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Take 6 deep breaths. This is not deadly or even dangerous at all for your age. A family member of mine had it and it's not as bad as it sounds.

Just came from a mountain hike with my friend and his dog. Was quite a challenge, we did one 300-meter mountain then ran about 5 kilometers to another mountain and climbed that one too, which was about 300 meters as well, then we ran back and sprinted the last 5 minutes. It was pretty challenging but I still had a bunch of gas in the tank. Show just how much progress I've made in the last 2 months. It really does not take that long of a time to get into the shape of your life. The weather was absolutely perfect, clear skies, just below freezing, and completely still winds. Made the running very "fresh". My leg was fine which was a nice surprise. I was wearing my daily walking shoes (Adidas Ultra Boost's Uncaged), which maybe indicates that my running shoes may be the problem. It could be that they don't fit my feet. I'll maybe try running more in those Adidas shoes on my next runs.

Learned a lot from this trip. I feel like I get more and more what this is all about the more I dive into my mind and soul. It's all about dissolving your fears away. We're all so afraid, always hiding something from someone, we don't act out of pureness of truth most of the time. We slice and dice reality, take sides, debate on one thing or another, this and that. When in fact, it's only this and this. I can not realize myself as god if I'm afraid, If I'm hiding, because how can god hide something from himself, how can god be scared, when he's the one scaring himself. This ego is so tangled up with fear that It has lost sight of love, of what it means to live a pure life. Purify your soul, your heart, love with no limits. This partiality of love, I love this, I don't love that, I want this, I don't want that, I'm digging myself a deeper grave into my ego-mind with this attitude. Overcoming all our fears will leave no stone left unturned. No more hiding from myself, no more scaring myself. I have to choose exactly what I want and be precise about what I want. I act like I seek truth yet bury myself in entertainment to keep myself ignorant, hiding from my feelings, from what I truly am, that which has no self, no fears, and loves unlimitedly. After this trip, I've been contemplating more on trying the 60x salvia batch I've got. I've not touched it since the last time I tried to smoke it, but it didn't work because I didn't use a torch lighter. I can't think of a better way to confront my fears than with a salvia trip.

If you have a loved one, you've got chips in the game. You'd always be biased towards their survival. So I'd say yes, an awakened person would absolutely grief a loved one. You'd have to be so awake to not grief that there would be no point in loving that person more than another, but then again, you'd also be so conscious that you wouldn't even be in a human state anymore. Edit: Why in the world do I comment about things I've got no clue about...ego alert.

@Akemrelax You just need to start doing some basic leg strengthening exercises. Start by doing squats, lunges, and hip thrusters every day or every other day depending on how good of a shape you're in (with 1-2 rest days). You'll build a good amount of strength within 2-4 weeks in your legs - And remember to stretch.

Tried it with honey, himalayan salt, almond milk, and tiny vanilla powder. 10/10 I'll try more of the recipes posted in this thread soon.

I just try and face my fears head-on. Silence is good for that, I find music to be a form of escape often. But of course, you can enjoy that as well during some periods of the trip. You should set your intentions based on your developmental level. Only you'll know what intentions you need to set, sometimes I like setting them, other times I just let the trip decide.

Dive straight into your fears, It will feel liberating afterwards. The only thing keeping you away from realizing yourself as god is fear, once fear is out of the way, only love will be left.

Well, the time has come. I'll be eating the mushrooms in about one hour. These are "psilocybe semilanceata" also know as liberty caps. I'll be consuming 2g which should equal about 3g in the normal cubensis strain. Just took my second cold shower today right now just because it really wakes you up and gets you out of the comfort zone. Nothing much else to say other than - May love guide the way.

@Average Investor Absolutely, it's very important to give enough time for integration of each trip. Usually, there's many months of work-material to go through. It's been about 6 months since I last tripped, but at that time I was doing back-to-back trips which can be really valuable as well (with about 2 week time period). But you don't manage to take every lesson learned back, yet you learn all about the mechanics of how god and reality works, yet you can overshoot so far above the personal development aspect that way that it's not as much about building a "healthy ego" in a way. There are so many ways to trip really. But for now, I'm taking it slowly.

I'm finally in my reading groove after procrastinating on it for many months. I had a trip that really made me lose all interest in reading because it's so minuscule and silly compared to the truth you realize on a trip. And I'm heading for a trip tonight, please lord let me not lose interest in it just when I finally managed to start. ? It's a really good meditation to read. I feel a lot of ego resistance when I'm starting out, the ego just wants stimulation, and no stimulation is to be found on a paper page. Meditation was definitely crucial for me to be able to start reading daily again.

Don't overcomplicate it. Remember to let go if any resistance arises. Try and stare at your hand for some time, contemplate how it moves, who/what moves it, what is it made out of? If you want to go as deep as possible with 200ug. You have to contemplate your way to deeper and deeper places. Let your mind gain traction on questions such as what is reality, what is god, etc. There are few things better than pure silence on LSD.

Honey seems to be the trend with it here. Will try some honey with mine tomorrow.

Really been thinking about what I want out of this upcoming mushroom trip. I've contemplated and meditated a lot on it the last couple of days, without trying to bullshit myself. What do I really want to get out of it? And what I'm most interested in at the moment is just to figure out how god works. This has been the main theme of most of my trips, how does god construct this reality, how am I doing so right now. I've gotten many great insights from that on various other trips yet it seems to slip away fast if you don't continue to do this work afterward. I'm also still trying to figure out my life purpose currently. That might be a theme that will show up. I've gone into trips without any intention and others with. It seems to be hit or miss which one I like more. I guess each trip comes with its own lesson at the current development I'm at. I'd love to have some general pathway for this trip to head towards and that will likely be just exploring god more, delving into consciousness. Yet mushrooms often want to lead the way so maybe I won't have any say in the matter.

A little update: Went for a run on Saturday with a friend of mine. Was a pretty long run and felt good almost the entire time. I did stop a couple of times to massage my calf but all in all, it felt great. That's until I stopped. After I got inside this stabbing foot pain occurred and my foot basically swole up in less than 2 minutes. Could barely walk the next day. So my running has been on hold ever since that happened. I've been actively stretching each day and of course doing my flow workouts with a weighted backpack. Safe to say I'm in tip-top shape even though I'm missing the runs, those are kinda extra. It's the flow workout that's really difficult. Just finished a great flow workout just now and a cold shower. This cold shower felt oddly satisfying, the shock of it felt so pleasing like it was washing off some toxins from my mind. Been contemplating a lot for this upcoming mushroom trip I'm about to head into. So I've not been very mindful of this strongminded discipline because I know that falls apart as soon as I go in there. I've been living more spontaneously lately yet with a disciplined mind at the same time. After this mushroom trip, I'll go back to 5 AM running if my foot allows me to.

Of course I know the lovely Wim. Just came from a freezing cold shower and never felt better. Cold exposure feels like a rebirth from the ego each time. Also been running in just a t-shirt and shorts in the cold. Feels amazing!

@intotheblack Never seen these around. Looks like a good additive to food. hope you enjoy it!

Thank you brother Funny you mention it I've actually gotten more lenient in my discipline since I started it but managed to find the sweet spot. A firm grip yet not this neurotic Goggins type mentality which was what I needed to start again. It's can be quite counter-intuitive regarding spiritual work. Yet pushing the limits of your mind can also lead to some spiritual growth as well. There's definitely a lot you can learn from those seal guys, but you have to know what to take and what to leave. This one of the best tools you can have in your life, being able to learn the "good" parts of every stage and disregard the "toxic" stuff. Essentially been enjoying being more spontaneous. You have to find what works out for yourself as you said.

Please do post pictures! Very interested in what your meals look like. I'd say my diet is about 85% clean but I'm trying to get more variety to them. And you should try jogging or exercising outside in just a t-shirt. Feel really freeing to be in the cold, and your body does an excellent job at heating you up.

I put 4 teaspoons of powder into hot water, then a bunch of Himalayan sea salt, a bit of milk and that's all. Although I'm gonna be trying what the people above suggested. I've not experienced constipation from it, It's probably due to the high amount of fiber in it. Maybe you're getting too much fiber over the day?

@flume Thanks for sharing that recipe! hehe glad you like it. It's my old sheep, her name was Móra, she was gentle as a dog.

I'm about to take some mushrooms as well tomorrow. I'll be doing 2g liberty caps. I usually fast about 4-5 hours before trips, try and make it a big healthy meal with lots of protein and healthy fats. Definitely have some fruits. One of my favorite moments ever was when I bit into a lemon and lime during an LSD trip, kiwi and watermelon also tasted heavenly. I try and keep a Powerade or a Gatorade to the side as well, it depends if your body can handle those types of drinks. For me, it's like fuel. So definitely try and have a variety of fruits. Music can be good for the come-up as it can get a little wild sometimes. But once I'm deep into the trip, silence is always the preferred choice. I suggest to go with the flow and don't think about which one to choose too much. You should probably be able to drive after 8 hours, you'll know when you feel able to.

Reminds me of an MDMA trip I had this summer. Chatting with friends with 0 filter is one of the most healing things I've done. Can imagine it being similar in these ceremonies.

@Yoshy Awesome! It's absolutely great. It's not as addictive as coffee due to it having very low amounts of caffeine, the brand I buy has 0.3g per 100g of powder. Am I the only one here that drinks it hot with little milk and Himalayan salt? If I start eating it as well, it may unfortunately be too much. I treat it more like coffee or tea. Cool, cant wait to try adding those things to it. Didn't know about the muscle-building aspects of it, that's great to hear since I'm working out a lot currently, I did know it's loaded with protein tho. @Loving Radiance Yeah my friend goes to them from time to time. I bet it really enhances the effects used in a proper ceremony.

I'll have to watch the yellow episode again, it's my least-watched one, I've watched the others a bunch of times. I actually think most of these guru's are stage turquoise, but went through yellow without diving too deeply into it, yet implemented the important lessons of it. I'm not so sure yellow has so much to do with learning deep systems thinking instead of looking at things from a birds-eye view. I feel the will of studying it can deeply rely on your personality type, as you mentioned with the left-brained thinking. Observing how orange and green for example behave, in a sense they're equally as wrong because they both assume one thing over another when reality is all-encompassing. It includes all aspects. Maybe this is getting into turquoise territory, but assume yellow is more about seeing both side's views and not judging either side. I'd love some clarity on this as well.