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Well living the fantasi i talked about is not something that is possible in this life.... so tell me How i could live that life i talked about then i Will be ready

If i experience that and realize it can’t make me happy. Then i Will be open minded to that ? so tell me How i can live that egoic life and then be free and nothing ????

Ofc i want it to be some drama. Mby some forbidden love in that dream. But i mean i want to experience it so badly. But Will i ever? Prob not. To Good to be Good. Being nothingness Will be Nice because no suffering. But No great experience.

@Nahm What do you mean?

I Will never experience that Huh? Oh Well @Nahm i am not ready to be nothing before that

@Nahm Will i everexperince that life? Ok Mby not 1000 years. But 100 years. I want to experience that life. And ofc nothingness Sounds Nice. But i only want it AFTER i had that life experience. Because then i have had the experience i want and can truly let go.

Then after that. Being nothingness Sounds nice. But NOT before that @Nahm

@Nahm Well it’s more of a fantasy. I live in a fairytale world. I find my Perfect 10 girl. Looks and personality. We are the only ppl in the world. The others are animals that we talk to. We are Young aswell. We spend 1000 years in each others arms. The love never dies. We stay Young aswell. After 1000 years we die. A world without major suffering, polution etc Edit: weird dream i know ?

I feel like i have an opertunity in this life that 99% seems to be misisng. I am just afraid that i am as god Will almost never again be able to Have this opertunity. That makes me wonder What is the factor that decides What kind of life you are gonna live. Is that that god loves everything and he dice rolls What life you should have? I feel like when i die Will get lost in infinity. I am afraid to die and i am afraid of not being able to get one of these lives again.

What practices can i do to discover the answers to this question?

@Leo Gura when you grew up did your parents raise you with religious believes? (Christian or jewish) if so When did you become an atheist before you found the real god?

have you had any terror trips @Leo Gura i don’t want to use these kinds of pills because 1 hard to get 2 addictive

Note this is not about challenging trips. This is terror trips we are talking about. Challenging trips are Very imoprtant. Terror trips can cause PTSD

No i would not do that. But i don’t want PTSD. Some terror trips might cause PTSD.

Does this video have any truth to it?

I am afraid to take psycadelics because of the risk of getting a mental illnes. My friends mothers brothers ex smoked weed and got mental. @Leo Gura i want to trip but i am afraid to be at a mental hospital for the rest of my life

i am afraid of getting an mental illness

My friend's mothers brother ex-girlfriend smoked weed (i have done that 10+ times) after her third joint She got schizophrenia. And his sister's friends played around with psychedelics and one of them have never been the same again. These things have scared me off. I have no mental illness. I know what I want to with my life (at least for now) and my mom told me my fam have no history of mental illness (at least for my grandparents) but I am still afraid of that. I want to try shrooms because I want to explore the fabric of reality and mby help me to quit sugar

I have Done that for a Long time. I want to try But i am afraid to end up in a mental hospital

I am feeling Good and my mum said we don’t have any serious mental illnesses in my family. I would love to try shrooms and lsd But i am afraid i might ruin my life

My friend did mdma. He told me for 2 hours he felt 10/10. ”More happy than falling in love?” ”Yes” to my ego this Sounds insane. Falling in love is the most beautiful thing i know. But that got me thinking about. When you realized No self How happy Will ”you” be in everyday life? Will it be like on mdma for the entire time?

How Long do you stay in paradise before you get reborn into next life?

I am a 21-year-old man and I have followed actualized.org for a year now. and about a 30 days ago I heard about hell realms. I can't even meditate anymore. before I thought "cool I want to go deeper" when something weird happens with my consciousness when I meditate because I am afraid I that consciousness might enter a hell realm with the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia but 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times worse. before I took LSD i and I got so many lessons. I talked to a guy who was an ex psychedelic guy. he told me (don't know the drug) told me he had a trip experience the most painful thing on this earth + 1 level (i have read a little about this and i have talked to other on this forum about this issue. Most painfull thing +1 level seems pretty common) after that, I have not even touched a psychedelic. I don't care that my life is a hell realm. There are much worse than my life. And living my life not experience anything "special" like ego death etc is the only way to stay out of the hell realms. When I die I have 0 control. I might miss the good stuff, but I am willing to offer that. yesterday when weird things started to happen the fear of the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia came up. I thought "should I go into this or not" "I want to but I am too afraid" what do you think @Leo Gura?

It's not about being hurt It's about experience suffering. If i enter a Hell realm While tripping i am not gonna get hurt But i gonna suffer.

It's not worth the risk of entering a Hell realm (meditation only No substances)