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Everything is an unknowable energy; planets, stars, meteorites, all living organisms, bacteria, cells, atoms, etc etc......... Within this unknowable energy aka: Everything, there can seem to become a sensation of individuality or self awareness. This sensation feels vulnerable and separate from the rest of the energy. It feels local, centralized, real and threatened. It feels the need to survive because that's all it knows, it doesn't know decentralization. Decentralization sounds foreign and scary. It starts learning/knowing things. Everything becomes survival strategy. Everything becomes relevant to its survival. It becomes it's own center of attention. (I'm) here and everything else is out there. (I) need to survive. Sometimes in certain physical forms, this centralized (I) energy can become disturbed. It can become decentralized for periods of time. During this disturbance, it can realize that it's not just localized to the physical form. It can realize that the entire experience of only being centrally located, was a misunderstanding. This unknowable energy seems to create a different path. It no longer gets centralized or localized the way it did before, because it has now experienced decentralization and it enjoys that feeling of wholeness. But simultaneously something else very interesting can seem to be recognized. It can seem to realize that its entire conscious experience of existing, either as centralized or decentralized, was completely illusory from the start. It becomes completely obvious that this experiencer of all phenomenon, past & present, was never actually there. It was all an illusion from the start. A very convincing illusion, but an illusion nonetheless. Enlightenment, awakening, samadhi, emptiness, absolute, this, nothingness, infinity.......... It's already the case It's already this way Nothing ever happened It's THIS!!! ❤️

The start of the needy self construct around age 3 or 4. That was illusion from start. It never happened! ❤️

You're looking to deeply. It's more subtle and on the surface than how you are looking at it. There is a physical body doing/living what you described above. The self illusion is that which claims "I'm doing that"; "I'm deciding to think that thought" It's the mental construct which suffers and has anguish......& which judges itself and others according to its cultural conditioning. Notice the body will turn its head if it's name is called, prefer tea over coffee, and jump out the way of a car.......all prior to thought. Physical body lives just fine prior to the overthinking culturally conditioned needy self illusion/mental construct claiming ownership & throwing its judgments in on top of what the body is already doing.

What does the word "truth" mean for you? If it's someone else's truth, how would you actually determine whether it was true or false?

This was an interesting read. I call it self illusion and you call it tensional node. 🤷‍♂️ There can certainly seem to be less troublesome illusions/nodes. What I mean by troublesome for example: the constant feelings of always needing more. More knowledge, more understanding, more peace, more tranquility, more love....more more more without satisfaction. Desperately seeking for something better in the future is the self illusions entire prerogative. Here it was very very exhausting. So much energy being used to seek for something better. It was incapable of seeing completness or perfection. Enlightenment is the end of seeking. Not because something is found. But because it's realized that nothing was ever missing. That revelation occurred when the "I" died or rather was clearly recognized to have never been. It is certainly an energetic shifting/contraction release from upholding this needy self construct. ❤️

It wants to be the one that understands amongst the confused. It wants to be the knower. This strengthens its feelings of importance and legitimacy. The ego/self illusion lives in a world of meaning, purpose and value. ❤️

How do you mean? It thinks it wants the truth because it believes the truth will benefit itself in someway. It wants to be special.

This video is a decent explanation

There really is no softening the ego/self illusion. It will just then identify as a better person. It becomes a good, better, caring, loving, spiritual ego/self illusion. If there is even a sliver of identification as this or that...........it's being completely asleep. Awakening is clearly recognizing this needy construct is 100% illusory! This is only Awakening........everything else is absolute asleepness! No in-between ❤️

The self illusion would never want truth.........because truth points to its own unreality. It subconsciously knows this and so it creates endless distraction 😔

It was a Thanksgiving joke brother, thought someone from turkey would have a better sense of humor.......gobble gobble till ya wobble 🦃

Can't say not real belongs to matrix. The word "belongs" implies there is something real in which could belong to something else real. The matrix isn't something real. It's a word describing the experience of apparent reality through the eyes of the conditioned self illusion. It's essentially saying not real belongs to not real........which makes no sense! Get your ass to nonduality school boy! 😉

The word dreamt implies a dreamer. The dreamer is the same illusion. No dreamer, no dream character and no dream story/matrix........all unreal ❤️

Exactly IT'S unknowable in that sense

That IT which seems to be centered everywhere, isn't actually real 🤔 Thats what nonduality is attempting to reveal. ❤️

These self illusions (which already aren't real) want to identify as a higher witness (which also isn't real). They want to BE "that which was never born and will never die".........but it's actually nothing dreaming up a story about being infinite.......there is no such occurance taking place........& never was. 🤭 These self illusions cant grasp their own unreality and recognize the silly circle jerk taking place! They get in their own way sorta speak (but not really because they aren't real). If these self illusions aren't seen through clearly by nobody, they just keep going in circles lol......... story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story , after story (Hampster Wheel Effect). ♻️ So in a nutshell whats taking place here is: Illusory entities believing concepts from "other" illusory entities and then adopting those concepts as the ultimate truth. Sometimes these concepts are tweaked to fit into the illusions framework a bit better, and sometimes they are left alone. Then these self illusions seem to continue experiencing reality filtered through this conceptual framework (matrix) Ultimately nothing happened though. Sun was still shining, wind was still blowing, rivers still running and rabbits still humping. ❤️

God is concept mind learned. So if mind is given up, god concept is as well 🤔 ❤️

I used to occasionally speak with Robert on the phone years ago when I was going through an awakening of sorts. He has since passed away but I always enjoyed his videos........check it out

You believing there is a conflict which needs correction is your own internal conflict......it's your self created mind prison 😉

There's no conflict. It's completely normal happenings given the 7.8 billion people on one planet.

Life is the phase and everything is the path. Dont believe the feelings of being off track. It's a pathless path and everything is IT. Sometimes it can fell like rolling a bolder up a mountain. Sounds like maturity is taking its place! Rest well keep stretching and doing physical therapy. prayers for a healthy recovery 🙏 ❤️

Maybe you're the kind of person that keeps chasing a mirage of a cold Dr Pepper machine through the desert. Nothing wrong with that 👌 ❤️

The sense of self/illusion/ego is very stubborn and sneaky. It's illusory survival tactic will even attempt to identify as nothing or the unnamable or as everything/infinity/god or whatever............this is a super common phenomenon when there is a spirituality background...... I have heard it referred to as Spiritual Ego. It doesn't want to die, it simply cant recognize its own unreality. It attempts to survive in every way possible......trust! Recognition doesn't require a witness or an owner. Thats the shocker! There isn't a true self or higher self or unnamed self or true nature self or infinite self or invisible self or dualistic self or relative self All selves are an illusion attempting to remain intact.........it's just an identification preservation tactic of something that's already not there! This phenomenon is either clearly recognized, or it isn't. Even the slightest sliver of self identification is being completely asleep. Enlightenment is when it is absolutely clear that this self illusion was never there from the start. It was always unreal. It's not a denial or bypass or brainwashing or disattchment process. Either it's clearly seen to have never been or it is not.......end of story! 💞

Sounds like a solid plan if you want to be a tired horny frugivore 🤣

No one is here, nothing was created, nothing is witnessing and nobody knows it! It's fucking radical, completely illogical .........total anarchy describes it pretty well. ❤️