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the core OS-ego is fixed to competition, when your physical life form would be threathen tho, the paradox of being again the selfish "competitive monkey" will comes. being aware doesn't mean you can beat your own natural shit. you're by definition a competitive creature, and if not in the framework of society, humans vs humans, it's at list, you vs nature. ps : many feminine guys hate me, because I m too masculine for people who doesn't want to reflect on the test that I incarnate. I tended to be over autist masculine ( I m still sort of I suppose, I don't fix to mind ideas ), kind of like leo, that's why "feminine" was always my weakness to understand until a very long age. ( 23y+ ) and I believe an evolved man, would still compete, but against himself, to be more than himself, to strive above his own self. belonging/being is more feminine, compete & resolving is in all "males nature", looks more animals documentary, only my observation. Ho sure we are not "animals". But we are the reflection of nature.

his ego would backslash too hard before he even catch the tail of the ox. unless his business is already helping the world. business in itself it not devilry, if it's a honest & authentic business, what 95% of business are not though.

Who is to say that some musicians makes the world a better place, and others not ?

When someone ask me If I want to eat, I eat. When I m at home, I eat when my stomach tell me, "you need to eat" simple ?

it's when you totaly lost your mind after having focused so hard on it, that you kind of get the shocking electric truth. but I m still having the ego trying to fix me to the ideas of an identity:ideas and others bs to makes sense of my own nothingness. All this to say, spirituality and enlightment is not mere philosophy, it's an erazing of the OS of the brain, where most "materialist" tend to add software or hardware. Stacking shit on each others ( as I did for years ). the change is not material, the change could be seen as like surviving from a gun shot at 1 meter of the head. if you don't feel it, this means there is no awakening, only a pile of new delusion stacked. True awakening, you know you could have go straight to mental hospital, if you didn't experienced this kind of threat on your ego. Not an awakening. - to my experience and what I've read extensively. true enlightment, what leo didn't truly said, is not about "reducing suffering" like a magic pills. it's about provoking a shift in consciousness ( with violence ) but this violence allow "love". of course it needs concepts to road in the maze ( what leo provided very well, and should be thanked for, what most esoteric chart try to point to aswell ) I fully awake after multiple dosage of 5Ht2A activated for a month, then BIG dark night of the soul. I tend to go violent, then tender when it comes to know thyself and the law of reality, at first it sounds like a childish play with words. You cannot understand this work if you just lack of the first thing, "being open minded about people views", and having a quest for understanding reality itself. This month I'm killing completely the thought identity remaining, will work on my "being"/kill my infinite boredom and met my higher purpose. here what we do as a metaphor is purging the entire OS. Unspirituality is just a belief, maybe spirituality is aswell a belief, ho what, everything is ? what is a belief ? All words are mainly belief, symbols, we all can only know "truth" when we see it and get it for thyself. You don't need psychedelics, but in our fixed mind society, they are a good way to radical work on your openness to "esoteric ideas/spirituality".

yes your mind is about creating stories on how something will happen, this is mainly bs. two ways, avoiding thinking, or rewire how you see reality. read more girls on internet, or talk to more girls, learn to know them more, just that, don't try to get sex at each interaction, focus on learning to know more about girls, all kinds of. that is a good exercice, you'll not have any problems if you know that deep down you're for nothing more than social interaction, talks and knowing more, people like to be listen to aswell, so be a good ears. ( only in the phase of being comfy with being with girls, then phase 2 will be another mindset ) don't fear rejection, enjoy it. you can read aswell the topic of leo on the basic ideas of getting girls, some good ideas and point there. ( it's just one view though )

I should have created a list of points, it was separate from this advice of mine. ( look for the topic of leo, he is in the section of the forum and has been made less than 2 weeks ago ) You reshaped my words. My bad maybe. "tinder" or whatever, is a way, and there is no difference between electronic meeting and pua or whatever how it is made, everyone else who say the contrary is fos or never had great experience of it, because it doesn't worked for THEM. every way means one common thing tho, being creative & engaged about your way. PUA is not a better way than tinder, all ways are goods, or shit, depends of you and what fits your techniques and what you expect/reflect & wish for.

Do you think of others or just for your own safety ? As long as someone on earth suffer. everyone will suffer one way or another. I Always tend to get fun from the perspective that society 'has given all the goods' the cup is full in those eyes. For me It's conveniant. Society rob us of fundamental things aswell. Like how do I can be living from hunt and fishing ? I can't current society stole earth and poisoned the fish. What about improving things ? Ho no society is good. No society is FOS. There is goods' sure joyfully. But this doesn't mean It's not based upon old stack of shit and should be rethinked. Society is a cage without fence. But it is what it is

No fap' cold shower pushup life purpose Being calm in mind Non needyness Leo made a great post about it recently. Introvert : Tinder' boldness Extravert : being pua or being hanging in large community with girls opportunity ( sport class' club etc etc ) I don't believe in transcending fully. You need sex or fapping sometimes. You could not fap for a year and dévelop all kinds of neuroticism. Maybe I m wrong you can truly become a monk

Great post aside. That's one ideal. Everything that frighten our identity or ideal becomes an ennemy very soon. It's not about letting everyone be physically free. Society nature and people are puppet mastering things. You are a puppet master. What do you Hope to reflect and give Being manipulative is a défault state. Can be non neurotic though. could just be talking classic stuff without long time intention' every word can change people mind. Without even you being aware of being manipulative. So you said let everyone be free to hang arond with his ideas. I totaly agree on the mental side of things. In actuality you are cling to love your 'ego bubble' that allow you to think like this. Imagine some frightening ideology appear' you would chameleon ? No If I told you that I appreciate Hitler. You agree on my position ? I think being a man can aswell means being non passive ( I mean defending your own religion ) need to work on this idea. Aside I say this but didn't voted. But that's because my values and conviction are not reflected in the entire system. Enough blah. It's paradox to not want to maintain this idéal in the idéal. Cause what if China and Russie take over the World ? It's maybe a fear of nothing. Though it could become a reality. And no more 'being a Man féminine' etc .. Saying I don't give a fuck is a form of vote to me. Even if white voter doesn't get it and still play the Monopoly. My life and view is close to your viewpoints. Just need more work on being active/passive in term of being. Can you be even an active passive ? I m talking to myself

Yes what does it means 'to be a man' could you elaborate some pointers ? Édit : answered ok ! So you believe you as an ego you can hold something such as being monney stable ? Alright. For me It's about maintening being alive. Whatever how. That's real. Playing the Monopoly not my thing. I do it. But don't agree with the entire game. Aside mgtow is prob not good. It's good to understand the opposite mindset of radical bs thinking. Always a good learning. Just don't become affect by bs you intake in mind. Be careful with what you subconsciouly feed your mind with

this is a delusion

very good transmutation of sexual energy be careful. Some siddhis may happen

I wish someone to give me the key of psych- analysis. very good insights and tools to perform with. I enjoyed this post, I'll read more than once

Leo told it's a sectary activity loved by chimps, > it's all for sex that we likes music anyway - freud-nisme, we don't in fact like music, we do it for survival and amplify emotion like drug addicts grouping in a bunch of monkeys ( he doesn't really told this, it's just one perspective remixed of his perspective, or better, find for yourself ) I think he pretty nailed it .. I still love music for the pleasure, my fav addiction Music is not how the universe is made, cause waves are maybe like thoughts, so in fact, music is the biggest delusion of all, in fact you only hear noises, but no one knows why the mind is creating sense out of pure nothingness wave frequency, pattern of nothingness but in reality, sure things, human music is maybe only for humans because your ears are in a certain range of frequency reach. there is perspective or metaperspective on what is music tho, but the best way is experience, listening tons of different kinds of song + noise + asmr + all audio, and you'll nail the question for yourself, what is music ? but anyway, I'll keep being a musician

You should embody more your masculine sides. gnarling & roaring

This topic résonate but you did a lot of psych tho. Tell yourself that I was like you for this questions at 7 years old. Not easy to navigate when the whole world looks totaly asleep. Something has to be wrong with me having Infinite questions. Of course at 12 I was into complotism stuff esp with internet. Then I go sleep myself with vidéo games and shit for almost a décade Just giving a side to my experience about my own spirituality You are getting the green very good. keep your tools for inquiry sharp.

Does it work then ? Look my stack seams to work without Théa or coffee. But more efficient for my very work is a bit of weed. Or sometimes coffee but it is a poker card.

Marc Dorcel is a spiritual movement from another persp

If you stopped add drug. All of that is easy You should observe that all this are addiction to you. So you don't own your life purpose enough. A strong goal and a loving passion that clear your mind and allow you to set your life to be optimal for that goal. Then you see why this Time could be spend better for you Aim for experimenting. There is no such things as wrong behavior but if this doesn't help you. Why are you still on it ?

concept are truth if you can experience them.

You didn't réalise. If so. You would know there is no séparation between drug and god

that's why I only have few friends in fact now that I m clear with my way. I have no time for 10 relationship. the more you got, the more hollows they are aswell just what I observed on me. and with girls, one is already taking me too much time. When I would use my time to makes music and all sort of things if I was around 2-3 girls ? and I need aswell true dedication, a girl who fucks around and stack MST is not my thing, I cannot accept to share emotion in her mind with thinking about the others guy who fucked her yesterday. I need aswell someone worth to trust and that I could totaly be vulnerable with. with friends I m the same, loyal and trustful. and I hope for the same. I m not really into pick up life dedication is not a disease, it is bliss and true passion, the only way to accomplish solid things long term. when you'll one day be 30y + you will hardly have any solid relation with anyone. of course fix my love in a few range that I call "family" is dangerous, but having no solid attachement, then no family, no deep spirituality. depend what you call spirituality, of course people bother me etc.. it takes work to keep real relations but I m not sayin your way are wrong, you should just not believe that "family" is a thought story, it's just one of the main aspect of the metaphysical aspect of reality. Even monkeys have a sense of family and fixed relation ( especially for rising a child, but still ).

there is no brain, nothing to fry. or maybe a conceptual thing that act on conceptual outcome could be fry. you project that we fear death or loosing some non existant smartness. real self actualization is spartiat/samuraï, it's the way of thinking warrior. you fear drug, you fear sword, you fear experiences especially. psychedelics are more of an hacking tools. of course there is cons to brute force hack and many loose it without "grounding" or solid way of integrating the experience for what it is. tools are used stupidly, I did mushroom 2 times in 2 days 2 years ago, then wait 1 year to be on LSD/mush for a month alone on microdose and little trip, then I didn't do more. I clearly see that you go into delusion world after those experiences, but after delusion truth. It's like pushing the process quickly, of course psychedelics turn you INSANE, you start being aware that everything was non sense, how could you make sense of knowing that all was non sense? it takes time

so it's not a thought story to use it to understand myself and aim my LP better ? would you believe it ? I m a natural brainstorm, and like to disrupt all emotions in conversation of people, only for excitement. Of course I m not a "adhd" I just observe what I do, maybe wrongly, it could be. I makes everything I touch exciting or make it, by all ways and all means. Everything that excite me is worth doing. Even joking about Hitler or killing babies, if this create emotion in people, I always feed myself on those. I could create "fight" only for not being borred, without any ego attached to a concept I relate to. Alright true, we have a lot of fun with people who cannot be bothered by talk. ( but it can go as far as laughing about killing babies ) just one exemple on how dangerous it is for me to have this behavior, most people are asleep or touchy, I keep awareness for months, but I always in a natural way ( especially when "sober" ) I m tingling people around with all sort of trigger. I could destroy all my relations for not being borred. And I cannot obey someone more stupid than me, I give him free teaching or free suffering for not being above me. I makes people stand on my ground, or fall in hell. Weed saved me from being a total disruptive chaotic man. But kind of exhausting and very COSTY, and very banned in France. thanks all for your replies.