. What I can say had worked for me is to not overthink it. You've made it four days without answers, control and peace from this. Just be as gentle with yourself as possible and try to experience it as much you can. Can be music in your environment, can be body sensations, can be gently following your breath. You can gently surrender and stay with your breathe and it will change. Experiences always change.

I found being covered with blankets and lying on my back helps for me and the arm thing because it felt like I was able to contain the experience and not feel so crazy. The music/gentle noise helps me as well.