Dragonfly210

Hello All, Few months ago, I had a Kundalini activation. It was a blissful experience. Suddenly, I was hit and reminded there are certain areas of my life that still need healing. I worked through my shadow again and understand healing is cyclical. Had the opportunity tried Kundalini yoga too. During the yoga session, I felt kriya moved from my lower body up to the left side of my temple. Since, I haven't felt pressure or a donut wrapped around my head. The bliss is gone. More events from the past are starting to arise for healing, as I'm making headway towards the future of changing my life. This movement is faster than what I'm use too. Before the Kundalini awakening, I've went through my 'dark night'. Process much loss and grief in various areas of my life. Lost my child. Major health issue and thought I was going to die but, recovery right away once I went vegetarian. It was as if I had to move on from my old life and let go. Toxicity was very clear and I couldn't be unseen. Ultimately, my initial spiritual awakening was very intense and traumatizing. I'm learning, my symptoms aren't as intense compared to others. Not that I'm trying to compare but, just trying to understand because so many have experience severe health issues and other life changes. Is it possible because I've done the work that I might be experiencing less physical symptoms? I wonder if the Kundalini energy temporarily dormant? I still feel slight discomfort on my lower back. It's faint. I did not experience this shoot energy out of the crown/head. Or, other intense sensation of snake like movement. Maybe, something will happen later on. I don't know. I'm just curious about this phenomenon and wonder if anyone has also experience a lighter version of the Kundalini. Or, maybe you had a spiritual awakening first then, received a Kundalini activation later on like me. It's like having a new roommate in my body. I'm trying to go with it and flow. But, it can be scary at times. Fear that it'll be like my first awakening experience and all the loss I went through. I didn't expect this Kundalini activation and did not chase after it either. Don't even know why it happened. Or, maybe I'm not suppose too. Thanks!~

Hello~ Last night, had this weird dream where a woman sent me healing and activated my my third eye and my body with kundalini energy. In the dream, I remember feeling the activation. I've been healing my trauma for some time now. I was able to get my subconscious mind to response to my healing work that I've done, confirming my emotional releases. The next morning, I woke up with a sore lower back along with head tingling. I suddenly cried uncontrollably about my ego dying. This was totally unexpected. I don't feel the bliss and feel something is still stuck inside of me. I'm in this weird place. Has anyone gone through this and can shed some light?

Hello there- I’m quite disappointed today. I’ve attempted to set boundaries with a very close girlfriend of mine. I’ve known her for over 20 years. I’m currently pregnant and going through IVF. The hormone medication is no joke and I can’t help but to go through the blues. My girlfriend and I talk about all types of things. We’re familiar with each other’s past. I come from an abusive home, which my Mother is a narcissist. I’ve had to endure physical and emotional and her selfish behavior my whole life. I’ve confided in her and told her stories of how my Mother would Use to physical abuse me and would allow me to be happy with anything in my life. The other we were just texting and she’s been great. Checking up on me everyday. We were going back and forth then suddenly, she brings up how my Mom would abusive me when I was young. ? Then, I responded quickly with, I’ve been working through this and processing the healing has been tough. I’m at peace with it and accept her for who she is. I told her my Mother is an Orphan. I can’t expect too much from a women that never knew what it felt like to receive love from her parents or people in general. She didn’t stop. Then she told me. Well, there’s no excuse. ? At that point I started crying and she had no idea. I told her, I don’t want to talk about this anymore. It’s making me very sad. She apologized and said she’ll stop. Then, I got emotional and told her. I need to move on from his. I have a void I will never be able to fill and her being an orphan is the only I got. And requested for her to never bring it up again. She responded and apologized again. She said that we have often discussed our past and it was okay. I told her we’re older now, and would rather be honest with how I feel about things. She appreciated it had thanked me for being honest with her. That evening, we stop texting. Next day, no text from her. I know she’s upset. Probably because she felt this came from nowhere. The difference this time is, she brought up about my past. It’s usually me, that would bring it up. In other words, we would bring up our own stuff. Or, if she’s was in a negative space, I would try to be supportive and move her out of the negativity. I don’t know what happened to her this time. She just wanted to destroy my mother. I’ve never heard that from her before. Usually when I say, I’m at peace with it or I’ve accepted things for what they are. She’ll stop. I’m sad because I don’t think she sees what she’s doing. Plus, why would you bring up stuff about the past to someone that’s pregnant and on hormones meds?!? I’m disappointed because I know she’s upset at me and thinks I over reacted. I do cherish my relationship with her and good friends are hard to find. But, there’s a line she shouldn’t cross. I don’t know what’s going to happen after this. I’m sad because this will change the relationship. she has a history of being not being straightforward about how she feels about things. But, any perspective would be greatly appreciated.

Hi Everyone- I'm doing my best to navigate through the dark night and it's been tough. I'm recovering from years of giving too much of myself and learning to form boundaries with my family and friends. I have lost a lot on the way, which was very sad and disappointing. I feel this blockage in my heart and it's hard to make new friends and even relate to people. I'm in a awkward place where I doing my best to move forward in life, however I'm not at my best. It's these sudden highs and lows. It's like I'm totally aware of peoples feelings and thoughts and so overwhelming. I realized some people can be nasty and selfish. I have this opportunity to create a new community but I can't relate to people anymore. I know being a hermit is okay, but I also know there's a limit and it came become unhealthy. Which is why I hired a therapist. I wanna go back to loving people again and thrive in my business, but it's so hard because of where I'm at now... Any advice or success stories would be greatly appreciated!!

Hello everyone- I wanted to send everyone that contributed to this thread an update on my progress. I reviewed everyones message and it was helpful! So I found my heart back! I did the breathe work, meditation mantra and I found there was so much emotions within that I didn't deal with. I see the duality in people and in life and I'm choosing love. I am aware and can see. I am aware of my manifestations good or bad, it is life. I'm in a good place and finally peace. Don't know what's next, but I trust I'll be fine. Thank you all!

Psychics are definitely real. We all have psychic powers and can be channeled and practiced. There are classes out there to help develop these gift within us. There's another dimension out there and I've experienced it. So, I know its real.

I'm on a spiritual journey and went through the awakening. Now, working through my shadow side and healing old wounds that's lasted for so many years. I'm working on intergrating my shadow side. I came upon this video that explains the ego is not your best friend and is an illusion. Then, my Reiki teacher tells me the ego helps us conduct our daily life, such as, drive, wash dishes and so on... I heard that if you do words of affirmation to build confidence, then we're coming from a place of lack?!! I want to find the truth about the ego because there's just so much information out there. It's hard to trust and can become confusing. Seems like people have different belief systems about it and I just want to find the one that works for me. Any perspective would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Hi everyone- I was at my Monday Yoga class and had a great yoga session. Toward the end when the instructor guided us to do our meditation. I had my fingers at the Shuni Mudra position. Thumb at my ringer finger right below the tip. Then suddenly, my finger started to twitching uncontrollability in that position. I relaxed my hands and put it back in Shuni Mudra position again and continued to twitching until we were guided to our vinyasa at the end. Never experienced that before. Can anyone shed some light?

That was beautiful! It's a gift to experience the light and dark and both do not exist without each other. I struggle with the need to be perfect. And came just in time when I needed to hear it. Thank you! =))

Thank you so much for your kind and motivating words. I took your suggestion to heart and practice right away. It has been working! I can feel the tingling sensations. I currently meditate for 15 to 30 minutes per day. I walk everyday. But, yoga is on and off. I've always wanted to try Kundalini yoga. Maybe I need to change things up now. I shall push through and be patient with myself. =) Namaste!

Hello everyone! I went through an awakening at the beginning of the year. Had a cancer scared then suddenly a moment of bliss came in and I finally understood what it means to fully love myself. I truly felt that love in my heart. I miss it! Unfortunately, the feeling of bliss slowly dissipated. Started taking action and learning how to love myself and exploring my spiritual gifts that I've denied for so long. Since then, everything has changed. I started seeing people 'narcissist' for who they really care. I realized I need reciprocity in my relationships. I'm unable to relate to people around me anymore. Now, I'm in this awkward place. It's like all the issues and pain I have never dealt with is coming back to haunt me now. I feel like I'm going through the dark night of the soul? I'm not sure what I'm going through. I hired a therapist just to make sure I'm taking care of myself. I'm finding that as if I don't know who I am anymore.... A part of me knows that I'm being shown my ego for a reason. Possibly, so then I make the necessary changes in my life. I had a sales background and socializing would be a strength for me and now it's not. I am more socially awkward than anything... This is only one example as to what I'm going through. It as also been a lonely journey for me. Feeling lost. Has anyone gone through this can help shed some light? Maybe share your experience? Anything would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Thank you for creating this post about being socially awkward. I have been a hermit since doing this work and funny thing is I didn't even know what kind of work I was doing. I was just trying to figure myself out. Then suddenly, I had a cancer scare in the beginning of the year. That was apart of my spiritual awakening process. I finally knew what I met to love myself and completed felt it in my heart. The moments of bliss left after a few weeks and I'm being on the path to find out who I really am now and embracing my spiritual gifts that I been denying my whole life. I have 10+ sales experience and feels like it all went down the tubes in 1 night. I have been socially awkward since. So, I totally understand what you're going through. I even hired a therapist to make sure I stay grounded because I have no idea what's going on... I wish you the best of luck. All I know is, I've gotten more answers in this forum then most places, so you're in the right place to ask these questions.

I use to be a happy go lucky person, bright and positive. Now, I can see the sadness in my eyes and body language. My therapist told me I went through a lot of grief a short period of time. Shedding the old skin is a part of it as well. You hit it right at the nail when you say, "Like there's no walls between you and the world." I just feel so vulnerable. I do see the falseness in it now and it's like I'm hurting myself over and over again. I'm learning not to have any expectations. It's been tough but I'm moving along the best I can. How long did it take you get out of it?

It feels like I just need to figure out who I am now and just start from there. Make sense with what you're saying. Bliss won't last but that's everything is life. Thank you for your support and advice. =)

I appreciate you bring up how I can sense it from others. My senses feel like they have been amplified. Sometimes, I can even sense what the other person is feeling or thinking. I'm an empath and sometimes it can be a curse. I'm working on not passing judgement because I know it's unfair to the people around me. There's times when I can clearly see the persons insincerity and I feel sad for them because they are a beautiful person and they just don't know it. Bottomline line is, I want to go all the way. I want to be a better person...I'm on my way.. Thanks for your advice!