I find the more introspective I get the more I find lacking in those around me and its this "lacking" that I perceive that makes me want to distance myself from them. The connection with those I love is not lessened by this, but - the need in me to either require them to evolve or take a back seat is my downfall. My evolution has nothing to do with anyone else, and the effort I put into it just takes some solitary time, and despite my best effort to share what I am learning, it always gets some sort of cynical response or none at all....its exhilarating and daunting to me, this self awareness journey, I can only imagine how it must seem to those who don't yet have the need (balls) to undertake a task of this magnitude. My path is mine, and the boulders in the way are mine to conquer, and if by osmosis those in my life can glean some sort of insight as to how to conquer their own then I have been a catalyst of postive change, as Leo has been in my life, but it takes seeking not sitting. Alone is good and 'reclusive' gives the much needed time and space to excavate and pave your way to the enlightenment we can only hope to acquire.
