VeganAwake

Hello everyone I have only been active on this forum for about a month or so and oh man is it addicting haha. It is a great resource to feel connected and share the experience together as one. I thought I would share a quick story about my Enlightenment experience and a little about myself so here goes... I have been serving in the US Navy Seabees for 18 years here in Port Hueneme California. I'm 37 years old and coming up on 3 years ago, Me and my wife decided to go vegan overnight after watching food choices on Netflix ..but not just vegan lol a Whole Food plant-based vegan diet minimizing salt oil and sugar. Needless to say it was a huge paradigm shift that I didn't realize at the time would change my life forever. That paradigm shift triggered something in me that is kind of hard to explain.. I felt more attached to Nature than I've ever felt in my entire life. After 3 months I knew I would eat a vegan diet for the rest of my life. I lost 12lbs and felt healthier than I've ever felt. Basically I started catching on to the power I had to change my life. I also started realizing this person I called myself what's causing a lot of pain and suffering to my wife and 2 kids at the time. I was tired of the constant arguing struggle for control and pain and suffering I was causing myself and my family. I knew I was going to change I just didn't know how yet. After studying diet and nutrition to death literally LOL.... I moved on to a much deeper topic. The truth of existence/Is god real/what's the meaning of life. I spent hundreds of hours watching videos and sorting through the wheat and the chaff as Leo likes to say of all this material plucking out the kernels of Truth in everything I read and or watched. I read about a half-dozen books on spirituality. One book in particular that helped me a lot was called a Seekers guide which taught me how to meditate. Also Around that same time I discovered a book by Eckhart Tolle The Power of Now. This book was very hard for me to understand at first but slowly I started to understand it little by little. At this point I had started meditating for about 20 minutes a day and I remember falling on my knees at one point and begging that I wanted to change I was tired of the pain I was causing my family. I remember surrendering and simultaneously knowing that I would never give up until I found what I needed for change in my life. Even just after a few months of meditating I started noticing a subtle difference the world seemed more colorful I started noticing the birds singing nature was calling for me so to speak. I knew something was happening deep down but it was so subtle I just thought it was the effects of meditation and going vegan. I continued with meditation and about a year later I deployed to Okinawa Japan. I had my own room and continued my meditation practice and started doing yoga every morning. Although I missed my wife and kids very much it was very nice not having any distractions in the morning and evening during my meditation and studying. Around two months into my deployment I stumbled onto actualized.org. I watched almost all of Leo's videos including Collective ego and all the Spiral Dynamics vids. At the time I resonated with Stages green yellow and a little turquoise. My center of gravity was definitely yellow. I would say I'm 50% yellow 50% turquoise at this point according to Leo's descriptions anyways. At this point even during my breaks at work I would sit on the toilet seat in the stall pretending I was using the bathroom and meditate for 5 or 10 minutes whenever I could on top of my morning and evening practice. I kept hearing the same information over and over again in different ways: Enlightenment is a falling away and realization... not a gaining of knowledge. When I first heard it I didn't understand it but then I started catching on to what it meant. I felt like I could do this but I still didn't know how. One morning I got a vision and it all came together. I realized that everything I thought I was, was just an opinion and idea or I believe. I pictured all the layers or labels of my false self that I've been creating since birth and Drew them onto a diagram. That evening I started shedding the layers, I was completely aware that none of these layers and labels were actually me, they were just my beliefs of who I thought I was. When I was done I felt empty and light, I felt like I was nothing and yet everything at the same time. The next day I was feeling very peaceful and at around 10 a.m. I realized the constant Mind chatter had stopped and everything was quiet. The Whirlwind of constant thinking had ceased. Later that day I started seeing how everyone was running around in the rat race, unconscious of what was really going on ...they were stuck in The Matrix and I was the only one aware on the entire base it felt like. Part of me wanted to start shouting wake up everybody you're being tricked. But I didn't feel like that would go over so well haha. Later that day I realized it was my own mind keeping me in the illusion the entire time... here is something I wrote during the experience: " I have jailbroken my mind I feel free my mind isn't holding the power any longer the egos tricks are dissolving in the light of the truth the universe is smiling and saying you were never bound to begin with you were always free". When the curtain is pulled back like in The Wizard of Oz and you see your ego saying never mind The Man Behind the Green curtain it's almost laughable and at the same time you give it credit for how sneaky that little bugger truly is. After this happens your life starts changing very quickly. You realize this is the beginning of something incredible.

You got it ? that's non-dual awareness... There was never a collapse because there was never an actual separate individual apart from the whole. This realization makes the word duality non applicable... Duality is a word that describes something that was never true. There was never an experiencer here, and everything else out there... It was always just the one thing happening. Subject/object = misunderstanding Relative/Absolute = misunderstanding The Mirage of the Dr. Pepper machine in the desert looked convincing... it kept you walking for miles...but you will never be able to quench your thirst with a cold soda because the soda machine was an illusion. All the different sand castles on the beach appear to be separate individual castles... but when high tide arrives and washes over them... they dissolve back into the beach. "The separation never occurred" - ACIM

Thanks brother I appreciate that... I'm tripping out because it feels like I wrote this 2 years ago... Its weird lol...

It took me awhile but I found one of my first post before I had ever watched a Tony Parsons or Jim Newman video...

I didn't think you would resort to the negative labeling... It's true I didn't explain very well what was being pointed to.. but I've described it several times on the Forum... It has absolutely nothing to do with pursuing a life purpose helping out Humanity or anything of the sort... It's about complete freedom to do that or to not do it... I've also explained that I won't be talking about it any longer because it seems to be completely misunderstood which is understandable. The only reason it was even mentioned in this thread was because it was brought up by someone else.

You didn't the sharing is for a reason..❤ ✌

The part you're kind of missing bud is I'm not disillusioned anymore so I don't walk around saying... the self is an illusion ...it was recognized here by no one, the illusion was never real to begin with... that's what Awakening is brother. I'm talking this way on the Forum to assist others in recognizing Maya the illusion of self.. It's completely radical and incomprehensible... Its a mind f***** for sure ❤

Yes and there is only the absolute perspective.. Relativity is within the dream of a separate individual apart from the whole. Yes...When nothing matters it also doesn't matter if I retire and I'm chilling in North Dakota with a nice pension in my hot tub sipping wine... you got it ?

Actually that's a great way to put it... it's a brainwashing... it's a deprogramming and a dropping of everything you thought you knew... and emptying of one's glass... you got to have balls of steel for this one though.. The difference is you don't take on another set of beliefs you just remain empty.. I didn't know God got sad... do you need a Kleenex God ?

No belief or belief system held on to here bud ...Just Pure Freedom for no one. ❤ I can possibly help you awaken but you have to empty your glass completely... Its an Unknowing...

Look gents maybe I'm not making it clear.... Liberation has already occurred here for No One... When you wake up out of the dream you don't need to keep seeking or gaining knowledge or truth or any of that, because you recognize that whole game happens within the dream of a separate individual that needs to acquire something to be complete. Nothing needs to be complete, because nothing was ever missing ...."the separation never occurred" there never was a separate individual that needed to attain anything... that's quite literally the illusion that you wake up from... its called Maya I have no care in the world that you guys believe Awakening is the recognition that you are God and you are creating everything... That is totally fine I have no issue with it.. Your glasses are already full and I know you can say the exact same thing about me because we don't know each other that well so that's just fine that's what's happening... Good luck in your practices to become a better.

After I retire from the Navy... only doing 20 years...

I can do whatever I want in less than 2 years though ?

Hmmm $50 now and risk losing my military pension of $3,500 a month for the rest of my life... not sure if $50 or even a couple grand is going to cut it bud ?..sorry I remember a good trip from 19 years ago ...complete ego death on liquid LSD... for a few hours.. no monkey mind or shatter whatsoever ...only the stars overhead on a clear night.

LOL my family already thinks I'm weird enough...?

This poor guys like what the f happened to my thread ?... To be honest we kind of stayed on topic... I think hehe

@Inliytened1 something inside me screams that's not actually your advice haha ?

Yes.. between the age of 16 and 20 I had a lot of fun...I'm 38 now I have been in the US Navy since I was 20. Hope there's nobody in the military reading this.. but I guess that's what forum names are for... I should probably read the guidelines LOL.. I grew up in Washington state and made friends with an individual that we called hippie Jim he introduced us to barter fairs which are giant hippiefest on privately owned property basically Drug Fest... or Freedom Festival however you look at it.. I probably went to at least 15 or 20 of these events. Did what I would describe as high-quality paper and liquid LSD at least 25 times.. Several grams at a Time Mushroom trips(Brazilian kabenzi's usually) one time I bought some mushrooms after already eating mushrooms I completely lost track of reality... couldn't tell what temperature it was outside and I kept asking people around me... I was seeing stacks of hundred dollar bills by the fireplace giant mushrooms grow out of the ground...birds flying in dried cowshit ..Noah's Ark surfing on a wave which was actually just the mountain range lol. Did something called datura once... barely remember but I remember the leaves on a tree turned into dollar signs for some reason lol... One time these rich kids give me an entire bag of opium to sell for them and I walked around trading smoking and getting effed-up all day... I brought them back like $800 and the rest of the bag and they thought I was their savior haha. Of course I was smoking some of the best Pacific Northwest chronic available at the time through everything. I have taken bong hits of meth while frying on mushrooms and drinking Jack Daniels and Beer. I've partied on coke and smoked crack a couple times not really proud of those LOL... but damn I was good at hacky sacking and shooting pool when I was doing it ? Before the Awakening experience I hadn't done any illegal drugs for 15 years though.

I'll make a deal with you... I'll book a session with them ...if you do is zoom video chat with me and Andreas Muller tomorrow or the next day...its free! You can let me know on Facebook when you are available to do it. The daily zoom online talks will take place: April 6th – 10th each day from 1pm – 2pm (UTC+2 / Berlin time zone) In order to participate please click on the following link and you will be guided automatically to the zoom: https://zoom.us/j/733824468?pwd=QkFlNmZZaXFXQ1hnTkg0dy9JWUxZdz09 But there's a few things I want you to specifically ask him about: 1) Duality 2) Relativity 3) LOC's 4) What is consciousness? If you do that we got a deal...? Thank you for the comments I'm trying to eat as healthy as possible I hope you and your family are staying safe as well.

VeganJuice...I like it... it made me crave some V8 juice and beer though lol ?

?... I can save you a little time... his whole teaching is built around deprogramming the individual so they can live completely free. I would still read the book because this words can deprogram quick.❤

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Wow bud you actually just spoke the truth here and didn't even realize it.... Nothing actually needs to be done it's just whether there's suffering or not.. And even that wouldn't matter...

It's not a speck it's a veil ❤ They brutally crucified Jesus Christ...? No I don't believe I'm Jesus haha... Please don't project that negative label on me... for the love of illusion.