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wow, too much thinking, try to use the apps with feeling but I would self inquiry and get more enlightment about communication/relation and girl understanding. did you try to "pov" on the idea of being a girl ?

in France it's the same, if you're poor they give you between 200-400€ a month ( for 3 years max, and more if you graduate ) ( it's max 3+2+1 ). the more I know about the other countries the more I like mine. I would almost just be jealous of scandinavia countries, but I hate the cold.

yes my reaction as a 7 child was saying my mother that she was a slave, the day I understanded number, " I asked my mom how much she is pay for his work. " I aswell told my father how many € he lost in cigaret every year ( 2500€ ~ per year ) I told him about all the things he could have done with it. I aswell told my father that he was exploited by society. I come from hardcore nihilism + sarcasm + black humor + being hated by everyone for pointing truth, I was raised in a green/yellow thinking, then come back in orange for being accepted by society at large. my main politic area was aswell anarchism. ( I always loved scenario about death of society ) All my schools years was "hell", like many people liked school, I only got nostalgia for tv show and video games, I was very aware of being brainwashed before my 10 years old. All my early life I was thinking "I" : was the insane one, when in fact everyone was just a fucking zomby I m the friend you want if you want hardcore and sincere criticism, but if you want to be pray and loved for nothing, don't talk to me ( I aswell encourage and bring joy in the same way. ) I m an hardcore shadow pointer. ( intp ) and when I started with myself, ho man, such a huge load of crap watching patterns and paradox in people and in myself is a game I do since I m a little kid, was very stuck at an egoic yellow level though. ( I m still ) turquoise for me was more about natural life than taking another religious dogma.

you're aswell the bullshitting animal, the rat in the maze, the donkey and most of us are still watching their hands.

Darth vader embodiment https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Master–slave_morality extract : The essence of master morality is nobility. Other qualities that are often valued in master morality are open-mindedness, courageousness, truthfulness, trustworthiness, and an accurate sense of one's self-worth. Master morality begins in the "noble man", with a spontaneous idea of the good; then the idea of bad develops as what is not good. "The noble type of man experiences itself as determining values; it does not need approval; it judges, "what is harmful to me is harmful in itself"; it knows itself to be that which first accords honour to things; it is value-creating." In master morality, individuals define what is good based on whether it benefits that person and their pursuit of self-defined personal excellence. as something is helpful to the strong-willed man, it is like what he values in himself; therefore, the strong-willed man values such things as good because they aid him in a life-long process of self-actualization through the will to power.

I visualized every chinese children working on my iphone ( albeit I never buyed an apple product in my entire life ) now I own a xiaomi though, so maybe they grow up If I m not wrong it's the case for many fruits aswell. All importation outside of your country from Africa is in a way born from exploitation, but that's just how system work, master & slave, in all types of country. we all have our little children hands, sure they are not put in cold mines, they are put in a prison with a teacher brainwashing them for a decade with bullshit. ( for then being an obediant slave of their system ) I m not sayin it's good to makes work children, but is there even a limit, when adultness start ? our own grand grand parent were laboring at 12

this and eventually add triptophan plus not using any drug at all. ( weed and others dirupter of deep sleep )

step up above turquoise ___ I kind of hardly can follow the video, his tongue slap too much in his mouth, sadly his voice is a bit annoying, will try to go through.

I "took" a lot of immaterial things .. for free. I think I diserve all the fruits in the forest as equivalent to the rich born. A devil.., isn't full enlightment accepting to be "devil "? Steve job was enlightened for 10000% sure, it doesn't make him a "good man" he studied the teaching of spirituality and was full stage green at 20. 100% sure yellow. full enlightment means full awareness of morality as a cloud. You can be moral/good whatever value you attribute to your actions. They are all neutral in the eye of god. ( doesn't mean they are without consequences ) for all you know, Donald Trump could be the part of a big schemes that is to improve the politics and concern of people for their society. ( stage green gates ) ( I m very hopeful here, it's surely is a delusion ) when they got Obama, no one was giving a fuck really ( cool president, ok, let's back to work ), now the entire world is watching the Donald Trump show and ask themself, are all politicians jokery ? Could be that trump by doing a pure devil will work will end by improving the mind of society ( or war culture ) and that's a good thing, if conscious people win over stupidity. full awakening of society, people then killing all the authority models because of awareness of politic corruption because of Trump. I would totaly try to be in power if I was convinced that I'll use the monney/power to improve society as a whole, intrinsic dammage. Would embody full orange to progress on a coral agenda. even if that's not the intention of Trump, better taking a stimulant pill and shit in your pants than the sleepy one and go back to bed.

if self improvement was by defenition the process of observing the process of a systemic intelligence being in the process of upgrading itself toward the sun. then even flower try to get enlightened, maybe they are saying I M ENLIGHTENED, we just don't ear them when they can feel the sun under the green of their flowers. indeed we are all enlightened and we all got enlightened experiences that change our all way of using the soul:mind:brain system. true enlightment is to me, to my relative understanding, the process of upgrading toward a better shaping of intelligence. my self darwinism theory wasn't "random", I always had this theory as a kid, than the fish watched the dirt, and was thinking, " I would be fine out of predator there" hence "evolution" is directly linked to "consciousness". maybe all that is bs, anyway, surely you get something out of it, this is how life work only someone at the higher scale who experienced some of my words in the actuality,transcended being a simple beautiful flower, understanding their flowerness at the same time.

eternalism is backup by possible physics. means the universe is a spiral, at the end of the universe, time reverse and you truly experience all of reality again. if reality is infinite, so is your life and your states. if X + infinite time = life death + infinite time = rebirth it doesn't make sense to be alive and being "something", why it would make sense to be dead and being "nothing".

goal is in 10 years ( or less ) I do my own stage scenery/visuals, kind of like this ( but not like this ) ( having a total understanding and control of the visual aspect of reality ) own imagery understanding, own animation understanding ( I m raw drawing everyday currently ). I already know how to use première pro / after effects ( but basic animation of text, nothing crazy ) Or I'll collab with artwork animated from real painting and mix them with FX to makes them look alive. Want to work on having my own animated videos, my own design on my music label ( or community for that matter ). and even if I m not pro in 3D, I want to have the power to create powerful decision about it. ( directing ) - I aswell want to draw my own tatoos, or proper sketch ( 5-8 years from here ) (I want to have a pure self design a reflection of my will and work.) I would take advices on the 5% good mastery theory if there is any master/vidéo/tutorial that truly enhanced your game. I already think like a level designer ( light/shades/depth/ratio etc .. ) big picture understanding and then reduce to the grinding process of each tiny aspects.

what is the function of crying when we see beauty ? are we pure killing machine aimed toward efficient surviving or is there truly a way to get out ?

does your occult knowledge provide any absolute ideas about nutrition/health/use of drugs/position of wealth ? I understand about focus + visualisation, but how should be the prior inner work ?

I wish to learn 3D modeling, would you advice me to start with .. ? but I m trying to be good at drawing right now, but I m sure 3D model is on the path. I'll explain what clicked for me more in details. For instance, when I was drawing I became very aware of the fact of "ratio" + proportion are relative to each others and they play a huge role, trait become "object" always as an illusion of the mind. ( I was aware at a degree of everything, but after many years I didn't perceive it with my current progress in life ) Everything is understood to a degree/scale, it's just increase at each experience what I perceive right now and existing at a distance from my eyes play a huge role in how I perceive proportion and what feel right in the context of the drawing ( close or not ) and there is aswell the "whole process" how do I go about the whole process. like when I m drawing a character, which lines are the best to go for, and any types of techniques, and what should I aim to master about it. Everything is a shade on a shade so I should master clarity vs darkness. and all thoses ideas could be apply to photoshop/ electronic music. I modulated a bit my process for mixing music because drawing added a layer on the top of the idea. and weirdly I aim to be good at music, but I think that I'll end better at drawing in 10 years for whatever reason. ( little cousin and grandfather ( was ) legit painting artist ) So if DNA has any relevance, I m 100% sure to end good at drawing. I m still working on visualisation in music ( doing the music in my head )

I need some backup drawing @Bill W could you be more precise on the specific skills in terms of hands/finger movements ? seams you talk from absolute experience;

You should avoid drug and use more books instead bonus: listen more leo, especially his blog.

you can with meditating 8 hours straight, 100% safe and will work. why not going for mushroom or lsd.

I improved in music by drawing more

What does it mean to be pure of heart. No more sex ?

How does it serv me and society ? Fulling your mind with hollow knowledge that only trigger your basic sense. I don't watch any news at all. I watch many docs but they are not priority. Have Mastery to do in drawing + music. Improving focus exercice. Reading etc etc etc We all use our time with attention

very dualistic, try to shake your bootie next time, dancing is not about thinking it's only feeling

the good question is, who isn't neurotic ? from whom perspective ? degree, scale ? give me my scale ladder for neuroticism, you all perfectly fine. All potential psychopath, confirmed sociopath and ambivert when the sunshine is good

that's funny, so many words and metaphysical claim for practice we probably all understand and do on another axiom of a self physics. others words to point to practice I was already doing as a 7 years child and probably everyone has been probably experimenting, just maybe not conscious at the time, or not giving a proper word/concept to talk about it. like visualisation and talking astral plane for talking about a side of "infinite imagination." aka my own "me/I/self/experience of the thought:brain:soul ) it's just word games. mystics vs clairvoyant looks like feminine vs masculine. and magic is maybe pointing to absolute coin of concepts. everything is metaphoric, but the occult is just intuition shaped into words themself intuited. I find occult more poetic and sometimes more useful to guide a real practice in the absolute though.

I didn't tell what you should do. plus leo claimed a lot of things, relative to himself and his own experience. you could become enlightened while masturbating. it's very rare, but I m sure there is some cases, full blown out enlightment while fapping hard as a trunk. of course you should control addiction, are you the king of your realm or are you a slave of it ?