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Since last 2 and 3 years I am finding this difficult to be consistent or follow my routine. I know it's long time to be on track but I don't know I feel so lost. This all started after OCD and depression , I mean due to some issues I got OCD and then fell into depression. I am still suffering but it's not that much pain now. I moved to another city (away from my parents) for studies 6 years back and I couldn't lead myself to the right track or progress also my academics was getting bad . I couldn't realize the impact of it on my mind, my heart was full of regrets and sadness , then I suffered through OCD(o) also . I used to be in top list during my school and after that I just lost it. Well, I tried to come out all of this and to some extent I could make it. But all these things have changed me , I am not the same person as I used to be. Now I am preparing for my job but when I study my whole past , regrets and the sadness deep down run in front of my eyes.and I can't stop it. This make me feel like I am not doing good or not good. My parents helped me alot I this but after all this is my journey and I have to go through it. How can I come out of my past and again be consistent for my work? Thank you ?

@7thLetter thank you!

@Shiva thank you ? Yes , I think That will be more easy if I try to build one habit at a time.

@KyleR thank you ? I think I should try this , rewards and punishments because at the end it's me only who has to get my work done . So it's better to make it interesting.

@ajasatya hey , I think I am clear about that but as I said that I don't feel good after things run through my mind . But yes our reason for doing something is the only thing that keep us going .

@JohnnyBravo thank you ? But I want to know that even if I get these things in my mind while studying , I will have to continue? And how Victim mode is ego strengthening?

Same thing happened with me , I also loved and respected them ( somewhere deep down I still do) .and it all started Seven , eight years back , initially I could not recognise their behaviour (I think because of so much trust or love) but they(uncle & aunt) used to put me down. even in front of their children they say anything to us. I used to feel bad and get disturbed by this. But now whenever they say anything bad I answer them... answer in a gracefully manner , I clear the thing by repeating it but in my words . And believe me it doesn't make my image down.we should be clear and make other clear about others if this is affecting us.

What is marriage? Just a relationship or something beyond?

@Nahm hey , I want to know that how freedom works in marriage life ? I mean if both get involve so much into each other ( even in working). Does that effect this?

@RawJudah ,@Nahm thank you ? I think it's a both side effort because there are two involved in.

@ajasatya ,@Salvijus thank you? I think I got some idea..