Nathan leigh

Hey all, recently I have been taking the self-actualization stuff more seriously in the sense that it is beginning to mean more to me than anything else that I know of or am involved in, but like many of you I like to use knowledge and wisdom on enlightenment/practise and so on from a variety of teachers. But recently as this becomes more serious I have noticed that taking advice from various sources often leaves me feeling confused and unsure of what methods to pour most of my focus into. Any opinions would be greatly appreciated, thank you.

@Nahm I'm 20 and have absolutely no interest in finishing high school.

@Nahm See that's one of the tricky parts as I am a young guy, not financially independent as of yet etc, I feel pulled between the more Tony Robbins esque Go get it! Sort of life and the more simplistic silent, contemplative kind of life. I did very little high school and have always been an introvert interested in teaching my self, that led to an interest in spiritual teaching, metaphysics, actuallized.org! In that time I've had a string of awakenings that seem to be becoming more of a dominant way of life (falling into turquoise more if you like) but also have worldly desires and so forth. I understand that at some level it doesn't have to be one or the other. Maybe my bitching and so on has more to do with the fact that it's hard to really get this kind of advice from most of the people I've associated with thus far.

@tsuki Yeah I guess like anything else there just has to be the willingness to experiment and play around with different styles. Kriya and self-enquiry resonate with me the most at this time.

Hello all, I've been doing the self-actualization for the last couple of years in terms of Meditation, inquiry, yoga, psychedelics and so forth. A couple of months ago after a couple of very eye-opening LSD trips, I could use contemplation to directly collapse reality for a while. Recently I've noticed a huge ego backlash and found my self stuping in a whole cascade of subtle and dense addictions namely smoking pot way too frequently, overeating and wasting time doing jack shit, Netflix etc. I'm noticing that it's hard for me to just sit in a room with no stimulation at the moment, I feel a sense of lack and overwhelming boredom, I often have free time and find my self descending into unconsciousness. Just wanted some opinions, maybe some advice or insight from your own journey. Thanks for reading