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Just experienced a big ass earthquake as I was about to write here. Though my house was collapsing, lol. Anyways, just found this cool fitness channel which goes kinda the same way and style I'm heading with my fitness; which is functional strength under all conditions, Wim Hof/David Goggins style with less emphasis on hardening the mind and more just being loose. Merging physical exercise with spiritual practice to complete the body mind connection, your body is more connected to your spiritual path than one might let on to believe. Just finished a great strength focused workout, which is just bodyweight exercises with a 10kg backpack. Did some push ups, some pull ups and some core work. I've been doing the flow workout for about 2-3 months now which focuses largely on stamina+bodyweight strength. And after a long time of the same workout I want to focus a little on strenght as well. So I'll be mixing some heavy backpack workouts here and there alongside the running and flow workout. Don't really care about a six pack, but a good core is the foundation to which the entire body is connected to. Not really interested in the toughest mindset in the world type of training. But there's a fine balance in which you play between pushing the mind beyond what you believe you can achieve and doing to free yourself from your ego. Pushing beyond your capacity is one of the most liberating things I've felt. and It's surprising how big of a role your physical health plays a part in a spiritual journey-if you're still in your younger years.

5:00 AM Went for my normal circle but at a considerably faster pace, then did some uphill sprints. Ended up doing the later part of the run without music then meditated for 20 min straight after. Did not manage to focus at all during it, but that's to be expected since I've not meditated for couple of months.

See'ya on the other side my friend.

10:00 AM Yup, that's right. I didn't fall asleep until around 3:30 am and I've noticed I've been having a hard time falling asleep lately. I have no idea as to why, but it might be something to do with not being consistent enough with waking up at 5 am lately. It's been kind of on and off for the past week or so, some days I wake up at 5, some at 8. I think I've actually been way too soft and lenient on the morning runs and the early waking. From now on I'll be stricter and will try and run every day at precisely 5:00 am as I've been doing for the past weeks. I'm still training hard and just finished a great flow workout followed by a cold shower. The showers are getting SO cold at this time of year when the ground is at such low temperature. Been trying to work on my breathing when I'm under the cold, so I'll do about 10-15 deep breaths before I submerge myself under and then I continue with controlled breathing while under for about 4 minutes in the coldest setting. I've now noticed I'm getting a lot better at controlling my body temperature. I've been loading creatine and just started yesterday. I'm taking 20g at 4 different times each day and will do so for about 6 days, then I'll tone it down to 5g per day and keep it there. Been trying to finish off my old supply that expired in 2017, lol. Should be alright since it's stored well. I did buy a new 80 serving pack yesterday and was incredibly surprised at how cheap this stuff still is. Was like 6$, which means it's cheaper than bottled water for the amount you get. I've just got to remember to drink about 3 liters of water each day which I can often forget, but I'll try to remember. Been kind of on and off on this nofap stuff and I've not really had a stance on whether I like it or not until now. And I'm firm on it being something I want to continue with. Noticed that fapping can easily interrupt my sleep routine and it's just not healthy for me at this stage in my life. Also, that extra testosterone feels so good when you're working out intensely and doing cold showers, followed with meditation which I've yet to start. My plan was to meditate after runs but I've not tried it yet, I'll make sure to try it tomorrow morning after my run. I've been running with music ever since I started so I'm going to try and switch to running in silence or with an audiobook. I bet running in silence and then meditating straight after feels great. I do like my music in the mornings because it brings that extra motivation needed, but I'm up for a little experimentation. I'll be interested to see how well creatine helps with my recovery and performance.

We voluntarily act as devils because god's love is too much for an ego to handle and accept. It confuses it, because how could there be such powerful and forgiving love? How can something be so perfect to accept everything as its most profound creation? How can something be so selfless that it cares for the most minuscule creation equally as its largest most intelligent creation? It's all equally intelligent because IT IS ITSELF. It's IT. Selflessness and love so pure it's the only thing that allows reality to exist as it is, infinitely perfect and infinitely forgiving. In the end, it will all be okay.

@preventingdiabetes He has to find his own way out. What you said to him may have impacted him more than he may have led you to believe. I doubt it didn't impact him in any way, even the most minuscule impact is some impact. And if he made a joke out of it, I'd say that means it hit home and he couldn't handle the advice on the spot. This is precisely what society is doing, they're drowning themselves in cheap entertainment and will do anything to not sit alone with their thoughts.

@bejapuskas Let's hope this field will evolve and bring them some less judgemental help. Can't imagine how helpless one must feel in their position. This takes another level of courage to come out and admit.

They're afraid of change.

8:00 AM Did another workout yesterday after the run that really took a toll. So I did the flow workout with a 5kg backpack to push it a little further, since I do feel I have the extra strength now after doing the same workout almost daily for 2 months. I've noticed when I workout so intensely, my body automatically refuses to let me get up at 5 without extra 9-10 hours of sleep. And what I mean by that is, I somehow rise up without remembering to do so, and go turn off my 5:00 am alarm and then I head back to bed and wake up usually around 8. And I'm fine with it really. If the body wants extra rest it's up to it. I think we could all do a little better in listening to what our body wants. Aubrey Marcus talks about this a lot, and I'm now seeing why. Maybe this is a little overkill, running in the mornings and doing a pretty hard workout at noon, but I feel like as long as I let the body get extra rest when it wants to, then it will be fine. Maybe I should look into starting creatine again, I just really hate taking the powdered form, I can get in the habit of pills, but powder every day is a lot harder for some reason.

The forum where people talk about experiencing god and infinity? I think you're safe talking about paranormal activities here. And as long as it happened in your experience, then it's real from your point of view, since all of reality is imagined anyway. Can't wait to hear more. Btw, you don't happen to live on skinwalker ranch, do you? The small town I've come from is pretty conservative, but the majority more on the orange side rather than blue. Been around a lot of blue people nonetheless, it's funny that most of them are very anti-Trump, he leans so much red that they notice his bullshit from a mile away. I find that many farmers I've met who were raised around blue and have been transitioning to orange the past technological decade have that "common sense" that orange and green lacks. But maybe that shouldn't be labeled with spiral stages rather than a psychological trait.

WOW, poor people, feel deeply for them. Everyone should read this. Thank you for sharing.

Been gently easing back into contemplation and more mindful present thinking. Not yet started meditating, but will eventually do so in the mornings after my runs, possibly starting tomorrow. Also been switching the content I've been consuming to more deep videos and podcasts. This week I've enjoyed some of Leo's videos and Aubrey Marcus's podcast. Will be getting into some Matt Kahn soon enough to open up a little bit more to feeling. And then maybe some Rupert Spira for self-inquiry. I like easing into watching content such as this to prime up my mind for the "work" that lies ahead, even though I won't have any definitive structure to it. I like the not trying aspect of meditation, I find I can let go quite well with enough hours on the cushion. I've also yet to read the Osho 1300 page behemoth of a book, which entails 112 forms of meditative practices that I want to try. I just finished reading Nahm's "the path" in which he describes what he went through to get where he is now. It was really inspiring and motivated me a lot to actually get back on the horse. I'm also looking forward to my next psychedelic trip since it's been quite a while. I'm a little nervous even to go back in, but I'm sure it will be amazing. I won't rush into it tho, It may be 1-3 months until I decide to trip next, but one never knows, spontaneous trips occur all the time.

Can imagine how frustrating that game is. ?

5:00 AM Woke up to the blaring wind and pouring rain. Honestly felt like doing anything other than going out for a run at first. But lying there for a little while, feeling well rested, I became more motivated to just head out and go for it. The toughest thing was battling the wind, running against it made breathing correctly extremely hard and the extra leg power used all made for a tough but fun run. Taking these last days off I felt a massive difference in performance today. The join supplement has worked like magic and there are little to no pains in my body as of now. On most runs, I was aching pretty much somewhere, usually in my knee or tendons. But that's all gone now, mostly suspect its the supplement alongside the rest I gave my legs to heal.

I find it awesome to compete against only myself. It feels way different than projecting it outward toward "an other".

@Michael569 It can actually get a bit distracting since I sometimes just want to stand there and look at the stars for an hour. My most productive runs are when its cloudy and the road is the only focus. But it definitely feels like more of a spiritual run with a clear sky.

Dropping the walls of the ego and accepting everything as yourself. As you are your reality, one must love and accept all.

@Michael569 Hehehe yubb, we get auroras here all winter. Pretty spectacular and beautiful, trust me I don't take it for granted. The only thing I hear visitors here talk about is their dream to see the northern lights. Thank you! I feel like I adapted to the 5 am wake up probably 2-3 weeks into it. Quitting caffeine really helped so much. It was not as hard as I had imagined, and I've considered myself a night owl all my life. It's just that first week or two you've got to get over, after that it's smooth sailing. And honestly, it's the running that made it sustainable to wake up so early. I've tried it for years and never succeeded. After I decided I would run as soon as I woke up, it all worked out because It feels so free and liberating running at night.

I love myself! I love myself! I love myself! I love myself! I love myself!

This is your man for eq. It's actually difficult for many to watch him as he's so "out there" with feelings and his love talk. It took me some time to get comfortable watching him, and after seeing most of his material now. I can confidently say he's one of my favorite teachers. The ego really does not like this guy.

@Jodistrict Actually a Harvard research found that salt isn't as bad as previously thought. I put extra pink Himalayan salt on everything and I feel fantastic, but I also drink like 3 liters of water every day. I feel at my best when I'm salted up, as a matter of fact, I'm drinking cacao right now with a shit ton of Himalayan salt. Aubrey Marcus also talks about the importance of sea salt because of all the minerals it holds, like 60 different types if I remember correctly, compared to table salts 3 types of minerals. @Shunyata I'm the same way, I have to quit eating unhealthy cold turkey. But! I don't overdo the health which is a mistake most people make, it's just not sustainable. For example, for breakfast, I usually eat some granola (which has sugar) combined with oats, tastes great, and makes me feel great because of all the fiber. Then at launch some eggs with noodles and protein bread toast. It's just a matter of finding out what works for you and making it taste really good. @vizual You love to feel healthy first and foremost, this is true for everyone whether they disagree or not. So that should overwrite the short term pleasure of unhealthy food when you can get healthy food which tastes really good and makes you feel good. @Arcangelo Solid advice!

You have to catch yourself in the moment of the craving and ask yourself - If I love myself, what would I do?

8:00 AM Woke up late today due to not being able to fall asleep last night. Which ended up in a 2-hour fap session, lol. After I completed my 12 day run some weeks ago, I've been fapping about once every 4-6 days which ain't really a problem. It's not interfering with my life, but I notice how easy it is to feed back into it and the gap between the nofap days shortens. So I really want to get on track with it again. When I'm doing it at about once a week rate, I honestly feel fine and normal. But when I've been on 10-30 day streaks in the past you feel at the top of your game kind of. I really want to get to that point again. I find the first 5-10 days the hardest to bypass. I'm going to read a little on nofap today to gain some of that motivation back to get over the beginner's hump. Did an awesome flow workout yesterday and was absolutely drenched in sweat like never before. So much that I was actually slipping on my mat when I was planking. Did an extra two sets of plank at the end of the workout just because when you're already so far in, you might as well go even further. I listened to Leo's latest video during the workout which was great. Was definitely a wake-up call for spiritual "pursuit" again. I'll listen to "The many facets of awakening" during today's workout with some chill mix under. I've only ran twice during the past 9 days which is really disappointing, but I won't sweat over it because I did train those days, and my knees did feel the need to rest a little. I've noted down on my chalkboard to run every day for the next 5 days before I can rest. I can feel how comfy it has become to skip morning runs, especially when it's really windy or rainy outside. Your mind is really good at tricking you in those moments to go back to bed.