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Melbourne, Australia.
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Hi Guys, I'm sure this is a common issue that many of us have encountered from time to time, but I'm really interested in hearing about your experiences with it. I've found over the past couple of years, and after delving into Actualized.org content, that I seem to have become more moralistic and critical of others who subscribe to ideology (progressive or conservative) or who tend to use black and white thinking (yes I am swimming a pool of irony here) I've been starting to address it specifically over the past couple of months and I *seem* to be making some degree of progress - mainly that it seems to be occurring less as well tending to not snowball. I've been drawn to The Work by Byron Katie as I've had it work wonders for a completely different issue I had had up until about 2 years ago. Last night an older video of Leo's popped up, "How to Stop Moralizing" - I do remember seeing it at the time and I probably thought "oh yeah i do moralize, but its not really causing any great emotional problems for me" - I had more pertinent issues at the time, but now this issue is probably my biggest one and what was previously only a minor irritation relative to my situation back then, is much more noticeable because there are fewer things to overshadow it. Anyhoo if anyone would like to share anything that relates to this that would be great - I know I'm not asking a specific question, but I really just wanted to hear others stories and if they are currently dealing with it. Cheers
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Just wondering if anyone is interested in sharing their experiences of when a trip went bad (or somewhat bad) and still found it helped them improve their perspective/developed their consciousness? How did you feel/what did you do in the proceeding days/weeks/months? I just dipped my toe in psychedelics and while I don't think I would say I had an entirely "bad" trip, it certainly wasn't 100% rainbows and sunshine!
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kodanope replied to kodanope's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Seems to be about being truly brave hey. Well, at least its simple and uncomplicated at the end of the day! -
kodanope replied to kodanope's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Thanks guys I only had a single tab as i wanted to take things steady because it was my first go. The nature of my trip probably has more to do with my motivations (using it existentially rather than recreationally) I had only some visual stuff with a picture on my wall and probably 70% of my experience was good - 25% was somewhat uncomfortable and the remaining 5% was somewhere between bad to "glimpses of terrifying." The most concerning part for myself was as a result of my mind and "external reality" melding into one thing. (some aspects of this were completely fine although strange), but in regards to the negative aspects of it, I can't even think of the scenarios i was imagining because it was kind of confusing, but it was like my consciousness was all that existed and that physical reality/my life was just a temporary facet of it (i understand that this is very much what non-duality is about and is a common insight) The main problem with this is that my mind became rather terrified of this at a few points, probably because i could see the truth of it. While i never saw any gruesome things. The terrifying parts were really only: -moments that felt like time wasn't progressing and I was going to be stuck in a moment for an eternity. -the other was where i felt like i might (as a result of this inquiry) cease to exist - as in lose all my memories, friends & family.. never see or feel anything ever again. My mind told me that this was dangerous and i'll never get back what i have. I understand that this is, of course, the ego mind at play, facing the prospect of its death, I have heard about it many times and I think deep down i always thought "when i try psychedelics, i'll be able to surrender to it because I've been practicing mindfulness for so many years" - well this certainly showed me! Haha The truth is (and i know many of you are well aware of this), it feels like you are actually going to die (or rather, just cease to exist.. or even worse, be placed in a moment of eternal suffering/insanity/no control). Has anyone had experiences like this specifically? Also, any more insights into how to surrender to it? I think next time i'll be having 3/4 of a tab lol. Thanks again! -
Hi All, I'm sure many of you have heard Leo or various other teachers discuss the "void" in which everything exists. Instinctively whenever I've heard this being referred to, I've always known that i wasn't quite getting it.. I would kind of just try to imagine nothingness.. darkness, the vacuum of space. Nothing really ever came to me as any kind of "realisation" and i could tell that i was just projecting concepts. So a few months ago i was laying down in my backyard, looking up at the night sky. I was thinking about fast we are moving through space. Earth spinning at 1,600km/h its also circling around the sun at 107,000km/h and then consider that the sun is also moving around the milky way galaxy at 720,000km/hr Since there isn't really any kind of universal frame of reference, i began to imagine how we could potentially be moving through space at an infinite speed. I just entertained the idea. Thats when i had an Oh My God moment. It was a deep realisation that, even right now im unable to recapture in the way i did in that moment. I imagined, a cubic meter of a "location" in space that is absolutely motionless.. Stars, Planets, Us.. all passing through it at unfathomable speed. Completely unaffected by it. Sometimes it is "filled" with the vacuum of space and sometimes it is filled with the center of a planet, or even something as dense as a neutron star. It is the nothingness that allows all things to exist within it. Just thought i would share how i came upon this realisation myself in case anyone else was in the same place as I was up until this insight. Coincidentally I heard Leo mention it in one of his more recent videos where he described an object (i think it was a hammer) in empty space as an example. I just thought that even though the way in which I came to my realisation is more convoluted, it might just be the thing that someone needs to get the insight