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+1 There seems to be a lot of hostility and built up anger recently here. Leo can you make a video about love so everyone can start parroting it, as has happened in the past. There seems to be a seasonal vibe on the forum dependent on what kind of videos he releases.

@Space Wow, that really is suuper ambient.

"Cattle are the most gentle creatures"

Really want to get back into downhilling again, used to do it when I was a kid. Awesome to know you're into it.

What about more chill ambient such as this:

@integral Yeah I'll definitely have it looked at some time down the road.

@integral Thanks, but my mind is as clear as ever so I doubt I'll need it.

Been a while since I last posted in this journal. The reason is I haven't really been working on myself in the awakening/spiritual aspects all that much. Most of my focus lately has been on building disciplines around my life such as noted in the other journal I've been posting in. I've really enjoyed doing those things, but with that discipline, there came a certain comfort zone around spiritual work. I've noticed how much I've fed into the ego by fixing up those things which ain't necessarily bad, but I just notice how less fulfilled and happy I am. Awakings always come with an ego backlash no matter what, I'd classify this as such. Now I feel I'm ready to dive into meditation, self-inquiry, and contemplation again. My reading habits have fallen into the toilet since April when I went to the lambing season on our farm. I've been trying to start it again with no progress complete. I'm pretty sure I know the reason as to why it's not going so well. First off it started with a trip that was so deep that I felt no need to read because I realized the present moment was all there is to realize. Yet there is so much to learn from them that it was a big mistake to be so lopsided into one direction on the matter. Another reason is; I've lost all my patience and stillness. I constantly have to be on the move, watching something of stimulation such as youtube, or clicking away on the internet, this came as a result of quitting meditation. I can barely watch a 10 minute Osho video because it's not stimulating enough. With meditation and contemplation, this issue would be resolved rather quickly. One thing I don't want to do and I've made this mistake in the past, which is jumpstarting the spiritual journey with a psychedelic trip. When I've done that in the past I've noticed how quickly I fall into old ego patterns and habits after it. I really need to build a habit and spiritual discipline before going into a trip, so I've got some foundation to lean on after it, to prevent massive backlash. But once I've built a decent meditation, contemplation, and self-inquiry habits, I will definitely be taking an LSD trip or a Mushroom trip. There's nothing quite like a psychedelic trip, the magic, the mysticism, the truth, the love it brings is the most fascinating this I've come across on this earth. But one can not lean too much on them as with anything. The books I'll be reading today will likely be The teachings of Don Juan, and maybe The book of not knowing. I'm about halfway through Don and about 1/3 through Ralston. I'm also going to be tuning into some Aubrey Marcus, he's one of my favorites because he has a nice balance of how he goes through life with spirituality and purpose. I'm also gonna be watching some of Leo's videos again, starting with "The many facets of awakening", That will be my second time viewing that one. I've seen most of Leo's videos about 1-4 times some even more, but it's like you never run out of things to learn with these long ass videos. Peace.

Damn only just realized how old this post is... Oh well.

@Zigzag Idiot Love you too man!

I've got like 1/3 of these on my trip playlist, lol. Love these also, some of my deepest moments were had here:

Beautiful.

Agreed. After falling off a little for the past two weeks. I'm ready to take this seriously again, better repaired now than before.

@Average Investor You're so consistent, dude. You'll go far in life!

5:30 AM Only slept like 5 hours, but the morning run was so wholesome that I'm as awake as I could be. Yesterday marked John Lenon's 80th birthday and his peace tower light beam was lit up. I stopped at a point near the ocean to just look at it, under a fully starlit sky and the moonlight. Felt a great peacefulness from it, and nearby was a construction site of condos being built for homeless people, how fitting. Anyways, this joint supplement I've been taking feels like magic, it's incredible how well and fast it works. My body felt like a well-oiled machine on this run. Still got some tiny aches and pains in my knee, but my Achilles and all my joints just felt smooth and well lubed. I felt like floating on clouds during this wonderful run.

Have an awesome trip brother!

Take that fear and throw it in the trash! It's very unlikely you'll get your nose broken just by training combat sports, but its a different story if you compete.

I'd say the first step would be: You have to really want it. If you don't want to be healthy enough, you won't really stick with it for more than a week or two. For me, it was a matter of starting simple and being set on exercising at least once a day no matter what. I also found that starting a bunch of challenges at once really helped sustain my workout routine, for example, quitting caffeine, semen retention, waking up at 5 am, etc. I really felt it contributed a bunch to change my life around in all aspects at once. You can get help with external motivation as well, like David Goggins, but you will always have to return inwards and find your own inner drive to keep it going, external motivation only gets you so far. Diet- Not overcomplicating it would be my best diet advice. Just eat semi-healthy in general, drink 2+ liters of water each day, get enough protein and fats in and keep the carbs low. Quitting caffeine as I mentioned before was also a massive plus in my diet. I didn't feel dehydrated all the time, and I felt I could eat healthier more stale food with more joy because my mind wasn't under constant stimulation. Routine- What I did was I found myself a video I could follow along with when I was first starting, which happened to be this awesome Mike Chang flow workout and I just did it every day. I was in great shape about 2 weeks after I started following it. Maybe you want to run or do some sport instead, whatever it is, consistency is key. When you're in shape, it becomes way more fun and enjoyable. Cold showers- Cold showers are like the steroids to feeling good after a workout. Compare it with Wim hof breathing before entering the shower and holding your breath under the cold water. Start with just 1 minute under the cold then you can increase it slowly. The longer and colder you go, the more present and relaxed you'll become after it. The body relaxation I get after cold showers is second to none, but the mind is very alert and present which is awesome. Beware of the trap that is labeling pushing your mind and body as stage Orange. That's not true at all unless you're at that level already. Don't get too spiritual for your own good. ...and don't forget to stretch.

@BlackMaze Thank you very much! I'm glad that it brings some motivation for you, it's just a matter of starting and not overthinking it really. And that runners high feels so good, feels very primal in a good way. This journal was one of the greatest things I did to keep going, so I hope you make one as well so we can keep track of your progress as well. Caffeine should be fine every other day honestly. I'll be drinking my cacao until I start noticing if I'm dependent upon it, then I'll rest it.

I call that entering the pearly gates. Love Coldplay btw.

Been semi resting this week, and by that, I mean not working out twice per day but once. So I rested the morning runs from Monday until now, and only did evening flow workouts. I've been waking up at 8 AM some days, and 5 am others. It really took its toll on my body to exercise so much, but I feel well-rested now and feel I can start again with the double workouts. It's not really necessary, but I enjoy both of them so much that I'll continue to do them for now. Been drinking cacao finally since I broke the caffeine streak. The stimulation I get from the theobromine is so clean and pure its amazing. Currently drinking some as I write this. ☕ But I have to be careful with not consuming too much of it so the effects become stale. Maybe I'll alternate tea one day and cacao the other. Really missing my runs even though I've only rested them for 3 days. I had to give my Achilles and knees some time to recover. My Achilles have really been bothering me on my runs, so I've been foam rolling my calves well to prevent any further injuries. Also started to take a joint supplement that consists of Omega-3, vitamin-C, hyaluronic acid, and collagen. I took it the last time I had the "running flue" which was about 2-3 years ago. I was also trying to reach a full pistol squat. I had the strength to do it but still couldn't reach it. 3 weeks after taking this supplement I could do 5 in a row. So I'll be looking forward to seeing results from that soon.

I've never in my life noticed any negative effects from eating fish. So I can't say I'm sold on it being that bad. Especially fish of the shores around Iceland and Greenland.

@Dodo Love how dedicated you are to this cause, you really help me to keep going. Thanks!

Conversations with god 1-3.

I can eat fish about 2-3 times a week and feel healthier than ever, mentally, and physically. So maybe it just depends on what your ancestors used to eat or something related to that.