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if you legit quit for 30 days, you'll never be hooked that much. for me, I m totaly porn free. I would use only if I need to learn something new, but not craving or daily habits.

I m above 200, and so all psych told me they are not allowed to test me, They lacked the growth to push a fair judgement on my mental capacity after judging me above 160, they needed special expert court, and I personally don't care for metaphysical assumption on my so call'd intelligence I m in the top 0.0001% talking to me was too instructive, they couldn't handle me properly

it's your definition of conscious. what if trump has been put in place by a very conscious occult circle of conscious banker, that put Trump in place to show everyone how corrupted and shitty it is to be rich & "powerful", and how shitty it is to be like Trump or just being a politician. It makes people think more, it makes people conscious. If I were a rich banker really conscious who manipulate society for his own good I would push weird agenda to makes people think more and become more conscious with force, killing / destroying a billion to save the world, whatever is needed maybe Trump is a springboard from red to blue for last idiotics blue american people remaining. when all the society start being conscious, ruler and politics are washed out.

sounds like before internet time modulate please, I m still a newb, and sometimes it's not long enough.

which is ? I m about to read some books

not a problem for me. I kill for beauty. the problem is if the air start to be toxic because we eat meat. only then my why I do A or B change > and then maybe I would stop eating it. I eat balanced to live the best, I don't care about lifeform killing, I care about my "karma field" though, and the energic aura that is on me and my cultural surrounding. i would not eat goose "foie gras" / because that's torturing and makings humans do it, that increase my chance of being around psycho and in a cultural psycho society. I didn't choose my programmation anyway. One way or the others it doesn't bother me. I would eat it anyway, I just play some part of the game. free will is a duality, because there is no free will absolute, no free will, even past awakening, no choice, no meditation, no better lvl, nothing. just the road that unfold, the rest is all the story. Only the delusion of awakening and past awakening, it's a never ending conceptual, relative self absolute bullshit. What about transcend for real the pov, kill all our biologic body and go into one that is "one", it would be over soon

mwhaha I speak my tongue, love u too

not sure. I tend to last like 10-20 min " IN / OUT " but I m still very very newb, I could say that I had sex less than 50 times. ( sort of, I didn't count ) and I only lost my virginity this year lel. my gf tell me I m the best she ever got, and both girl I had so far told me I made them hit the orgasm gate. ( even the first sex I had, she told me thanks you for the great sex ( then my monkey mind started to believe she was full of shit, cause it was my first time LOL, no fear or whatsover, 100% flow ) maybe I was a dormant sex god whatever hahahaha, my new talent and my gf, she had some dude with 20 conquests, told me nothing to worry about having no experience prior her, because I m the first one made it hit the door of gategasm and largely better than him. and I m super good / endurant. ( her words ) I just do it out of infinite love without monkey mind at all. Ultra spiritual sex, and no judgement and boundaries, infinite understanding of the feminine side and embodiment of my masculine instinct/energy. I don't follow thought, I follow music.

how it goes so far, I'll do the same with mush very soon. ( I m waiting, u get me ? ) cubensis B type , don't know about them, mexican put me in a roller coaster when I did 2g , 2 years ago. > what happen when you take your 0.3 ? it's true that dormant need a larger dose. But everything at his pace, for me, I did 2 weeks full on psychedelics ( micro, mid dose and big dose (2 times for the big) ) ( LSD first week, and mushroom ) ( I ingested in 20 days, 3 trip of LSD~ and 4g of mushroom, not something huge so ) maybe 2 days off. ( and I was on 1g of weed or more aswell everyday ) so I should laugh at people who only do ONE TRIP ! do it for a full month pussy ! hahahaha ( of my dosage was low for 20 days~ ) next time I'll find 30 LSD trip !

that's an incredible answer, I wish to know where op is now in his life

it seams I got no more pleasure from masturbating, I can be aroused, but weirdly, only real sex is the real deal for me. masturbation seams a waste to my reality, it's like laundry now ( and it's really like if I want it or not, nothing I cannot control ), I don't do it anymore. And no porn since 2 months. Before that I did not so much fapping neither for about 6 month ( was on a nofap journey, not really hard to stop, I wasn't an hard masturbator, depending the amount of weed/stims in my blood though, ritalin made me horny as a poney when I was doing it ) though I like real sex, and could fuck all night with some breaks. I don't see the point in masturbating even for training, I would just like to improve in real sex situation and experiences.

You didn't take into account that others people exist as a part of nature. maybe others cannot awake, because they are robots beings made to incarnate the karma of nature ( aka being animals ) maybe not all humans are "equal" in possibility, it's just a fact of my absolute experience. It's a delusion to believe in a physical reality where everyone can awake, only few humans are made to direct and know the secret of nature & god. It's fakery to believe " hey I should put DMT in all humans and all the world will be awake " doesn't work like this, most dormant would just turn insane or turn the experience as a tricks. Because that's how god made them, slavish. ( there is no master & slaves, all men must serv, it just a concept to talk ) what the mass think, god think it aswell in some way, and what thought appear in my mind, are god will, not mine. The equal addition of nature possibility is always what appear to my mind. The idea of self and free will self, is always an idea, we can observe that we are almost programmed, programmed even to think that we are programmed. ideas are very physics and real, they are just not accurate, all ideas are made by the matrix, if not, we would just be mute creatures, tickling electric pigment in each others. relative bad or good exist, what is bad is what kills/destroy me. Humans are the only creature to use symbolic, bible is right saying we are "above" animals, cause we fucking are, even if above/below it's totaly relative. Whatever, humans are different, it just a fact, we are not cockroach, if we were then why having humans. ( ok flawed but whatever, the point is ) Good in mainstream sense : is what improve me / increase my pleasure / belief in what cause me good to my identity/feeling god believe in good/vs bad, or you'll not have a sense of not killing yourself, because "life biologic creatures" would just be ok about killing themself etc.. because if bad/good doesn't exist at all, why would you strive for something like surviving or improving, you wouldn't care, feeding yourself would have no good/bad and so it would not work. but god is always alright to create masters, humans who have a better way to think and change the masses on wishes. good & bad, really exist. and killing others means maybe killing a part of yourself, there is no need to be a master, it's as shitty as being a slave. " All men must serv" and will serv, no matter who and what you are. so why would you kill others, from an egoic place, killing others could diminish your own possibility of surviving better. but in the meantimes, if you kill, even by being Hitler, it's because you believe that by killing you'll increase your own pleasure, or improve something. god creates humans and they are following the god programmation. free will is maybe a total delusion, physical change of the reality or people, just a game in your head, maybe another one, maybe everything is totaly written, maybe every thought is destinity, maybe all writting is made for a purpose that cannot be grasb by the writter. Sometimes a bit of a memory about some words start appearing in my mind, and there is no answer to why, it's like god showing me the line to follow. Why this memory, why not anothers ? we can just hold on the idea that what we do change something, does it really ? for me the ultimate is a spin, you are aware of what leo talks 'infinite relative absolute love for ugly and beauty'. then you come back to your identity god want to self improve and god hate uglyness.

Will read this one you mention but the 2011, version ( hummm ) thanks, any others books on financial independance in today world ? I got 485 bucks/month from social welfare ( + free transport + free others things, many advantages being poor ) ( I live almost like someone who work 35 hours a month, but instead I work on actualizing myself ) working at a normal wage slavery would means working for 5$/hours in term of energic. ( because I loose the social help of 500 buck a month if I work) and no qualification job, means 1000-1100$ for a month on average. I don't have a driver licence, loose 2000€ trying to get it ( yes it's a fucking scam here ), and was really slow, because it was family who pushed me to do it, "when I was not giving a fuck about driving", didn't put all my earth in it, in fact and waited until I loose the first licence for having the right to drive ( I need to pass the exam again, for then driving at the exam again ), I hate driving, or maybe I just hate rules and cannot conform to the average stupidity, I drive with instinct, not monkey mind. I read many people on internet, buying and selling shit to others people, whatever, my only option for reach 2000 bucks and more, is selling drugs, so I'll just maybe stay where I m and working on art even harder. ( electronic music writter / sound engineer / sound designer, drawing, story, music label project, community work ) I m an old legit gamer and mind debunk computer. ( and I m a designer ( photoshop ) / drawer / etc.. my study at school ). big holistic skills in many area, just one thing, I hate being bored. Any resonant ideas / books ? doesn't pay off currently, but in 10 years, I m certain getting more than 5000 bucks a month 1000% sure. I just started working very hard at my 21y old though, so .. find that music is my only truth, but started learning the field at 22 with not even a tamtam skills prior ( I m 25 )

This is about this, only mind can help mind. most people create a distinction between "enlightment monk style" and enlightment on the true nature of god, that is actuality. Enlightment is unfolding in many ways, there is big shift and little ones. only multiple experiences and building of the ego can help transcend.

join someone with a passion that makes your life meaningful. you don't have to beat yourself and being a "self man made". there is science goal, art goal, spiritual goal, body awareness goal ( sport etc.. ), healthy goal, peace of mind goal, meaningful life etc etc.. extasic experience, travel, meeting people, knowing how things unfold, so many books on new politics, new kind of society to work on etc etc etc.. just wander as long as it please you, the purpose will unfold maybe for you, it can be as simple as being a monk, or helping others find their own solution to their problems. the question is what have you been attracted to your all life, without having being push by society or anyone ? dig on that

once I masturbated while touching my butt part ( not with a finger, more like with a woman masturbating herself ) Because biologicly, mans are "pre" before woman in the shaping form. ( I suppose ) it was so awesome that I understanded how female could enjoy sex just as much as me, if not more ! I m jealous now, woman orgasm seams so infinite. Is there even an end to their gasping, they seams to enjoy it like 4x more than myself ( and though I do enjoy ) most woman are as addicted to sex as you're, many of my friends got connected with really big nymphomaniac, and they were themself sort of addicted to sex. best way to beat addiction is see it's end, with mind or body, mind is always a better choice though.

I find that "no life" have a lot to understand for listening multiple real perspective from people, and talk with multi sided personnality. big realisation comes aswell from "common experience"

Seams a real good advice, no modulating bs, thanks

full realisation makes me want to know more about physics laws and "real organic fluid science, aimed toward truth with a T". it's not related to not loving science with full realization, on the contrary, love for truth is love for "true science". it's just that your scientific love is of the same degree than the one of a musician for understanding and creating music.

what is the best way to know that a woman got a great & deep orgasm without asking her ?

if she told me that I would use my time to fuck her more.

find one that is suitable to your sex & spiritual needs. the rest is all egoic programmation from monkey insecurity kind of thought. I cannot put my hands and modulate on this concept, meditate on the idea of addiction, it's probably more rooted there. the desire for woman is real in each man, as it is in each womans, though, there is a difference between a toxic need like a spoiled children, or a let's see reality unfold and let me follow passion. that is a better attitude I find in my own self experience. when I started having no need for woman and addictive sex ( needyness ), that's when I started dating and caught very quickly girls ( and suited for my kind of mindset ), and now I m with a real perfect match, we will see how far it goes nothing that I would have imagined before shifting my mind

I just resonate on cold shower. I fucking like them

what kind of yoga exactly ? I don't find time for doing it. I will probably go on swimming more and keep pushing some floor with my hands I did fail a bit with my meditation those last 2 months, maybe 3 hours total, with 5 min a day. GIRLS take a lot of concentration, I meditate on others activity now mwhahaha You don't know what psychedelic does, mdma is for children against LSD/mushroom that is a real work. modafinil as you did, is probably 20% of a mdma trip at best ( but cannot quantify ) Even myself is frighten by DMT breakthrough, not really frighten, but I need some months of integration and life experience before doing such an experience.