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Day: 4 I've decided to cut the fast just 7 hours from full 4 days due to almost completely fainting just 30 min ago. I went to take a piss, on my way out of the bathroom my vision went completely white. I managed to go into my bedroom to lie down quickly, drank some water and ate a banana. It felt like I had taken 5-MeO for a minute or two. There was nothing but pure light. My physical body could not handle it though as I got instant cold sweats and felt like I had 107* fever. I will continue with my 20/4 fasting window from now on, or even one meal a day.

I decided to do this fast when I started a 20/4 intermittent fasting a couple of days ago. I've always wanted to try a water fast for 5 days, mainly for meditation purposes and detoxing the body. I'll document each day here in this journal and you're welcome to follow along; maybe this will give you some motivation to give it a try. I'd note that this is not advisable for everybody to try as it can be dangerous if you have any type of disease or health problems. I'm in 100% health and have no issues that run in my family such as diabetes, heart diseases, etc.

Day: 3 Today was definitely easier than the last two days, but I'm still extremely weak and low on energy. It could be due to the fact that we don't get a lot of sun in Iceland so vitamin-D deficiency is my closes guess. I've not been able to read or meditate for that matter due to lack of focus. I can feel the detoxing effects tho, but they are not close to a solid LSD trip or a Mushroom trip. I'm even having kind of a hard time reporting my days here. The hunger has long faded and my psychological cravings too. So I've decided to shorten this experiment to 4 days. Tomorrow at 8 PM I'll finally break fast and start consuming food very lightly. The detoxing has been a nice bonus, this didn't help very much with meditation and focus. I'll just stick to psychedelics.

Day: 2 50 hours in. Today was a tough one; loads of craving for food. But what was notable is that I was not hungry at all, but rather had a psychological craving for food. Energy levels are notably down, I've not done much today other than watch content on youtube. I tried reading but could by no means focus on the task. So I went on to watch an hour of mukbang videos. I'm not proud of it, but it definitely released some of the cravings I was experiencing. It will be interesting to see how my upcoming meditation session will be. Whether I'll be able to focus or not, I'm not certain, but awareness has definitely gone up. By far the toughest thing about today was the smell of burritos and ground beef in my kitchen, and the variety of ice-creme for dessert, the urge to quit became insanely strong. This challenge is a lot tougher when you don't live by yourself. Luckily I managed to pull myself together.

Day: 1 As I'm writing this day 1 occurred yesterday. It was very easy as I had been doing the 20/4 fasting days before. I noticed how much energy I had throughout the whole day. Meditation was a bit tough, my stomach was growling a little but not so much that it disturbed my meditation. I'm making sure to get at least 3 liters of water each day.

Chapter 14: Been 5 days since the last log, a lot has happened since then. I went on a reading break on Friday which only ended up being about 2-3 days. It was nice and much needed though. I spent some time with family and got my mind off this work for those 3 days. Books: I finished "The Religion Of Tomorrow" today after about 3 weeks of reading it. I've got a nice feeling of accomplishment and relief as it was quite dense and a little tough read. Although I'm done reading it page by page; I will still continue to study it and re-read all highlighted parts - they are worthy of contemplation for the whole year. A book like this you've really got to dig in and extract every drop of wisdom. Fitness: After getting a pull-up bar last weekend, I've been doing pull-ups non-stop over the past 2 weeks. It ended of course with an injury to the shoulder as I was doing about 70-100 each day. The problem has been found and dealt with, as I was not going down for full range of motion as I should've been doing. Now I'm doing recovery training, by only initiating the pull-UP movement by contracting the shoulder blades only. It's going well so far. Meditation: Been going at the meditation every day as planned; time ranges from 40 minutes to 80 minutes. I don't feel that the longer meditations are yielding more results than the 40 min ones, that's likely because my meditation skills are still in the intermediate phase. Lucid Dreaming: I've been having an awful amount of distraction every time I've woken up to perform a WILD technique or FILD. I'm doing reality checks often each and every day. I expect to get more peace to perform those techniques in the next week or two. I've been remembering dreams every night and writing them down, usually multiple per night. Fasting: For the last 2-3 days, I started doing a 20/4 fasting window, where I eat from 16:00-20:00. Which then ended up with doing a water fast for the next 5 days. Currently, I've not consumed any food since 8-PM last night - so that's about 28 hour fast right now. Tomorrow will be a tough one. The reason why I'm trying this out is I'm interested in seeing how much it will impact my meditation and awareness throughout the day. I'm interested to see if it will help any with the lucid dreaming. I also felt it was time to "detox" my body to get a fresh start. The main motivator will be how good food will taste once I break the fast, but also the challenge; I feel this is a great way to gain discipline all around in life as it is quite challenging not to eat for 5-days.

@Rilles Have you looked into Integral-Theory? So far I've liked it much more than Spiral-Dynamics; primarily because it includes Spiral and every other value system out there. I always found SD way too simplified for how complex reality is.

Agreed. Green can often be the most vicious when its limits are pushed. I also notice a lot of blue hate, they are quite loving I've come to notice.

@Average Investor Your Youtube channel is awesome man, well done! Thumbnails are looking clean and in order, and the videos are top-notch. Just subscribed. Good luck on your journey.

Seems to me like there's a shadow addiction to stage orange and an allergy to orange going on here. It doesn't have to be either way. Simple as that.

Wow I've never seen such a messed up post - did not intend for that and it doesn't seem to work editing it either.

The beauty of awakening is there are no guiding principles. You can do whatever you want. Some of the most enlightened people choose to sit out in bliss and peace, that's their choice. But that's because they aren't evolved enough in the Integral stage department to realize they're the ones also suffering out there in the world. So after a certain point in development, when you've sat in bliss long enough, one might want to go out there and help others evolve their consciousness primarily. But denying to help others is also a form of love. It's the love of not helping, love of selfishness. The homeless guy on the street is also homeless for the love of being homeless. He created that circumstance as the creator of his reality. God wants to experience every possibility, he loves being homeless. It's the ego that makes it look "bad" and that which creates the suffering.

@Serotoninluv Fair enough, definitely makes it less messy.

I've had the exact same experience on a trip. I felt I was the one who controlled the whole energy and vibrations of my neighborhood. When you're in such a pure god consciousness state, you create every moment all around you. You can just will it into existence. It was probably one of my favorite realizations, to know I can make every moment perfect with my pure god-given will and as the creator of my experience. Unfortunately, my ego is now in the way - so it doesn't work as well as on a trip.

@Serotoninluv Would you not say survival is part ego?

From the absolute, there is nobody to do anything, expect god who is and does everything at every moment that ever was and ever will be. (That's from what I know, which may be "correct" or not ). But even saying anything about the absolute or god, will never do it justice as this language is finite af. Yeah, he was one complex dude. With that kind of fame and fortune and people treating you like a grand wizard, you're inevitably going to have some shadows bubble up.

@crab12 Osho had a lot of 2nd chakra stage red shadows, money and sex just to name few. Most enlightened people have some form of shadow lurking in some corner. And you also have to survive in this material plane, enlightened or not. And the thing is, while giving and helping people might seem like the "right thing" to do; it's already perfect as is. You judge it from your human perspective. This creation is perfect.

-I hold all of human history, knowledge, and wisdom in the palm of my hand.

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you, brother!

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@electroBeam Dehydration should not be given as advice to newbies, you never know if someone just decides to act upon it and ends up killing themselves. I'm not saying it doesn't work, but that it's obviously a dangerous method and there are 100 better ways of going about it.

That's just lazy meditation; you have to separate the two. That's very dangerous advice that no-one should follow.

Chapter 13: In the next 3-5 days, I have decided to go on a reading break. Been going pretty hard at the books since January 1st; reading anywhere from 80 pages to 140 each day. Although it drastically slows down by the type of book I am reading. Flying through self-help books is way easier than the big fat spirituality or systems books such as Wilber's work. After reading a few self-help books in January; I've kind of decided to stop there, as I find the wisdom and lessons in them not nearly as close to the spiritual books. They tackle your issues from the core in with shadow work; whereas self-help takes on more surface problems that stage blue-green deal with. There are definitely some good self-help books out there, but I find I can tackle most of these problems with shadow work on my own, and not from external resources. I had a weird moment the other day where I stubbed my toe very hard on a table. It was of the kind where one jumps around and squeezes one's toe for a minute or two. But I instantly decided to just question what had happened instead. So I asked - Who is it that feels this pain? Why don't I like this pain? And the pain was immediately disidentified from me. There was nobody feeling pain; there was just pain being pain, the isness of the pain was so obvious. So I just stood there loving the pain for what it is. Not judging it from a human egoic perspective. Other: Meditated for 70 minutes last night. It was done as Leo advised in his guided meditation video - JUST LET GO. It was very awesome, but the problem I'm facing the most at the moment is my seating position. I always sit on my bed with my back supported by a wall, in a crosslegged posture. But as the meditations pass the 30-minute mark, It starts to get very uncomfortable on the legs and they usually go completely numb in the end. I've been able to sit it through for some time, but now it's getting kind of tiring. I'm contemplating on whether to change it up or just get used to it until it stops bothering me. Lucid Dreaming- I've not been able to achieve another lucid dream since the last one befell. I've been trying to wake up 6 hours after falling asleep and performing the WILD technique; while doing reality checks many many times throughout the day. I'm assuming I'm not waking up during my R.E.M sleep since I have not been able to recall waking up directly or recently from a fresh dream. I will experiment with waking up 5 and a half hours after falling asleep. I'm assured of achieving a lucid dream within a week or so, from how much time I'm investing in thinking about them.

@PlayOnWords Happy for you brother! Feel the love!

@Raptorsin7 When I view the world with the eyes of wisdom I see that I am nothing, when I view the world with the eyes of compassion I see that I'm everything. ↞