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focus on talking about you, talk so much about how you cure yourself than the idea will enter his/ her mind. imagine that you're yourself, but never talk directly to the ego as "wrong/bad" their will be resistance and block. Don't say, do, or should, or only for yourself. like I want people to self reflect on their tastes. I'll never mention it, what I'll do is emphasise every moment within myself that will help the one looking at me mirroring itself. the thing is becoming a mirror. Like when I want to see people correct their mistakes, and are too stupid to self reflect, I'll abuse at the next situation to show "why I was stupid" by pointing at me as stupid, some people will self reflect, of course it doesn't work for low orange and under. This work at a high orange/green level, someone who already understand there is a bit more than his narrowed perspective. In fact what I do is putting a finger on my own devilry, to makes them " ha ha but me too I do that :! "

of course I have gaps, and I m flawed and my perception is biased on a basic, and you have the right to point it at me, especially me, I m feeding myself on criticism, bad & good, I love them all, doesn't mean I give authority to all feedback neither ( I have my ego shield ! ) I m always learning, even if I clearly see the connection of "one" in arts. Most learning is connected anyway I like to remix visual work, I did a bit of web design when I was young, so I know how to use the tools, and I have some faith in my taste as a whole. ( that's why I know how shitty is my work hahaha, I m very critical of myself ( not in a bad way, I transcended that, but that's important to strive for better ) ) Clearly I have always loved science and how does that work, I can see the meta connection of all things, and want to see how theory relates to "reality".

I m currently learning 3D I have already learned a bunch of stuff. ( photoshop, indesign, illustrator, première pro, after effect ( basic ), ableton live, Zbrush ) - Study design & movies at school. ( no college degree though, only the basic one, that was paid by my country > no debt ) - english ( I m french ) / HTML / CSS - learning physics, psychology, sociology, and practical philosophy/self actualisation & a bunch of everything. - read a lot about biology/neuroscience/chemistry/system thinking. my goals on very long terms are : - buying a computer at 2000€ ( for twitch streaming art : sculpting 3D / movies making / music creation ) - getting a job - my high high goal is having a "conscious business" and not having "need" to corrupt it. I need your view to reflect, thanks guys.

Miam finaly an epic joe rogan

That explain aswell why LSD probably stay 'activable' 2 weeks After or a month too. To my experience anyway. Probably not permanent but I read story of problem related psychédélic staying up to multiple month. Your body will probably go back to normal. But I would stay away from psychédélic & drug for at least 3 months.

there is no dissociation, you've already dissociated yourself, what you call "me" is a dissociation, what they point to is association. you're currently separated.

@Leo GuraGura holy jeeez you were talking metaphysical réalisation I had a Big Big one right now. I see your perspective and have seen my entire life stream quickly. Surely that's a projection from me-experience. Good good I see a lot of things I was talking how chirurgy could be a failure when you only modify one part of the body. Because it was meant to function as a whole system. You can transcend some energy but sooner or later. What's is in matter balance itself to function. It's more clear now' there is just more depth

@flowboy Define properly 'value' in context though ! What is of value ?

I had one, I m still full of shit as hell.

indeed, as your group of friend actualized.org is a cult about debunking cult

what if even this truth of "nothingness/void" was just another way to bullshit yourself. there is nothing else but mind, even when you stop what we call by limitation a thought, maybe even having no prior judgement is a judgement in itself upon reality, that means, that whatever, and no matter how you wish to live, it will always be a lie from the ego, layer of lies, with stronger lies to cover the last one. REALITY is undescriptible, because it's a huge concept with many ways to interact with it. what if ego never existed what if truth is no matter what, always bullshit, but I mean ALL truth, even science, all of reality is bullshit, absolutely all ideas, even ideas, even concept of concept. there is no advaita, no spirituality, no religion, no nothing, all of it, is a story, an imaginary story. we are just actor in a 5D void world, even this sentence is a pure comic story, cause everything is, eating, shitting, planning, thinking, not thinking, but even nihilism, sollipsism, I litteraly mean, everything is fakery, everything is fake news. the world is scam and your brain a fake news. and the new layer of bullshit need to be stronger everytime https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dVa6_e9FWw

you're looking for relief, not awakening, that's just an idea leo has been giving you. ( or someone else ) depending when you are, "awakening" to a high degree could be dangerous, especially without grounding But for relieving pain there is a lot of good way / mantra / meditation / yoga /// mild psychedelics doses / mild dose of mdma. I would do more work on facet of self-love + love for nature + relaxation. getting more knowledge, while remaining skeptical of all the knowledge.

very interesting, I like his approach, reading slowly triptamine palace. ( I only did LSD / mushroom ). This is interesting, but I would probably have to prepare myself for it, I give me like 10 years for washing myself before putting my ball'z into the fire. if anyone would point to me toward material that I should be aware/ ready for, I like the no bullshit approach, but I m still even more skeptics, in fact, the more I know, the more I start to believe absolutely no one and nothing. But I m still on the side of believing that there is a god/source, whatever, unless it is a beautiful metaphor. But LSD was strong enough to makes me doubt, I was already understanding all his stuff about "spiritual ego", but that's a fine and experienced view

there is period in life, some month are better for me. there is too many variables to study anything, and there is aswell what I call the "placebo physical expectation". it means that whatever you expect from something, your behavior/mood will change according to the faith you put in this thing in the first place. like unconsciously if you believe meat will be lower than veggies, the chances that you experience a better week on veggies could be placebo. there is no fucking way to know what's good is the ultimate knowing of this work. after yellow and trying to study 200 study in cross ways, you understand, there is no fucking way to understand anything really, only the instinct gathered from experience data ( cross data with imaginary myth about how is reality / fake data ) you could live well and better while eating meat from a billion of reasons, and die from a vegan/fruit diet in 1 month. there is an infinity of variable. The only way, is not a month on meat or vegs. it would cost a lifetime of trial & error, and your food always change, your way of consumming it, the others lifestyle you got with it. for me I stopped worrying about anything, I just avoid what my belly tell me not to do, I m even sure that with the bunch of variable that exist you could eat junk food all your life and avoid a cancer from doing it, there could be a case of one in 1000 people, but maybe you'll be the guy who die from a veg diet and would be healthy from mcdonald. for me there is no way to reach the ultimate truth, and even when you got the best diet, what if your super apples start to become toxic from a random toxic rain in the country where you harvest them. the number of variable is such that you don't need to bother, but my guess is just, avoid junk food, only because the source is trash without a study. BUT even what we call junk food in France is not equal to junk food in USA, for instance our meat respect way more labels and quality, even for junk. ogm wheat isn't legal.. etc.. so all our basic products are differents. eating a mcdonald in France is healthier than in USA, but it doesn't mean it's good. this is a truth that makes me vomit on myself, you can't fucking know a thing for sure about reality, we create theoric model, only for expectation, not for prevision, there is no way to know how reality perfectly works, even when we will get an AI working quanticly 10 000 times better than our current computer, cause there will still be, missing data, cause we cannot reach an infinite number of crossed simulated experience. even if a theoric model work for 10 years, doesn't mean that we got to the essence of why it is working, could be working because of data we are not aware of but that still hold in the "real" side of things ( not at the perception of human level ), even if we hold a map in hands that seams to generate a predictible reality, that still will be filtered through the thing that isn't a machine, the human perception basic (bias) a reproductible experience in perception doesn't mean it is an absolute truth. Mean it's a "relative effective truth" that seams to work so far ;that is a better way to talk about science experience.

yes it is like that, the matrix of our mind makes it like that. we cannot prove this is the first ground reality neither, and if our minds are simulated in some sorts of ways. but anyway, black holes apparently are glitch. no one can prove this "reality" isn't a simulation, but that ain't a problem.

relative, projection, there is no types, all observation is biased because of "being human", all words point to organic self reflective meaning acquired through a biased experience ( doesn't mean it's a wrong one, means you can't ) as we are not machine, we cannot analyse anything rightly, we only cherry pick data that fuse with our expectation. I don't believe in any mbti anymore.

I m not you, but if I were you I would try this : - Talk to people "online" or in real life, trivial things ( grounding ) - Playing stimulating video game the day. ( rpg is better if you can ) ( something that takes your mind off yourself ) I mean, a bit of inconsciousness stuff could help rebalance. exhaust yourself the day, and at night, use some plants pills ( in very few quantity ) do a hot shower before bed, try to find some good asmr ( one that relax you , try the guy happyasmr, I find him rythmic and smoothing ) Sorry if I cannot help, I think if it is PTSD, try really to relax, but not to think of it, I mean, get out of the self actualizing work and be a "normal human" just for the time you feel better, don't try to expand the work or to get "more knowledge". Try to have no food inside your belly before bed, don't do sport before bed, and avoid stimulant ( sugar, coffee, thea, vitamin pills ) ( or maybe coffee could create a grounding reaction, will depend, could be in low dose - useful. ) And another exercice, don't try to rationalize what happen'd or to overthink what you're and why it is this way, all the blabla, just try to be "stupid" for a while, things should be fine if you don't push yourself over the edge. You already jumped on a big peak, scale down ! I think 5MEO is probably heavy without a real grounded work ( aside all psychedelics, data, life grounding ) - others facets of life, ( but I just presume ).

Hello nice post. That's a good observation. But when you let go within' you'll see it wasn't even needed to have one 'purpose'. A 'purpose' become illusion and projection. Cause life will unfold. We should have goals for fun if that make us laugh but not cling to them intoxicated. letting life experience tell us the truth above what the egoic mind project as 'maximizing happiness goals'. Otherwise it feel like you start to become intoxicated by your own ideas and not reaching them result mostly in frustration.

You clearly never did psychedelics. obviously. Or hardcore méditation.

you can try something, but that's dangerous, I would abuse for one day. But like abusing. Like 10 packs. Smoking all day, never stop. But that's on you if you do it. This can lead your body to rework it, and after 2 hours, you should be sick of smoking, and you should keep doing it. ( that would be my method, it worked with alcohol ! was sick 2 days ! asked blessing all day for not suffer that much, now I m very soft with it, not drunk since years. ( only once, but it wasn't my attempt ) it was like a vaccin though ) I think that if you can disgust yourself with it, it could work. ( but that's on you if you choose that radicality ) being sick aswell is a good way to stop addiction, when you're too sick too smoke. Get a little cold haha, if forces you to purge yourself. that's the "violent method" other is just reflecting like @Charlotte. but sometimes it's not enough, if you can, focus only on the idea of "why I should quit", meditate and contemplate, another good way and less violent. it will maybe take weeks, but in the end if you mind focus on solution you'll find your own custom answer.

no free will, no karma enjoy yourself, of course I m not sayin there is no "laws" in this reality. What you give, you'll get back.

hey that's good, you'll find a lot without doing anything anyway. so keep not looking, they will look for you if the world want it.

believe it or not, I took 3 approach to 10/10 girls and I got their number always. ( but didn't fuck any of her, cause I was virgin and after approaching, I didn't know the "phase 2", was too nerdy ) Once I even got a number while being on a big rain. All my friend was "lelelel you will not speak to her" ( musical party in the town ) I watched them, and took my "it's me the boss", and just appeared and ask her if she appreciated to come to this kind of event/music type. etc .. confidence is confidence, you can train it, or you can find it. if you break all the limit and thought story, you can jump in the void with full trust.

or do like me, find a girl more logical that has been studying science or a "logic domain" find a girl that is high consciousness @Leo Gura be 'racist' about low consciousness girl, if you have to dumb down yourself, don't stay with this girl. For me it's about someone who will improve or debate ideas to improve, I do with friends, but I do with my girlfriend, I m not saying "debate" I mean talking high subjects, like vision of life etc.. We all talk stupid things without consciously trying, I m not saying "be very serious" but just be you, and if it doesn't work, fuck it. Don't just give a bad interpretation in early game. Keep the high stuff for the mid/end game. Early you should be yourself, but the best flowing part of yourself. sure my girl has still problem with instagram and buying useless shits , but she is 20 and already very dev. ( green lurking yellow ) she want mushroom trip and try LSD, so I believe, I don't need to tell her something about materialism, all this will sound jokery in the futur when she will do it. I just needed this kind of openness, cause myself is still growing up. ( I m not her teacher )