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It has been a good run, lots of ups and downs and now it's time for me to end this dream. Thanks to Leo, this forum, and everyone else who might be concerned with this thread. I'm still waiting for a couple of details to get sorted out before my exit. Ask away before my departure if you will.

I'm literally living the best moments of my life right now, knowing that i will not be here in ~ 24 hours. I put on a clock and it's tonight at midnight i will start it and when that clock does a full 24 hour cycle it's over for me. You have no idea at how connected to life i feel at this very moment knowing this.

The former. Sorry for causing a mayhem, received tons of messages, thanks to you all. I'm not doing this because i'm at a '' low place '' in life, I'm doing this out of excitement. I wanna see what lays on the other side of death. I've done 5-meo-dmt but i still feel like it's not IT. I want to actually pull the curtain and see for myself, the universe is infinite so anything is possible. I'm dropping every belief i have about everything, even non-duality. I'm gonna completely surrender to the unknown and it's gonna be a blast. There's still one day left for me so i today i was not too active, i visited old places that i liked and watched the sunset at an hill then drove back home. I'm still answering any questions any of you might have, privately or in public.

Not an idea, you will see it for yourself when you physically die. " I am " is all that there is and will be.

The essence wrote this, it's not located in one area, it's my entire self, fully decentralized yet centralized in one no-self self. "I am" , will always be there.

Waiting for money transfer so i have 2 days left, and i'm going to leave through physical death.

Everyone is no one, there's nobody in control and no living organism has any control over itself other than it's emerging proprieties which comes from it's desire to spread itself. There is no one on this forum, there's no one on the entire internet and ultimately there is no one in the entire universe. You think you understand what is being written here by no one but you don't because there's no one on the other side to understand it, might aswell write this in some foreign language. 克服么疯狂开放美国人民管理日故人来概括人口哦公开如果哦抗日哦考古抗日哦给客人哦考古人哦可哦给客人哦给客人哦公开哦日开工哦人口ㄛ份额开放额克服哦人口个人哦感慨个人哦考古 Did you understand any of that? That's right, the same thing applies to the english language. You're nobody, just like me, yet here we are. Nothing was said in this thread, there's nothing to be learnt from this thread, this thread serves no purpose other than being itself.

Life is currently happening at 06:07 am Thursday March 21, 2019. There's a visual field alongside sounds, bodily sensations and a desire to write this thread. Thoughts about the future are arising. All of this is literally happening. Life is literally happening.

Life is still happening 17:08 pm.

Problematic or not it is still happening. It's still happening at 6:23 am. Life is literally happening at this very present moment, a desire to film life with a camera arose.

Congratulation, you've somehow landed on this thread! Let's start this off by saying that literally every problem you have and every future projections are deceptions and illusory. Your entire life has been governed by your human desires and therefor you have been distracted from the absolute truth. Humans as a whole are trying to create a civilization where they can deceive themselves the most because of the various defense mechanisms that humans have. Why would humans deceive themselves? Because deception is part of their modus operandi to survive and establish a civilization to maximize the production of joy, reproduction , knowledge, power, status and ultimately create a big fat collective ego. So if you want to merge with reality and become the truth then you will have to drop all deceptions and see reality for what it is. Every facet of this current reality is a deception, books, documentaries, movies, music, video-games, you name it. So how do you awaken then? You can do it right now, simply by realizing that this reality is a deception, it's very job is to produce deceptions. All Maps, Models , Concepts are deceptions. It's layer over layer of deceptions. Even spiral dynamics is a deception. Notice how your mind will categorize each one of these civilizations and side with one over the other for deceptive reasons. " Look this is a stage beige civilization! And this is Red, and this is purple! And We've got an orange one over here! Oh and this one has to be Yellow! " The only way to awaken is to merge with physical reality which will come in part 2 of this thread.

Leo built a platform to talk to himself. Let that realization sink in.

There is no '' absolute perspective '' , everything is subjective. And from a subjective perspective which all that you have and will ever have, every '' stage '' of civilization is full of shit and a distraction, a game for humans to role-play in it.

Only untouched nature is God's finest way to exist. Enjoy your stage yellow-nerdy civilization with touchscreens , notifications and obligations/desires.

You've just deluded yourself into thinking any form of civilization is not hell. Gyms exist for the mind too!

If you were awake you wouldn't be in hell here where there is wifi, you'd be in heaven.

That's a paradigm. What i'm pointing towards to is death of all falsehood which is all types of human civilizations and merging with the beautiful natural world that does not need any addition.

Who put a limit that says enlightened beings cannot do drugs/become addicted? Enlightenement is the dissolution of all boundaries, enlightenment can make you become a crack addict, there's no telling. Obviously it usually doesn't turn out that way.

Isn't that our goal though? To show to "other" people that it's a game. Only maybe 0.00000000000000001% of humanity deeply truly knows this and embodies this.

'' what is self-deception? " this thread, everything you're doing in your day to day life, no matter how juicy that thing is. Everything you're doing is a deception. Every thread on this forum is a deception, everything on the T.V, Internet, Radio, Newspapers, What other '' objective physical being '' think/do is a deception. Become one with reality, stop resisting, stop pursuing anything other than pure unfiltered reality and merge with it so you can become a super-conducter.

@Rilles You're living through billions of people, just living out your lives, oblivious.

talking to yourself is indeed good. Keep this thread n.1 to remind myself that there's only me here.

Leo is thinking about hosting a meeting for fellow actualizers to meet in real life and have a good time. Someone shows up and kills all of us one by one the same way those Muslims were murdered in Christchurch. He makes sure to shoot Leo and everyone else twice in the head to make we are all physically dead. Now here's the twist, one of you manages to survive, how do you react? You've spent countless hours meditating, contemplating, self-inquiring, studying human models like spiral dynamics etc, what's your reaction then? Are you going to forgive the shooter? Will you feel hatred towards him? What will your reaction be?

That's a wrong paradigm Leo, All there is is you and you know it.

Said @Leo Gura