Billy Shears

So it's almost a month ago since I started taking 3 capsules of ashwagandha a day and I must say that I feel slightly better mentally and in general more positive. My monkey mind is still annoying but there are definitely more moments when I just observe the chattering without identifying with it and after a while it fades away. I don't know if this change is due to ashwagandha, I will continue to do so for three more days and then take a break for two weeks as I travel to Nepal. I'm looking forward to the coming weeks!

I think Rupert Spira is a great example of a teacher who combines wisdom with a good pinch of humor. I really appreciate him.

Is it really worth the effort if you end up with a girl you impressed with a fake version of yourself just because you played the game right? Stay true to yourself and if the girl doesn't react she's (probably) not the right one.

Beautiful sacred geometry ❤️❤️❤️

I ask myself that, too

I love to talk to friends and suddenly start to laugh without reason, but simply because you complement each other so well

You're right, the problem nowadays is that everything has become such a huge competition. People don't show their true self, hide behind their false mask and want to project an image of themselves how they would like to be perceived in public. Just look and observe people on Instagram for example. This shit is so toxic and in the end they all end up being lonely and depressed because they might get the impression that they can't keep up with other people who get more likes or whatever.

I do not eat meat and also supplement it with high doses. Since it does not occur in plant foods, it is definitely necessary to have no deficiency symptoms.

I'm not sure if you can control your thoughts, but I'm very sure that you receive most of your thoughts through the morphogenetic field. You are like a radio which receives thoughts, just tune to the right station and you'll only have positve thoughts. Edit: The moment I wrote this comment I had a thought about my mum, a few seconds later she called me. Question: Did I control this?

@pluto My product is definitely organic but still I'm not sure, there are countless providers, each of which guarantees that it meets the highest standards and quality, but you never know if it's all right. I also supplement vitamin b12 and omega 3, but I do not want to be dependent on it either. Of course, a healthy diet and lifestyle are fundamental, but there is again countless interpretation of what is right and wrong. By the way I'm vegan.

What about headaches as negative side effects?

@Chi_ I felt like shit and had pain for a week after the surgery. But fortunately now it's getting better all the time. I even reconnected to my heart lol. Although I am also very skeptical about Western medicine and methods, unfortunately I actually had pain in biting, inflammation and swelling before the removal, so I had no other choice really. Of course, you should listen to your feeling, but the longer you wait, the more painful it will be in hindsight. All the best to you!

I gotta be honest to you. I don't do any spiritual practices, I'm addicted to bad stuff like alcohol and cannabis, I have OCD, etc. and I'm still heavily identified with my ego/body/mind. I know that there is more to life, I feel that I'm living an illusion but the only reason why I got into this stuff is because I had two psychotic episodes when I realized that my whole life is determined and free will is an illusion. After the bliss I got really mad, thought that I was Jesus, etc. You know this sick stuff. Maybe I could just start doing the work or taking some psychedelics to break through the illusion. But I'm too afraid that eventually I'll lose my mind and go insane because I'm very fragile, have always been. I don't want to sound like a victim, I'm just trying to describe my current situation. Should I continue researching about enlightenment or should I better focus on other things which keep me trapped in the illusion but would rather serve my sanity? In the end what I'm trying to say is does it really matter? I mean if I'm really God, everytying and nothing at the same time, absolute infinity... Shouldn't I just give a f*ck? If that's what I as God want to experience, isn't it perfect so that there aren't right or wrong choices? If God wants to experience itself as this ego, why should I worry that I'm not enlightened or woke and that I live an unconscious life? Thanks for your responses.

@Matt8800 What exactly are psychoses and schizophrenia from the occult perspective? There was a time when I was psychotic and I really felt obsessed. I had a lot of energy but at the same time the I felt that an entity could influence my body. I did things I did not want. My body started to twitch uncontrollably and I could not stop it. I felt like I was in contact with something. I could even ask questions, but in retrospect, I do not know if it was an evil entity, I guess it was. Sometimes it was very uncomfortable when these seizures happened in public. Still it was an exhausting but crazy experience which led me to believe that the paranormal world is real.

@pluto On Monday, my lower wisdom teeth were removed. Since then I feel even more cold-hearted than before.

@undeather Oh yes, indeed. Good advice! ✌?

@Aaron p Can you please elaborate further what you mean? And why do you think it's an advantage?

Thanks for all the kind answers. I have read all of them and appreciate your attention, even if I do not react to everyone. By the way I feel better and relieved today!

@Kensho Why do you think so?

@Truth Addict May I ask you if you are happy? And what does bliss depend on in your opinion?

@ajasatya You're probably right, but I guess these words won't help me right now in my unconscious state.

@ajasatya And that's another problem I forgot. It is too important to me how I affect others and what they think about me. But what if there are no others and they are all me?

@Truth Addict Yeah, fuck this shit! Sounds easier than it is. No, I'm not happy.

@pluto Alright, thank you for answering. To be honest I don't do lots spiritual practice. but most of the time I try to live healthy and avoid sugar, fat or salt. Sometimes I make spirulina or curcuma smoothies to detox and to calcify the pineal gland but I'm not sure if it's working. Besides I haven't tried any psychedelics yet.

@pluto I use fluoride free toothpaste but still drink a lot of green tea and matcha daily although I also read that it contains a huge amount of fluoride. I value the beneficial effects of green tea. So do you think it's calcifying the pineal gland?