Hello guys , Im writing this post because something that is very dissapointing thing happend to me . Im 25 years old and i suffer from Social anxiety . Today i had job interview it wasnt something very important to me but i was extremly anxious (i was thinking just to leav and run away before the interview i was that anxious)even though there was no real reason to be.Somehow i convinced my self to wait the interview. The HR came into the room he was young guy and very friendly he saw that i was nervous and staret with small talk he didnt press me at all . But i was speaking like a fucking idiot when im anxious im not the same person anymore, my voice alter , i cant control my body , start to speak quicly and indistinctly i cant think at all i just speak fucking nonsense because anxiety paralizes my brain . i,ve had that kind of situations in the past in the universitity when i had to present something or present myself to someone. On the other hand im not isolated i have a lot of friends and im very cool and funny and i feel comfortable around them . I just cant perform in the way i shoud in society i act on 20% of my full potential but i just cant handle the anxiety . I try to chalenge myself with certain situations but when it comes especialy if it something to present myself i become weird idiot who cant introduce himself . So guys can you give me some advices shoud i visit therapist or some practices or maybe psyhadelics . I dont want this anxiety ruin my live .
B.s i meditate and im very intersted in spirituality so this is not lack in my live . Best regards
