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Is there any Truth to what he is saying? Can someone with an 200 IQ be on a higher consciousness as others?? I know i still have fears about hell and i know if you believe it to be true you can manifest it or is this just New age bs? Do you have to have Gods attention or God know you to move on to higher demontion's or aka Heaven? Thanks

@Leo Gura @Leo Gura I agree but i have had some realisations and some weird experience by meditating, contemplating, having sone knowledge about spirtitual knowledge and just hearing something that clicks causing some experiences. Also, was doing some light work with an spiritual guru(i can feel his energy very strongly) but till i can find Psychedelics it's all i can do, for now... Thanks Leo!!

@Leo Gura Which of your videos will wake a person up the easiest for us ego conscious people. I have a very open mind and i do contemplate what i watch or read so please share a video that you think is the best to wake me up other than what is God part 1 and 2 cause i have watched them 3 times if not more bad i got a lot from it like it did make me realize somewhat who/what God is but what other video's will help?? I get it 75% intellectual, i think but i am open minded and i could just need the other 25% or less to at least have some sort of awakening. I don't have the connections to psychedelics where i live so i need the next best thing. I do meditate and do self inquiry so what is the next best thing or a video in your experience that will awaken me? Also, Have a good koan that might help me off your head cause i know here are a few on your site. Thank you Leo!!!

Hey, Doing ok, Whats up with you? I remember you too and thank you/ Trying my best to look after her(being human) andf then also trying being a spiritual being by just being the real me, the i am or pure consciousness of i exist. Thanks for reaching out and caring and that show's me your God like qualities so thank you and i will be more active to become more spiritually advanced...

He says that if God displeases you he won't look at you anymore and don't want to know you but if God is Love or even unconditional love, how can God be displeased by you or anything that you do?? How can God cut you off if you can't be separated from God and we all are one? If God is all Good and All Loving why will he do that and be upset/displeased at you?? Also, according to him then you still exist and what you are(evil)or how your mind thinks you will create a world/demontion or realm that is evil and that is what hell is full of what your mind is full of aka who you are. Could someone please help me understand?

@Javfly33 Not quite but a God Forum i think so

That's true but maybe one can find out if that is true and also getting opinions of others what they think. If you have a site like this you might get someone with an experiences or 2 that can help you relax that fear and also motivate you to get the answer for yourself but i get what you saying. thanks. I would just like maybe someone to send me on the right track how not to go to hell or purgatory or videos to watch that might help me with that.

Thanks man. I believe God exist with my whole heart and believe God is all the things Leo's said in his What is God part 1 and 2 episodes but i don't know if God know's me and i only know God, the real God not the one Christianity teaches us by what Leo said and what i have read before that from others that corresponds to that and BELIEVE THAT WITH MY WHOLE HEART but is it enough.. I so badly want to go full in on learning what God, Truth and Love is and know they are one and the same but i have a job that takes all my time and work overtime till late. Then i am too tired to meditate cause i fall asleep sleep. I need this job and can't afford to loose it cause i have to look after my mom. I suffer from severe social anxiety and phobia that i can't even talk to people for longer than 10 min but i can work with them not speaking to them so they just tolerate me. I am a 45 year old man that has nothing other than his mom and hobbies. I know i sound like i am playing the victim and maybe i am a little but i am not looking for sympathy but i can't look for another job cause it took long to get this one. I am broke so i need this job and my biggest wish i just want to meditate and do all the things to heal myself and not be in this survival state and ratrace and do the real work i know i can do if i just have time to do it which i feel like i am stuck in this matrix if you will. Time feels like my worse enemy atm. I just don't want to go to hell and know that so it's one less fear i have to worry about. I decided to try harder this/next year to start to meditate in the mornings 20 min again(use to meditate 45 min twice a day when i didn't have a job and got covid for 5 months and stopped) and try to be conscious of being conscious while working to becoming self liberated. Easier said than done but at least going to try and study and listen to more of Leo's stuff and contemplate it till i integrate it but lets hope work doesn't get into the way. Also, going to try to know thy self and see where that takes me. Thanks for listening to my rant if you read so far.

What do you guy's think of these experiences? Sounds like some trip reports of psychedelic trips and even the one he talks about you expand to infinity, he does not use that word but that is what it sounds like. Has anyone tried this? What is your fav and what did you experience?

@Schizophonia got it. Thanks

@Schizophonia How do i join? I am new to discord

I am watching everything about it on youtube. The thing is i can't find any psychedelics where i live and too scared to order them online so need something other than meditation to go deeper and maybe one day or one lifetime become enlightened.

@CARDOZZO That's the one. Looking for experiences and can one maybe become enlightened and if so could in speed up the process.

@Schizophonia May i join? Could you send me a link?

What is your addicted or in my case dependant on substances just to feel normal and i never even feel normal. How do i tell my story to even feel normal? Guess to tell yourself you can beat this dependancy one day. I know i will but it will take time.

A quote i read in Leo's blog: The God-Self is not found as a point inside your skull behind your eyes. The God-Self is your entire field of perception. Stop turning your attention inside your skull, rather, put your attention on the entire bubble that is your visual field. That is God! Stop looking for God inside your head or outside your visual field. What is meant by put your attention on the entire bubble that is your visual field like what bubble?

@Moksha i don't get it cause one can walk around a form like a car for instance so there def seems to be some boundary to me. Could you maybe explain more of what you mean? I might be missing something.

@Hojo Am i a spirit in the body and pretending to be a human right so it know's its a spirit and not human or does it need to wake up that it's not a human and a spirit? Also, if we are dreaming does the spirit know it's dreaming or is it dreaming that too? When you mean dreaming you mean like we do at night or day dreaming that it's a human and need to wake up it's a spirit? Sorry this is a little new to me...

Not sure what you mean. To not see form?

@Raze TY

Hi Before i tell the story by this point i am addicted to phenibut 3-4gpd but this is not a problem cause i don't get WD from it if i take it in 24 hours and i have a history of alcohol addiction which i quit at this stage a while ago. Got a very addictive personality but stayed away from other drugs at this moment. I don't want to be in the victim mentality and so i am not blaming people , circumstances or situations but that's how i am going to describe the story. I guess deep down i do blame them but i understand it's my ego and understand it by doing this it relieves the pain a bit and takes away my responsibility in being so stupid. So here goes. Got called by my uncle to come help him pick up his wife cause she fell on the ground and he can't get her up so i go and help her. I visit there a bit and i don't understand why she is so weak that she can't get up. Only to find out later that her son is sick and might have covid. She does look weak and a bit sick but not covid symptoms so i thought i might be safe. Anyway turns out they both had covid and i got covid the Monday. I am 43 so i feel i am young and healthy and i will make it without going to the hospital and that turns out to be wrong as the covid goes into my lungs and end up with Double pneumonia. I forgot to mention that i have severe anxiety/fear and severe social anxiety/phobia and a super nervous, shy and scared guy so i am panicking at this point. I stayed in a government hospital in South Africa is scary in the first place and i'm a white guy(not a racist at all cause of spirituality and we are all one) and there is prob 4 white people and every other person is are not. Black people hate us whites here in South Africa and for good reason and they live in poverty which i understand why they are so violent. At this point i am also so sick so i am okay and sleep most of the time so first 7 days in hospital hard cause i'm sick and scared i am going to die(fear i thought i transcended but apparently not) so i just take my prescribed 0.5mg Clonazepam(benzo's) everyday(skip a day or two here and there) instead of as needed for the rest of my 1 and a half month stay there. The covid ward was not that bad but when they send me to the ward were people that had covid that had heal was the worst Thats when i needed to take 0.5mg Clonazepam twice a day cause my nervous were up with the patients there some in pain and some just behaving badly cause that's how they act. Also, so rasism against me cause i was the only white there and they hate us like i said. It was a nightmare!! Coming out of hospital is when i only realised i was hooked on Clonazepam when i had my first panic attack stopping cause i was out of hospital. It did not stop there so i still had some lung infection and was coughing up blood for 2 weeks till finally my lung collapsed and had to go back to hospital for another 2 months but stayed on 1mg Clonazepam. I have gone to Dr which don't really know how to taper this stuff. They made me taper to fast and totally got my brain fried. I have switched over to diazepam which has longer half life but i just cant cope with life cause it's been now more than 1.5 years now and still on everything. Benzo's has wrecked my life cause i keep getting tolerance WD even though the half life is so long. It's tough to come through the day without feeling like a nervous wreck. I have no job(my dad could not afford me anymore) and no money so i am lucky my mom is helping me pay for my meds. I need to do something(going to start tapering Phenibut tomorrow) but anyway that's my story. Oh and lost my 6 year meditation practice and so i feel so lost. Sorry for typing such a long story and now feel stupid writing it cause it seems like it has no purpose and thought to ask some questions but now can't think of anything. I feel i learned so much in this horror show but difficult to get on my feet. I guess i could ask if some here can relate and how did you get off benzo's? Is there any kind of practice to help addictions? Thanks for reading!!

@Vladimir Are you still in God mode or god consciousness? When ever i can i try to notice that everything is inside my consciousness(This feels like it's in my head but i have a feeling it's not) like i have a sphere that is conscious and that everything is inside this sphere. Also, i will meditate with my eyes closed and notice a feeling in my leg then a thought comes up that feeling is in my leg and i will then realise it's just a feeling floating in "space" or consciousness. Is that useful to awaken or am i waisting my time?

I will atm the pressure is just annoying but i can handle it and will def continue now with it till i can't anymore and will give my system rest. I have realized that it's not me suffering an thinking is just me observing thoughts and it's not my thoughts and i def feel suffering ease up a bit but before long i am back to thinking i am the thinker or the sufferer so it's a process of remembering again and again...

Yeah true on finding who you are and your true nature is very important and i have been doing that the last year more than energy practices but i do meditation everyday but my meditations have not been so deep cause i have not had a good last year in daily life and got depressed. I feel that the depression cause me not to go deep as i usually do and now that depression is lifting i m going deep again and starting to focus on awakening which is causing this pressure in my head and like you rightfully say mind and body not use to this kind of strong energy but it will get better. Thanks

I was reading about one of you comments of looking in the mirror and then i walked to the door thinking what the hell this means and then this song played, someone sitting in a car outside and all of a sudden i dropped all thinking or happened all by itself and i listened and this is what i heard. "Look into my eyes You will see What you mean to me Search your heart Search your soul And when you find me there You'll search no more Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do I do it for you." Wowww it was like God was talking to me and that was what you guy's mean look into the mirror. Search your heart and search you soul(self inquiry)and you'll find "ME" there and you wont search no more!!! I have found that already but i was reminded of it and wow like i got goose bumps everywhere and remembered again who I am really