Aeris

Yes.. 'What is dead may never die' I had psychosis for months because of realizing and accepting death to the point of tears. I came back from the dead litteraly with joy but in the meantime a full acceptation of death at the soul lvl. Maybe still my new reborn ego could cling to life. Anyway it takes work to desintegrate the ego to the point of not caring to be dead or alive. I just hold and cling to reality like we cling to keeping a lucid dream going. Do things' love things' hate things. What makes me love is curiosity. It's how I 'love'. Could be fun My philosophy part of it is having experienced a close relation with death. And so knowing that all humans life is as good as the one of an ant. Good system could work on wishful philosophy. Just not today My way to be honest is. When your computer crash. Love is knowing what is the thing to put in the trash for keeping the system work. Keeping the system working is maybe true love. ( Imagine mother earth as the computer ) would you crash because you like to keep everything for a so call'd ( authentic love ) ? I appreciate your vision tho. War is love litteraly. But we should or could do war virtually indeed from my 'rational side of things'. War is just part of our ego core. Maybe in the system you're a good loving and bounding cells. But some are with less mercy. They all provide to the system their ways

a quick death can be compassion. in nature the more powerful ego eat the little. if you start accepting all the misery in your ego bubble, then your ego bubble start to mix with the low consciousness ego, and everything start to be fucked up. do you really believe we created internet and all powerful nations that allow you to think like this today through "love and no cruelty" a quick death can be more loving than a life of slavery. I would just told, if all the misery enter in a bubble that work ( maybe on stealing others but anyway ) a little bubble with highest ego could maybe one day create a better society. but in the context, maybe being a selfish cu** and kill others ego is the best move. people who are "social" and sharing for free, when it's their time to share their bed/home there is no one anymore to be grateful and compassionate when the fridge start to lack, that's how far it goes, as long as it doesn't fuck up your reality you'll for hipiness, but in reality we still need angry mad king to create a super states that would allow great thinker and then increase the world as a better place. if americans and europeans start to be weak and sharing lover ( that I doubt tho ), what happen in the real is russian and china fuck us with their higher ego. we are still not in a context where higher ego can sleep on what he get so far through war and contest when there will be maybe no more country. whatever, Hitler from another perspective could have cured the world and bring peace over for 300 years by fighting the biggest ego that is american capitalism. nothing is easy in the context / pragmatical. if you had two kill two childs with your bare hands to save 100 would you do it ?. no I m sure, your reality doesn't allow it, mine probably neither. but we there is people that are doing those hard choices, hard choices that sometimes benefit ( or not ) for the "highest good" I m just talking here, all of you can states all the opinion you want

maybe there has never been "nothing", or maybe there has never been "something"

Knowing you're in charge of the "I"/ ego shadow clear, and knowing you're the only universe that there is " so far ", experiencing reality as it "is". I don't call that being god, I call this having a high lvl of delusion. but I m maybe wrong, maybe god is everything, maybe god is nothing, maybe people who clearly state that there is no god, no absolute, nothing is true but it could be. cannot tell in my direct experience aside having "thoughts". if you call the experience of "me" aware of "me" being aware of being god. maybe, but point me the concept of god, being a part of "this"

real good post for the blablating mind

how did you realized it yourself ?

you can be small and not leading, as long as you can hold your truth and score at your own situation shape reality to your will, that is the god side, is above all those monkeys theory all theory fall into a context, maybe 2000 years ago stoling the gf of others mates and showing your dick was the alpha thing now maybe the alpha thing is being a lazy girly manipulator, who the fuck knows no one is evolved, a delusion, who is getting all the chill live his own truth

ego fear based

Hitler was green art + lazyness + living life then met yellow people, then wanted to make the world a better place. all the cons of coral in a single man, so "god powered" than he forgoted about the higher stage. read his biography/real one I don't know anything, I m just assuming from the ego talk perspective

don't know, maybe an infinite loop, this is a concept tho. maybe it never started and will never end, cause this are concepts in the duality world

I skip the stage of hippism almost instantly for chaotism and I truly don't give a fuck. But in society I still play my role and identity, even if in the end this doesn't hold, everything is a scam, identity, belief, saving the earth, all metaphysics, even not caring cannot truly hold. For me Donald Trump is and could be totaly enlightened ( who is egoic enough to scan properly the mind of someone who had his own experience ? ) maybe you can look like the most orange of the earth and still be "coral/teal" whatever. he probably got now to the ultimate stage that is the trolling stage and not giving a fuck stage. You still hold to the role, but your only goal is getting the more fun wherever you can, and in all ways you can. When you could litteraly let one billion die for a good laugh. but yes you could be serious for years only to maximize the laugh Why so serious

it's easy if you can farm things ( what a friend told me about DS ) I m on APEX, and getting to survive is something that has his own values. I always liked the interactingness of online games btw, more possibilities and fighting something that ain't full of predictables modulations is something I find of high value. Playing RPG/online rpg is learning self actualization in fact. All great concepts are showed there, you can integrate in your own real lifestyle then. Should I start dark soul ?

do you take any substances that are close to coffee/psychedelics ? sounds weird, but sometimes just a supplement could upgrade or up the possibility. the best way is meditate for an hour or less, and just take a nap with an early before a-sleep : try to focus on a thought of another world and start to hope you'll be in a good states. when you fall asleep on the back aswell, it seams for me it kind of stack something in my brain that help with dreaming "lucid" I find that the "I don't give a fuck about everything in this reality" type of mindset ( yes kind of anti life ) upgraded my own dreaming ( when I was in this state ) Since I care and smoke weed again it's hard to just dream lel

He talks like this imagery of the alpha who doesn't care. But deep deep down he is loving just getting the attention I know me

come on APEX and let's kill some fuckerz

last 5 videos didn't watch, they all seams to turn in round in a loophole. if you think I miss something I would be glad to hear you about the part I did

passion is more rewarding than eating. you all need more passion, truly I tended to forget to eat because of music

that's a lie LOL god shape reality to his aim, god give "free will". there is two path, I would even say 3

this. when you stop sleeping, you attract the same gold that is inside you, real light reflect real light and then your own gold shine even more on the path You discover something on the road, but you never was truly looking for, nothing, and she need nothing aswell, but still you would be glad to enjoy the road with someone some ways are better alone, others are better with companionship ( the natural and flowing ones )

I didn't sleep more than 5 hours in 3 days when I stopped weed. who said it's just "mental" easy, it's probably anxiety related, then connecting to your body to call for the habit ( drug need ) it's like sugar, nobody is addict, but when they get it out of their diet, everyone start being insanely subconsciouly looking for it. because you don't control yourself, become a king don't be a sheep, transcending your habits is not easy, it's like having a war with your body/mind. a litteral war Sheep do easy win, shitty battle, kings play long game term and suffer more but got the biggest rewards. ( in litteral ways ) it just takes more time and work, but the work always pay off

I have been totaly dropping on my load yesterday The best is when I was supposed to be at home, not being in her bed, life totaly unfolding on itself, or maybe unfolding somewhere else hehehehe I quitted 98% of my porn habit those last 6 months, and I have a legit gf currently, when I was single 25y of my life. stop jerking off, that's for sheep, go met people, and stop totaly watching porn, afters months your minds will cure from imagery and false way to be entirely with a girl. the first month is a fight, take the nofap community, but don't become over crazy about that, find a friend to work with, it's better to fight together.

INTP here, ( is this abstract thing really relevant ? is there someone here who truly believe MBTI isn't just astrology for the more advanced mind, but is "nothing" in the end ? ) pretend I m INTP / ADHD I think that's true, I tend to try to be more connected to people now with their emotion and knowing their background/pov perspective/tolerance, so I can better connect and lead them : adapted to their own understanding/behavior. I m very turbulent/chaotic

woaw he got beautiful hair, that's too sad he lost his wiggs

people who lives from drawing now, mostly they draw weirds cartoons porn fury for real weirdo masturbators. that's how a niche can goes

without a +5 degree you cannot work at something lower than the equivalent of a lower tier wallmart in France. You need +7 and having the talent to know people where to suck a job link from. welfare = 500€ a month + help on house ( like 150 ) working at stupid job = 35-40 hours / ~1100€ a month. ( and that's if you have been accepted after 60 CV / letter for a job ) I m absolutely not kidding. ( I got a friends who had an answer after 50 CV, she is working a washing dishes and is wasted everyday ) driving licence = 2500€, very hard to get here, a real scam. what is the good choice ?