Hi. I feel alone. Friends around me don't share the same perspective of the world as me I believe. When I talk about topics like nonexistence, their reactions make me feel weird like not interested, next topic plz or u are crazy. I am not feeling wrong with these kinds of reaction after a long time of trial. Maybe, It is normal. What makes me curious or feeling weird is my mindset.
It can be explained by putting into three categories.
First, they are really not interested or don't want to waste time to discuss endless topics.
Second, their reactions don't reflect what their deep inside.
Third, the worst developed one is that they are not even existing and talking about nonexistence will be automatically avoided due to certain reason.
I want to sum up like this. When we talk to another person, what we receive is their reactions and words or a signal. But you are not him, u don't know what their actual thinking is. They can lie to you. In advanced, you are not him, u can't understand the existence of him. He may be just a signal.
You are like talking to a non-existing person about not existing. In a certain aspect, it becomes a personal experience.
The questions are where should I go and is it a personal journal? Please tell me.
If people know my situation, please share your thought and I can read and sometimes living in reality.
