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How can you be certain that the trip which was not very strong was 375mcg? Have you firmly established this to be the case? Personally, having experienced verified doses of LSD, I would abhor the idea of consuming 400+mcg of LSD alone, even if fully fed!

"Words dissemble, words be quick, words resemble walking-sticks. Plant them, watch them grow; watch them waver so". @Mu_ - good stuff.

I will try. If I were to ask you, right now, to just sit with your eyes closed and discern how you are feeling by "observing" the visceral tone of your present condition before labelling it, you might notice a sense of contraction in your guts/chest which, depending on its nature for you, might lead to the conclusion that you are feeling bored, tense, interested, engaged etc, ie the mind has labelled it thus based on a life-time of recognising it, and a familiarity with how ones subsequent thoughts would "confirm" this. Once identified, note that ones thoughts (of boredom, tension, interest, engagement) build upon the pre-existing feeling, perhaps just amping it up, or modifying it in some way, but however this is, it is in keeping with ones preliminary identification. I am pointing out how thoughts and feelings are intrinsically linked, sustaining each other via a type of feedback. Now the almost constant persistence of a visceral tone and its ebbing and flowing in perfect conjunction with ones inner dialogue is in essence what the enduring ("irrefutable") sense of self is, a process which can be recognized with practise as almost mechanical; the thought part is what makes it "real". On a hefty dose of psychedelic, the feedback loop is distorted as more fluid thoughts evoke a magnified and less "well known" (ie novel, unfamiliar) perception of the visceral tone, which will further distort the subsequent thoughts setting up a type of jagged resonance within the loop, which at some point produces uncertainty and.....psychic chaos has been seeded. Calling it an experience is perhaps inaccurate; it is more of a state of being as when within it, there is no perspective to cast upon it. Being alert to ones visceral tone and how it can colour ones sense of well-being, which includes over different time-frames, means one pays much more attention to ones mindset before deciding to partake of a psychedelic, and an appreciation of the feedback loops construction allows one to tolerate the novel feelings they evoke without the need for reifying the direction of the subsequent thoughts, which is a skilled way of surrendering/navigating, and when "sees" that the feelings are always in flux one is able to just float with the changing nature of it all.

SSRIs are in some ways a triumph of marketing over substance eg they have not been demonstrated to be more effective than the older tricyclic antidepressants but do have the benefit of being much less lethal in overdose and have a less broad range of side-effects. This is not to understate the side-effects that many do experience especially in the initial few weeks of use (gastrointestinal effects being particularly common). Certainly they do help many people (but so do the tricyclics) and emotional blunting is "regarded as a good result" in others when the spiky edges of ones depressed mood become smoothed out, but this is not a restoration to a "happy state" but more like an attenuation of the misery. Depression seems to be a label attached to a constellation of subjective/observable features and elicits a reflex response of the application of strategies from a fixed list without a consideration of how these features are produced. IMO, these include life experience and programming, biology, neurochemistry, genetic aspects etc, but we live in a quick-fix, do-what-you-can time where it becomes expedient (but superficial) to smear filler to the cracked plasterwork rather than evaluate the underlying brickwork for problems.

I hope the Deep Divers manage to come up for a breath of fresh air from the sea of slurry this guy is spouting. I for one will be glad to have my silicon deficiency corrected via intramuscular injection of 0.004mg of microchip. I communicate this to you from the bunker I took residence in back in 2012 after Mr McKenna convinced me./s

Agreed. One of the features of psychedelics is ones (egoic) sense of smartness prior to a thought-loop event has no conception of what "being" un-smart is, until mired within it. And that is utterly harrowing. Trip-sitters should always be close by/available if dosing high, regardless of how much psychedelic practise one has done particularly with the longer acting compounds.

And what if one does not have a meditation practice prior to the trip? The paradox of the thought-loop is that the attempt to keep a rein on things morphs into an autonomously functioning runaway train, spiralling into subjective madness. Taking up a meditative practise is often one of the lessons learned if one intends to trip again. Nevertheless, it is a valuable learning experience, IME.

Really good description. Such an experience has to be had to really grok the torment involved of perpetually being back in the same place, knowing that the same essential agony is to unfurl again...and again... I have had one similar experience and it changes how one "interacts" within the psychedelic space henceforth forever, which is very very instructive. It fulfils the criteria for an acute psychotic episode pretty well, and has IME/O bugger-all to do with any God realization but does beautifully demonstrate how ones thoughts only appear to be under your control, and "just surrender" becomes almost impossible to do without guidance from an experienced sitter, or other external source.

Dissociation comes in a variety of flavours; the salvia dissociation has an added dysphoric component for many users which is distinct from the dissociation provided by stuff like ketamine etc, and makes it a less sure-fire method for a "good time". To qualify as a disorder, a psychiatrist would want to see other "criteria being fulfilled" such as an adverse effect on several domains of functioning, or causing subjective distress. Assuming this is not the case then at times we all dissociate a little, and ultimately, if not disorderly, it is just another label.

You are right; some do getter lesser effects which are conceivable. However, linguistic imprecision aside, the overwhelming majority do get what I attempted to describe when vaporizing enough of a dose. In the same way that generally speaking, most DMT users get impressive visuals. Outliers always exist but their experience should be seen as that, out-lying, and is a poorer yardstick for discussing what the majority experience. Maybe vaporizing some 5 MeO DMT at an appropriate dose could teach you something.

I'm glad you benefitted from the trip. Something to consider- do you think having your mind "pre-loaded" with Baches work in the week prior to your experience influenced what you experienced? Psychedelics do affect ones suggestibility IMO/E. Can you comment more on what is new for you now, post-experience, in terms of pestilence, famine and rape? Is Jesus' crucifixion Truth or a story, and can we be sure either way? Your very last sentence suggests a keenness to get tripping again. That in itself is worth a good ponder.

I love that turn of phrase. Maybe add a version of this to the sites' disclaimer?

A good dose of 5 MeO DMT utterly abolishes the self in a way which is inconceivable. As the self re-assembles it immediately tries to conceptualise what has just occurred/been missed. Usually this is in line with ones deeply held assumptions but for some, it is in-line with their hopes leading to scripting of the experience. Like labelling it "God" or "infinite Consciousness". Applying no words to it is less off the mark.

Great vid. It lacked only one thing- the obligatory "ta-da!".

220 milligrams and you wouldn't be going anywhere, for days.

No contradiction. A) I wouldn't. Many people handle/stash their substances in ways/locations which could result in compression. B) Compressing it reduces the surface area exposed to degrading factors thereby increasing longevity (worth it if one has freebase and aims to keep it for a good length of time). Avoiding any chunks for consistency of dosing needs to be stressed more.

IME there is more to it than batch of substance. It also depends on storage and any conditions it has been exposed to. If its been in your back pocket in a baggie and you have sat on it, compaction will result. This is a slightly facetious example but it illustrates a point. Using a pill-press, it is possible to compress 500mg of 5 MeO DMT freebase into a pill-shape the size of a tablet of paracetamol. A tiny crumb shaved off from this can be over 15mg. Having seen this first-hand, I would always suggest finding a consistent way of calculating the dosage beyond visual inspection and using it every time.

Be aware that a 5mg pharmaceutical pill contains 5mg of the drug plus a load of fillers which bumps up the weight. So 5mg (or any mg) pill will weigh more. Microscoops are hit and miss depending on the compactness of your 5 MeO DMT. If using a scale such as the Gemini, which is pretty good if used with a couple of things in mind, educate yourself on the concept of "percentage errors". Such a scale will be more inaccurate at the lower doses (<10mg) but if you place a cigarette paper (small size=49-53mg) on the pan, note the weight and how it differs if at all between 3-5 weighings and use the average (mean) as the baseline weight of the paper ("X"mg), then add small amounts of 5 MeO onto the paper to get to the dose you want ie X+10mg if 10mg 5 MeO is the dose chosen.

^^ that is some epic honesty and high-level awareness on display. The ban-hammer is not waved often here, fortunately. The stuff presented/discussed here is a little too other-worldly when viewed through the lens most bear, and the key implications/notions/limitations of language can be a significant stumbling block. Such is how it is. A vid on "Language" might be a useful one to shoot, especially as the vids are composed of it.

Ibogaine is a different beast than the usual agents; its more of a confrontation with the self rather than an agent to abolish or transcend the self. Taking it to awaken is probably misguided, but to really plumb the depths of ones core "structure" its very effective. One needs to carefully consider ones motivation for undergoing the experience which is heavy duty and cathartic. The physical risks are also not be understated, and it requires more than just being physically fit. Certain bloodwork and an ECG are essential pre-requisites before embarking down this road safely.

If you consider Peter Ralstons' path to his enlightenments then his stance makes perfect sense. A penchant for contemplation, exposure at a formative age to Far Eastern traditions and disciplines, a degree of instability of tenure (ie moving around quite a bit) were all formative for him. For others, including Carlos Castenada (if his books are believed), their upbringing solidifies thought patterns which require a more "aggressive" approach to crack the solidity and open up new possibilities. An important thing to note is that in The Teachings of Don Juan the 3 drugs used were psilocybin (P Mexicana), mescaline via Peyote and tropane alkaloids via Datura species (?Inoxia/Stramonium). The latter is more deliriant than psychedelic when compared to the other two.

Dementia, medically-speaking, is not a single monolithic entity and can have many different aetiologies, signs and symptoms. Add into the mix ones pre-morbid "sense of self" and the different ways the dementing processes erode this and you have a very broad spectrum of symptomatology.

The person (self) makes a wonderful show/pretence of trying to get rid of the person (self) but it is just a ruse, albeit convincing in its display. It is just a means of re-entrenching itself in a new costume. Even the watching of the circus is more posturing of the self, appearing to deny its "produce" (the thoughts) and not investing them with belief. The self would "sell its granny" in order to ensure it persists. Choosing not to believe, whilst under psychedelics, is paradoxically adding to the mass of the self although on the face of it its activity claims to be performing a subtraction (the not-believing). Beyond the bells and whistles of psychedelics, which is great, really getting the best out of them requires ancillary methods. I am doubtful that simply taking enough psychedelics will produce an enduring or grounded awakening without them. Thanks!

I reckon this is one of the limitations of psychedelics. However, this can be a useful springboard to a kind of investigation into the /"process"components which result into a "self" being formed, which, IMO/E, is kind of like a harmonic "humming" which gets reified when invested with attention.

Great question/pointer! 5mg vaporized freebase is a "betwixt and between" dosage, and is still pretty impressive and potentially unsettling. Another 3-5mg and the questions cease.