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just to know, aside the self inquiry, when the mind is still, do you keep doing it everyday ? what did you get from it / (keep having) ? aside cleaning and awareness of the subconscious, do you still daily practice ? would you say it gives you something in term of the physical / control / flow ? Could you describe with honesty what it gives you outside the self inquiry awareness, in terms of "physical/material" does it provide you with a flow of energy in the brain ? a sense of peace ? a mental clarity on your thoughts ? whatever is your experience with it, it means something for me to read you. I m really focusing on people that have awakened their spinal and keep doing the work, thanks you for your perspective

will work on my own vispassana, I still practice the what westerner call meditation > sitting still / mind totaly empty / see what happen, kind of self inquiry I enjoy my hot / prog cold shower aswell, my thing though. I m doing my thing at my own pace thanks.

theanine / thea apparently block the receptor that ask you to go for nicotine ( I read it from science rs, you can find on internet easy I suppose ) it worked for me, and I played video games in my home the whole week, whatever, I do not play after this week, I choose something not too much addictive as a game, but enough to not think of taking down people around.

it's not that I m adhd, is that I m too smart to be an endurant slave, I like too many things, and not choosing is my choice. it's not my OCD, it's just that I like to grind until I know everything everything about a subject, I like being an autistic learner. why would I makes monney anyway if I m never happy right now, I'll see what my body do, if that's living right, if that's dying alright. no one will tell me what I m, I can define myself, but whatever the essence of my true self, I accept what I m personnal note : I stopped being a man identifying as a trans mental meca lesbian

I only do it when I m overpowered, so yes. but when I do it while on love it's different. It's the same, but not from a place of craving. when you have been aroused all the day by your girl and cannot see her before many days ?

Thanks for your view joseph as for my part on the physical : I'll keep doing nothing sitted sometimes, will depend on the context though. I m sure there is some actuality aside awakening, I like to visualize my own thought and see what my mind is up to. edit on your edit : me too I do that with music

this kind or this kind I can turn around & spin, I always go back to this essence. Fight & Mystical melancolia. Sorry it wasn't meant only for you, I think there is a phenomena, the more you hang out with someone, the more you deeply connect to his essence, no matter what you use as a form to be understand. music always start to resonate, didn't you see the echo of your resonance shape your lifes around the being that completes your own path ? or even, symbiotically met your path. I just need to write music to ear all the musician comes & hang out with me, omg I m crying, it's always the case no matter what I do. Musician always have been around me since the start. You all my brothers, fuck shit damn, fuck

I was joking. I got you super enlightened. Still I want to explore in actuality and don't deny society. Means I do what my body is doing. And doing things and project is my fun litteraly. I just do them as they comes to my reality nothing alienating only love. I take precious love in doing and understanding or observe. Just like leo liked to push concept talk every Sunday and become aware he liked to talk. I like to strive/understand art etc.. my fun I keep using balanced words cause I don't see the point in being over mystical. Instinctive talk. I do it. But I accept that my past life identity takes back in his essence and don't play a better rôle than mine

Not true. Cause I don't use porn and think of the girl I m with. Then take a very deep breath and feel the hand pushing on the skin. Each stroke making me a bit more conscious. I don't use porn mainly because I don't want my mind to be aroused by a non actual thing. And I m not talking everyday. Dépend. I m not a daily fapper. Life goal call

should I put the blanket on the balcony ?

YEY, makes the floor burn. my town is burning with riddim ( new "dubstep" more groovy ), I like the ambiance and people in those events, it's like a new school for me, most people there are the more open minded I know in edm, because it's all about being very evil and having true love. I like all kinds of music though, I listen 3-5 hours a day, since I m a kid. in fact I m "a producer" so .. :> from mozart, bach, to marylin manson, porter robinson & zomboy whatever

I even masturbate by will now, because I fear having too much will for not masturbating

yes sorry for that, I wish to only talk to the true cultist sounds really passive, WHERE IS THE HARD WORK haha. give your blonde, I'll give her twice what you have been giving, maybe you can have a friend for experimenting, I could bite your ass if that can expand your experience. ( not something very zen though, sorry not sorry about that, I m good with my teeth, can give great power, my vampiric skills upgraded a lot recently, thanks to satan ) hard work is my breath, I m doing music everyday, dancing, and all that, seeing friends. my mind feels violated when I sit and observe nothing, so I do mainly things that means nothing, but whatever. I did once a real nothing nothing, ho man, total awakening lel, then I worked again, because work, not work, whatever. I'll keep sitting for a while sometimes, there is some deep peace in it, but exploring is more of my thing, everything in balance. congratz to all of you for teaching me absolutely nothing since my awakening, it's awesome, only a fantastic part of the dream comes for me, whatever, this girl has something for me. it was hard at first, someday still are weirds, but that's the game I suppose

zomboy ! LAMEEE You'll brostep go to DEATHSTEP that's where the real skank happen

I SAID PHYSICALS GUYS why you all keeps talking nothing

very dogmatic bro. and that's bs, the masses ? who is the masses ? I ain't like rap mostly, but I enjoy powerful dubstep bass, makes me dance and hit the floor hard, dancing is life. classic music, where are the boundaries ? everything I like is a classic this kind of low bass ? how deep

define when someone is "working their ass off", as an artist, listening music, doing sometimes drugs, even having relation/going at party for social presence, and drawing while listening podcast is probably the best way to fit my job. So being mostly a piece of shit to the eyes of the mass ( I m sober 80% of the year though ). I reads books, and do a lot of others things like contributing to political understanding and writting my own books. maybe some people just play video games, but I did too, when they'll find no more meaning in it, they'll stop it, and in another case, they can contribute as being "good player" some top hard video game player explain how to excell in others area of life now ( there is video of pro starcraft player teaching you life and entrepreneurship now haha )

I have been banned once. I m at list 1000

Thanks brother will look for it and maybe give a review here

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define fantastical thinking.

Dye your hair in curly Black. Pretend to be John snow and being aware of not knowing but wanting to know

The only way enlightenment is a tail is when you are not enlightned. It is as stomping as a rock in your face. It's not a 'haha' I understand what I m. All this are concepts. True enlightenment is Expendable. First glimpse kill your old sense of self. But you're still you. It's not play word. My expérience whatever you believe then

haa not really, I was like on a mild dose of psychedelic, almost insanity. Nothing about a thought story. total physical paradigm I just had to cling back to my ego, and then loved it.