Uchira

Apparently, 2 weeks without a single video, i wonder what happened to him.

Why is Leo Gura promoting drugs like 5-Meo-Dmt? I have watched his last video and he said something about Datura. So i want what others think about that.

@Arhattobe Yes, he said it is a dangerous drug which can possibly make you trip so that you forget you took the drug ,

23 years old, lives with mom and do nothing for living

What happened to him?

I was just wondering why people get high on weed, dmt, alcohol, cigar, and every other drugs.

Traditionally, people get high right

Hello. i am 22 years old male. The very first time that i tried cannabis was 4 years ago then i moved to another country to study. i had been sober for times in japan but in my country my friends were waiting for me to smoke weed and celebrate that i am in my country. i felt that i have some fundamental problems in my life and did not fix the problem. For now, i did dropout from my college. Jobless. My life is just downgrading. But it did not hit the rock bottom yet. Honestly, i have just done meth today. I am feeling so much regret in my heart hiding. But i love my mom really and i am the only person that she has. i am currently living with her. She does not know anything. But man she loves me soo much that if i disappoint her, i will feel horrible. I did try to get my life back. but it did not work. i was very energetic and veeryy naive person. Look, in fact, i am not a hardcore addict but i feel like i am very close to lose myself. i am just resisting. i remember, when i was 17-18 y.o, i was super excited to give value to people around me and very ambitious and bright. but now i am very dark and sad.

guys i am not meth addict. I did it once in my life. But i am becoming so sensitive to others judgement about me. My future is cloudy. I have no willing to live anymore

So it is being obvious that leo gura is encouraging us to take more psychedelic. I am not taking Leo Gura as the issue, i am just trying to give an answer to the question like '' is taking DMT, LSD, and Psychedelic mushrooms really actually helpful to our personal growth?'' and '' Do we have to take those drugs to personally grow?''

I have been smoking weed, not everyday since last year. I have tried not to smoke again and concluded that smoking cannabis is not for me. But lately, i am considering that how can i be productive, meditate and feel my spiritual part of me getting help from THC in my blood. i am re-thinking that what if i was just failed to do it properly. Actually, i have already had few pots. So i want to hear something you guys?

I was in America last year and I am still not able to fully comprehend what happened to me during that period of time. Finally one year after, i started to notice that i was hallucinating. But i want a help from you guys to grasp what happened to me. So let me tell you what i remember and the whole plot. The "Work and Travel" Programme provided me with the chance to work in USA for three months. First two months were just normal, doing my part time job, and smoking some weed in free time. But in the last two weeks, I quit my job, because i had enough money, meditated when high, did some exercise routine and watched Leo's video about absolute infinity part 1&2 when high. Everything was just normal before i met a very interesting, homeless, radically open-minded black 76-years-old man in the street. He just blew my mind because we talked about many concepts (Ego, spiritualism, masturbation, etc..) and then he brought me to a church (he told me the church is not just a church like others). When the pastor came out and talked to me, i just suddenly cried. They prayed for me. After that, i asked the old guy '' you wanna smoke some weed?'' and he said '' why not''. We had a more deep conversation. After the conversation ended, i went to my apartment. I cried. I talked to myself. The funniest part was that i thought i felt the scratch of the enlightenment. But here are the thing that i still cannot understand. 1. I went to 7 eleven convenient store and asked the cashier what time it was. She replied me '' Eleven seven" with a big witch-look-like smile on her face. My brain spontaneously thought that " 7 eleven and eleven seven what the fuck''. i ran out from the store. i don't understand why she scared the shit out of me. 2. i posted some strange posts on facebook. i posted a picture of homeless man that made me cry like baby. i had cried for like ten minutes straight. Then i saw my mother's picture, i cried again. 3. i literally thought that someone is going to bomb chicago and i have to go to my country. but then i just did some really weird stuff to people so that ambulance car came out and brought me to the hospital. actually, at this point, i think i have just gone crazy this time. and i really cant understand why i became crazy. it was really dangerous. i could be literally crazy psychopath. I dunno guys. but this all this nonduality stuff got me there. One thing i can really say is that i was suffering seriously.

@PsiloPutty @tsuki Reason i ran away is that when she looked at me and told me "it's eleven seven young boy", i realized there was a clock on the wall and it was not actually 11:07. And then i remembered the store's name "seven eleven". In that moment, i was terrified and scared of that lady because i assumed that she knows something about abnormality and non-dualism. I am totally functioning well here in Mongolia. I have to say that i was extremely lucky because if american government system were not friendly to foreigner (they actually sent me to public rehab center and took good care of me), i could be literally mentally disordered and could not be able to realize that i was mentally disordered. Thanks to U.S Health Care System.@Quanty @No-Thing

@Arman i am totally mentally healthy right now. it was happened one year ago and i just trying to understand the reason why i became and behave like that @No-Thing @Rilles @molosku

Dysfunctional life vs functional life.

Well hello all, i am currently employed in Forbes Mongolia. Before that i was unemployed for long time and felt like shit. Fortunately, i have a job now but paradoxically i feel i am not valuable here. I have a status called sales manager but fuck i just don't know what the fuck my problem is.

Hey guys.. i am now 22 years old living in eastern Asia, Mongolia. I used to think that i am going to have a successful career and i believed that strongly. I aced math and physics in High school so that i can go to Japanese high-ranked university. (In Mongolia, studying abroad, especially Japan and America, is considered quite big success) It was the biggest success i ever made in my life. But after studying there for 2 years, i just did not feel like continue studying there anymore. So i decided to dropout school and went back to Mongolia. Its been a one year since dropout. To be honest, i kind of regret it and hate someone who influenced me a lot to make that decision. For now, i am doing a busboy in a local pub. I just do not know. Everything seems meaningless to me. Passionless. Consuming videos on Facebook and Youtube. I wanna cry because i just cant find a way to get out from this situation.

@frnsh Thank you for your advice

Hello, I am Uchira. I want to know the other perspectives of shamanism all over the world.

As you know, i am the 20 year old married guy. I am a pleaser type of guy. okay i will say only the facts. I was in my home watching "God father" the scene that michael slaps his wife when he realized she aborted their baby. Then i wanted to meet her and called her. But she just hung my phone while i was talking. I called again again. I said okay thats enough. I took taxi, making myself angry. When i met her, she didnt expect that i would shout at her. I was keep shouting at her why wouldnt you respect me. She said i didnt hang your phone. I was like bullshit. She slapped me not so strong in order to shut me up. Then i just slapped her. She said i am scared to live with you in Japan. There is a lot of things happened you guys never know. I just believed i was angry. In fact, she threatened my ego by hanging my phone. My ego defended itself.

Thoughts are so fucking tricky man. Of course your life is not pointless. Just it seems like pointless doesnt mean it is pointless. I have been through that kind of period. But remember every time you think like that you are acting like a victim. @Davie

Whoa2 guys2 calm down, she left me haha. The interesting thing is that i feel like that wast the best thing ever happened to my life. I got time now for me.

I live in Japan studying but come from Mongolia. Everything was happening and then i got married when i was 19. I applied for family visa in order to live with her here in Japan. The problem is i have no idea that i love her. I just feel like i love her but in fact, i never questioned it before. Now i have too much obligation on her, her mother, my mother and everybody else. What if i just divorce. How is my faith gonna change? Haha I know that the only problem is in me, i know that.

I had been asking myself what am i supposed to do or be or think I have times that i realized how i used to blame myself for living like a dog. I used to say myself that i have to do what i am supposed to do too many times. In doing so, I am here in Japan receiving Japanese government scholarship 1500$ monthly ( pretty enough to me to survive). But now i feel like i studied my ass off because of my neurotic motivation. I feel like this kind of motivation is not last longer. i got depressed. But Leo said "world should be as it is". He said "stop fucking moralizing". So i just stopped doing it. But i know all the consequences. Leo said your natural desire is the strongest. My nature. i have no idea about that.

@Arik did you find your natural desire to change this world