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Wanting to maintain something will always come with a fear of losing it. Just tackle your fears and see what happens instead of trying to make it permanent.

Awesome, well done! Challenges like these are always so worth it in the end.

If what @LfcCharlie4 was saying is the case, then make sure to check if the socket has a grounding wire. Not all sockets do, if there are only two wires connecting it then it's missing the green and yellow grounding wire.

https://www.reddit.com/r/running/comments/jwhuba/running_is_saving_my_life/

Two of the biggest stars in the NBA are - Giannis Antetokounmpo Luka Dončić So I wouldn't worry about it too much. If you create amazing art, people will learn any name in order to remember you.

I've not done a morning run nor woken up at 5 AM for almost a month now. Since my leg injury happened and all the trips I've been focusing on, my mind has not been in discipline mode at all, which is fine really. I won't guilt myself like in the past for not being able to follow it 100%. Self-Love all the way baby! Anyway, I've been doing the flow workouts daily and those have been going great. But I've kind of hit a plateau with it and feel like it's time to change the exercises up a bit. I'll construct a new workout plan tomorrow and start following that one instead. I also want to start doing more sprints out in the fields. Really want to build bigger and more defined legs, like Cristiano Ronaldo level. But I always notice how when I start focusing too much on a certain look I want, the fun kind of falls out. I've always loved jumping as well, so I might add in some plyometric exercises, I have this freak of nature jumping power and have ever since I was a kid because I played basketball most of my life, so I might work on that some more. I'm not entirely sure if I'm going to start the 5 AM runs right away. I kind of want to but I'm not feeling ready just yet, maybe in a couple of days I'll just go for it. I've not forgotten how amazing it felt, like really really amazing. I'm going to really work on stretching my calves before I start again. My right calf got incredibly stiff after my leg started to hurt and I need to loosen it up. Been thinking of getting a massage gun soon, I tested one out the other day at a friend's house and it felt incredibly good. This is the workout I've been doing for the past 3 months. I started off the first month normally, then the second month with a 5kg backpack and the third with a 10kg backpack. I'll still continue the same warm up routine and stretching, I'm just changing the exercises.

Absolutely, however, I'm also cautious of not turning this into a "thing" to do on trips. I find nothing better than pure silence and staring at an object or your hand during a trip and realizing how I'm imagining it, really delving into how reality works. But often the curiosity is so strong on wanting to explore the world that it's fine for a little while.

I had an interesting insight on the trip I've been reminiscent about. It was that life purpose is not found, it's created. I thought I knew this and I did, but It really became crystal clear on the trip that it's something you create from the ground up. So you're creating something out of nothing for the love of creation, since god's highest love is creating, that ought to be true for the human experience as well. I still don't know how to go about finding what I wish to create. I'm very creative and love creating things from the ground up and have done so with many things, yet not with anything I'd consider a high passion. So here's a list of things I'd consider myself good at. Building a brand, handy with tools and construction type work, creative thinking, teaching people about independent thinking and getting them out of their limited world-view, teaching about the ego-mind and reality, storytelling?, teaching people how to achieve mastery in a sport or any interest. So where to go from here. I've got no idea if my passion lies in teaching, kind of stereotypical for people in enlightenment work, yet I really love trying to wake people up who want to wake up (even though I'm nowhere near to being able to teach it as a full-time job), would probably take around 3-5 more years of tripping and contemplating to be able to have deep enough understanding of reality to teach it well. I also love the idea of creating a health and wellness center here in my country. Where there would be classes on kriya yoga, kundalini yoga, tantra, contemplation, meditation, flow workouts, healthy eating, happiness, achieving mastery, etc. In a sense to get people to live an extremely clean and healthy life. This would take a lot of capital to create so I'd probably have to gain more success in online marketing before I'd do this. I've also thought about just continuing the marketing I was doing last year before Covid hit to in a sense escape the wage slavery and build enough capital to start something I'm passionate about. I've spent a lot of time learning it so it would be wise to continue with that. It's not my highest passion by any means but I can do it without getting depressed so maybe that's my best bet. Escaping wage slavery is the highest priority at the moment.

Lol, my best friend made this. This one features Martin Ball, and another one with Matt Kahn is on the way.

haha, I'd recommend checking Ott, Shpongle, and Bluetech for your next trip, nothing else like it.

? Squats are a great exercise, you can definitely do them. I like front squats more personally, they strengthen your core so much, which I believe is the most important section of the body, both are great.

@Adamq8 Truly is incredbly profound. It's also so crystal clear compared to mushrooms. @cuteguy haha, seems we had pretty much the same experience. @Average Investor I did listen to music for about 1 hour of the trip. I realized however that in silence, the space in which you experience time slowed so much down it felt like I was tripping forever. Most of my favorite moments on trips is in pure silence. I remember so well when I had stared at my hand for probably 40 minutes, then deciding to watch this talk show, how incredibly fast-paced it was. It was like watching it on 7x speed, same with music, so after about 5 minutes of this little entertainment, I went back to silence. This probably explains why people today have so incredibly short attention spans, felt ridiculously fast-paced. @Michal__ @Thought Art Right!

Don't get too stuck in the bodybuilding style workouts. It's not really healthy and many of the moves are not natural on the body. You can build a crazy amount of muscle by doing calisthenics, sprints, alongside some free form dumbell weights. Weighted pullups etc. Since you're 97kg, these exercises will be great to tone down your bodyfat and show some of that muscle you already have.

Yubb, I think it was fact-checked if I remember correctly by another forum member some time ago. I think he's really close to Einstein's development here, although Einstein was probably substantially deeper thinker.

This could pretty much be Yellow's take on god.

Trip Report- "Yesterday" I had my deepest experience of God I've had to date. I find myself in quite the pickle since I'll be using the word "I" a lot to describe this experience. When in fact it had no I. There was no point in which the experience took place. It was seen for what it is. The trip started off really smooth, I opened up to it and let my self dissolve into thin air. My attachments to who I am, completely vanished and I became directly conscious of infinite consciousness. Aware of myself as all of reality. The oneness was staggering. I remember at one point in the trip where I was watching a Hans Zimmer live concert. I was conscious of how I was imagining each member in the band, playing in perfect harmony, I was the crowd, the sound, the conductor, to create this marvelous piece of perfect beauty, for my own self-love. I realized how important it is to be your own authority since I'm the one running the show. I AM GOD. I can't look to anyone but myself. I stared at my hand in awe, the truth of it, the intelligence of it, the incredibly incredible design. I really met the buddha at this moment and killed him for good. After realizing all this, I wanted a little break from the realizations, so I went and watched Graham Norton's show where the rock was doing some sort of smoldering act. I was conscious of how I was him, the entertainer, I was the other guests on the couch, I was the crowd, I was god doing this all, being all those people for my enjoyment. It was one of the funniest and most beautiful things I've realized. I became aware of how the spiritual ego doesn't really consider watching the rock on a talk show as a deep realization, when in fact it's one of the most beautiful things I've ever experienced. God enjoys all levels of entertainment. Because he's performing it for himself, to create this relative realm. After this little enjoyment, I went and watched Leo's guided exercises for infinite consciousness video. I skipped the bullshit in the beginning and jumped somewhere to around minute 1:28:00 of the video. And that's where I became directly aware, that I'M LEO! And I started to speak to myself through him, I was him speaking to me, but there was no me or him, it was just the one, speaking to itself. I really enjoy watching some of Leo's videos when I'm deep into a trip, I feel like I can teach myself through him, but I was also aware of how quickly this made me lose my sense of authority, so I shut it off and stared at my hand some more. I feel like I can ground myself sometimes while tripping with Leo, but soon I will have to give all teachers up forever, to understand this all myself. I've now pretty much returned to my ego-attached-mind and can feel the attachments that keep me ignored from realizing myself as god. Although I'm still kind of aware of how I am the "external" world, it still feels "internal". I just came from the store, and being in traffic and in public felt very weird, to say the least, like it was all happening in my mind, and that's because it is. On the trip, it felt very organic and neutral to declare myself as god, however, I need to be careful of not turning this into an ego identity. I also want to applaud Leo for his work. I'll say it here and now, "he" is the most profound teacher I've ever come across, "he" has the most detailed explanation of reality I've seen any teacher teach. I say this with a grain of salt so I'm not projecting my authority unto him, yet it's the truth. But you still have to do the work on your own most importantly. You can only say this once you've taken your authority back and seen the truth with your own eyes.

LSD Trip Tonight- I've been integrating a lot since my last mushroom trip, been doing more actual spiritual work this week than in a long time, from mostly contemplation and reflection to meditation and things of that nature, also staying aware in every moment during day and night. I've noticed how much of a distraction this forum has become for me. I almost get a headache from reading through posts of people not knowing what they're talking about, and this pretend game of knowing. I don't mind it really that much, but it's just become noise to me rather than genuine help. Time to take back my own authority, something I need to remind myself of quite often. I do however enjoy reading other people's journals and posting my thoughts here to myself, they're more authentic and you get a sense of people's struggles and gripes with life and this experience we're all having, trying to figure it out to the best of our abilities. It's really easy to get sucked into this community and having it be more of a distraction than a help, and this goes for around 70% of the users here. Yet it's none of my business what other people do, this venting is more so for myself so I don't fall into the trap anymore. I'll be taking two tabs, around 380ug, which is more than enough to delve into the deepest facets of reality. I do not know where I'm going with this trip other than not backing away from fear. I might aim for how I'm constructing this reality out of my selflessness and love, and to become aware of my selfish tendencies and desires. I find LSD trips to be so purifying you don't really need any intention going in. It takes care of itself, that's to say if you accept what is and don't back down from fear, because behind fear lies the greatest love imaginable, ever-present.

Nope, never seen them in the stores I go to. Will make sure to test them if I manage to find some. I'm actually not that into chocolate believe it or not. I just really enjoy it in the form of a hot liquid.

God will love you even if you can't. God loves you just as you are.

@Average Investor Thank you, my friend! Looks delicious. I face the same problem, unfortunately.

Do you mean like state-stages similar to that in Integral Theory? It goes gross (nature) subtle (deity) casual (formless) non-dual (non-dual) All these states of awakening can be experienced and perceived through various stages of world-views. The higher you go, the "fuller" and more complete the awakening becomes.

Love is exactly the word. Don't let corruption hinder its true meaning. You will never explain awakening to the masses with a word, sentence, or a book even. People are coming closer to god when they experience love, in any aspect of the word.

I find this really fascinating because people used to tell him he would never find another passion he'd love as much as basketball, Yet he did and excelled at it.

Yeah, maybe I am.

These are all just concepts in your mind. It's not written in the stars somewhere. If shit goes south, the European Union would act as one country. I say the EU because of the alliance they have as a political power. You can't really compare a continent to a country.